Memoria - cleared

I honest to god cried at the end. Like wtf? A love story of a fake princess and a man-staff? But damn, did it get to me. Phew.

I also couldn't help thinking that in terms of feminism this game is really cool. It has two really kickass female characters who are very brave, smart and have their own identity. You really don't get that much.

Graphics:
Not amazing but well-suited for this kind of game. They could probably make it a bit lighter though, kept lagging on my PC.

Gameplay:
Quests are all pretty similar in that but I really liked the additional options of the 6 magic spells.

Plot:
Really great plot. Unexpectedly elaborate and elegant and touching.

Difficulty:
I found it more difficult than most modern quests but not as impossible as the old-school ones. Really interesting solutions that make you think. I only cheated about 4 times throughout the whole game.

Overall: 19/20

Thank you, Germans. Gonna let myself rest from the journey and then move on to Chains of Satinav.

@темы: Games

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Работа сегодня вымотала. Всего 2 серии, на это должно было уйти 1-1,5, а я промучилась с ними весь день. Уже несколько месяцев работаем над проектом, ну почему мне приходится мучится со всем этим бредом? Порой кажется грамотность в русском языке уже встречается реже, чем адекватный перевод. И я теряюсь, когда мне дают решать - оставить человека или отослать. Мне ужасно не хочется лишать кого-то работы, но у меня есть предел. Сегодня моя совесть чиста - я дала шанс все исправть, но обратно получила все тот же результат.

Цитата дня: "Проблема была не столько в радиусе взрыва, который бы стер с лица земли звездную систему... "

@темы: work

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It's fucking 3.20 again but I wrote 300+ words and it's going really well. I've got a great feeling about this story.

@темы: fanfix

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Found another specualtive blog. But I like stuff like this. Some of the ideas are very reasonable. I liked this post especially.

Jaejoong's sexuality.

I think Jaejoong has hinted at his sexual preference in a smart way especially in past two years ”i have never written a song for a woman”,”what if people think i’m gay” , “i’ll never tattoo a woman’s name on my body” , ” my fans are more jealous of actors than actresses “about his interactions with his co -stars, ” my heart never flutters when i’m doing kissing scenes” , ” "…when I’m drinking, it’s 9 out of 10 chances that it’s among boys. … whenever I go drinking, I don’t usually call girls up. Is it because I don’t have interest in girls? In my phonebook, there’s female celebrities and excluding the female staff, I only have three female celebrities’ number … it’s been a million years since I haven’t contacted even those three..” , or the way he always brings attention to his co -stars ““As people said that we [JJ and Yihan] looked good together, there was a strange feeling in the scenes with Yihan hyung. I even questioned the way he looked at me. Because when you search with keyword ‘Jin Yihan’, the results related to gay would come out. Ha ha! Is it like that because we’re too close?” / or how he bluntly says he has bad chemistry with actresses but not actors “I always have weird chemistry. I go better with actors than actresses….” asking his co-star to even live with him “ “I have spent a week at Kim Jaejoong’s house. Kim Jaejoong likes me a lot and therefore he said to me ‘Let’s live together.’” Yihan . Jaejoong also often stated that kissed males like in his Dr. Jin Japanese fm where he said his latest kiss was with a japanese friend in a game! And yes , jaejoong is feminine but he’s not the straight feminine because he was in a relationship with a man “yunho” so that pretty much makes him the gay feminine if people are going to argue that he’s just feminine because it’s a fact that many gay people are feminine .. This shows perfectly that jaejoong is just gay and this his way of testing people’s waters on how they would think if he ever came out.. He dated women in his early teens but anything about other girlfriends were pretty much rumors and even if he did have dated women that doesn’t imply that he’s bisexual for the simple fact that he must have had his phase of denial . The difference is that Yunho is gay but discreet about it while Jaejoong deals with gayness like an open secret .. I have three gay friends and all of them agree that jaejoong is definitely gay and if you search kpop forums you’ll read a fan account of a fanboy who went to jae’s Yokohama concert and was assured that jaejoong is gay— because a gay man can tell . I think with Yunho’s existence in Jae’s life he had come to realize what his preference was and slowly came to embrace it

everyoneisgaypop.tumblr.com/post/60425952283/ja...

That's very legit. So yeah, it would be hard to come out one by one so let's have a massive coming out fest! But if one of my babies would come out I'd cry my eyes out with pride.

@темы: Jaejoong, the eternal debate, K-pop

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Memoria

Had a bit of a shitty day yesterday and there's nothing like good game to clear your mind of stupid shit. Well, in my case.

I started playing this game called Memoria. The general story, distracting someone to steal stuff, overhead speech, even a maze... It’s a really nice quest very reminiscent of the old-school quests of the 90’s where the solutions don't come easy. Reminds me of Kyrandia which I never got to finish. But apart from the pleasant graphics and good plot it’s based on The Dark Eye games (a German version of D&D) which means it’s the same world as Drakensang that I really missed.

I like how it was two parallel plotlines and two playable characters. The princess is really tough as well as the rest of female characters. Maybe even too tough. But anyway it's very engaging. I already cleared 4 parts and will probably clear several more today.

@темы: Games

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Saw a crippled version of my Wink Up article translation on tumblr. Seems like someone translated it to Portuguese without crediting me and then this person translated it back into English. Bad English, may I say. I'm not angry about it just a bit frustrated. There's something wrong with this fandom. Really. Or is it just humanity?

@темы: musings, Translations

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Ok, I'm so fucking done with this concert. 400++ screens, 10 gifs.... So here, I'll post these two since tumblr is a real bitch and that will be the end of it.





That sums it up well. Adios~

@музыка: PJ HARVEY - Send His Love To Me

@темы: my!gif, Alice Nine

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This is so old. Can't meet the people I want to hang out with. Don't want to hang out with those I can. Sometimes I try to convince myself I should go out with someone at least but that really makes me feel guilty. I wouldn't want to be someone's 9th option and I don't want to treat someone this way. Although I really should text the girls from courses. N should give birth around next month I think.

Speaking of which I still haven't quite decided on the courses. I mean I kinda hated the book we are using and the whole year was very unproductive. I probably learned more by translating and watch niconico. Plus I'll have to use my last stash to pay for them. But in the end I'll probably end up applying anyway just because going there is my only way of socializing. I haven't gone out once since graduation and it's kinda sad.

@темы: musings

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Good job on not reading the creepy lyrics! A fucking +!

Anyway, thought I have read the lyrics to Kowloon before I managed to forget them. Until now. But the line that really got me was this:

時は経ち、みにくいアヒルには
Time is passing for the ugly duckling...

I didn't notice it before and now it seems more that an eerie coincidence. I know he writes the lyrics based on the song's imagery and usually draws insight from outward sources but still this is so disturbing.

But perhaps even more surprising was the DEAD SCHOOL SCREAMING. I mean turns out it's almost entirely in English. It's even go the word 'languid' in it. But then again the Japanese lyricist probably use words that most English-speaking people never use. But in terms of the concert they're nothing more than pump-up songs, I guess. Shou doesn't bother with the lyrics much and it's not like anyone would care anyway.

@темы: Shou, lyrics, Alice Nine

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Fuck You

I adore her. This is so unexpected but so expected at the same time.

@темы: video

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You know you're an adult when you're...

- doing grocery shopping and buy veggies

- getting a credit card

- paying the bills

- being invited to homecoming and realize it's been 10 years

- 90's don't seem like that long ago

- refusing mother's snacks offer because you know you need to have a proper meal

- meeting your best friend from school who is divorced with a kid

- seeing 10-year olds who you remember holding as babies but you still look the same

@темы: musings, list

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In all my years there has never been a summer so ingloriously wasted.

@темы: snapshot

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I think one of the saddest things that happen is when someone decides that the world is full of assholes and assumes they have every right to treat it accordingly thus replenishing the aforementioned population.

@темы: musings

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Note to self: Never read the lyrics when you know they will freak you out!

乾きへなぞらせて
軋む 闇夜の劣情
熱まで閉じ込めた
理性、麻酔に冒され

Scarlet was the only song that I really loved out of the 6 songs released this year. It's so deep and dark and sexy and very unsettling. I never really read the lyrics properly, I guess I was too scared to. And I was right. Today as I watched this performance I read them carefully and they freaked the hell out of me. I don't think I can ever listen to this song again without cringing. Because it's blood, you know. It's filled with blood. It broke something inside me, or rather it reminded me that something inside me is broken.

Even after all these years... I'm sure Shou is a lot happier now than he used to be but it pains me to know just how much darkness he still has, hidden deep inside. And I know it all too well.

@темы: angst, Shou, Alice Nine

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Suddenly but not surprisingly I've got a PJ Harvey stage. So brutal and strong.

Since I'm on it I'll also post my top 10 female singers.
In no particular order:

Anouk
Utada Hikaru
Maria Mena
PJ Harvey
Gala
Hvoya
Elisabeth Fraser
Bjork
Sandra Nasic
Toriko
Marina
Melanie Martinez

I have a feeling this says a lot more about me than my list of male artists.

@музыка: P J Harvey - The Dancer

@темы: list, snapshot

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I began writing as just one of the forms of self-expression, to prove myself that I can, to clear my mind of the persistent ideas lurking there. But now it's become something more, something necessary. I didn't feel that I evolved in my writing, it's still hesitant and awkward but I guess every writer feels this way, even the greatest of them. Now I feel that I might have evolved without realizing it, in a different way than I expected, got bolder and more determined if anything.

Lately I write quite regularly. I set goals for myself without putting too much pressure. I guess writing has become a sort of therapy, really. There days as I try to cling to the remains of my sanity writing anchors me. Instead of draining myself by thinking about all the shit in my life I channel my thoughts and my ideas into stories, making them cathartic.

I was planning to finish the two pieces of my main arc before moving on to other works but somehow I ended picking up that one semi-AU story I began writing last Spring and it took off pretty well. I only had a very rough draft of the main structure and now I'm re-writing every scene, breathing life into it. Again, rather than being a romantic story I greatly derailed into the direction of self-awareness, trying to connect and find your purpose. Well, that's just how I am, I guess.

@музыка: Weiss Kreuz - Stone Roses

@темы: musings, fanfix

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It seemed like a good idea at the moment, a chance not to be wasted but I almost regret it, it's as if I breached the threshold between two worlds, ruined the delicate balance between dream and reality and it's haunting me. This is so stupid but I can't shake off the feeling.

@темы: angst, musings

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Even though I had a very A9 day yesterday, emotionally packed and mentally draining tonight I had this weird dream that was basically a bad DBSK fanfic, a crossover even coz I remember Heechul. WTF, brain?

Also talked to my sister. She seems so out of it. I never really expected her to understand but this was different. It felt like we were on different planets, like she didn't hear a word of what I said. It kind of scares me. She is probably going to get hurt again and it might be a disaster. Me, I just never lied to myself like she does. I've been poor and lonely most of my life so that's nothing new. I'm not even sure if I'm being caring or selfish because I know it's here that she come back to heal her wounds if it comes crashing down.

@музыка: Maria Mena - Internal Dialogue

@темы: family, Dreams

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A very Alice Nine Day

THE CONCERT

Got up before 11 AM. So early for me. But it was worth it.



It was a really great concert. I was a little upset being cut off from the encore but I was still glad that I was allowed to be a part of this. I had so many feels that I almost hated them for making me love them even more. They are really amazing. The concert was a little late so I was a little worried that they didn't make any pauses, just delivering song after song but it was awesome. Shou’s singing was great and everyone gave it all they had. You could feel the love in every song.

Some of the coolest things:

- Rare songs and generally cool playlist

- ToraxShou in Blue Planet and Rainbows

- Shou’s arm!porn

- Tora’s fluffy hair

- Scarlet X_X

- The lack of hairspray in their hair allowed their hair to actually move

- Shou constantly putting his stray hair behind his ear ♥_♥

- Unexpected arrangements

- Shou’s gentle MCs

The quality wasn't great. Really looking forward to seeing the concert in October, hope they won’t cut it off.

MORE

THE FANSIGNING

Since the Arena 37C could only be ordered from Japan my friend offered to help me and ordered it for me. When she got it we found out that if you fill in and send a special card you get a chance to be one of the lucky 200 people who get their book signed. I’ve never really cared about signs but since it was there… She said I should take a chance and if I win she’ll go. I won. She went.

My friend is not a fan but she was nice enough to go get my book signed for me. The event was supposed to be after the concert, from 8 to 9 PM but due to a delay it only began at about 9. I think it was because they were so behind the schedule that the staff pushed people by really fast. Getting the book signed took no more than a minute. Just as I expected Shou said “Thank you very much!” in English. ♥ Also I didn't expect Nao to be called Cool and Tora to be called Cute and not vice versa. But it was interesting to get a fresh look and I now have a bonus to my book.



Unfortunately I missed the 3rd part - Alice9 Channel. But I'm sure a certain someone shall record and share it later.

@темы: Alice Nine

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9周年おめでとう!

My dearest, precious boys! It's been some 7 years since we met and more than 2 years since I fell in love with you. You didn't save my life but you brought me a lot of joy, have been helping me through these hard years and for that I'll be forever grateful. I don't think you make the best music in the world but you're very special and wonderful. I hope you go on as Alice Nine for many many years to come and that even when my face gets wrinkled I can still look at you and smile. Happy Anniversary, my dearest!

@темы: Birthday, Alice Nine