Ну, вот. Теперь я истинный Гакухайщик!



-Яночка, спасибо!

@музыка: BMX Bandits - Something About Us

@темы: GakuHai, little treasures

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По Eнтеру уже второй день подряд попадаю на Journey through the Decade. Бля, до сих пор не вериться, что это действительно происходит.

@темы: WTF?

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флешмоб от

Ассоциации.

Интересный набор. Некоторые понятные и ожиданные, а некоторые удивили.
Сорри за задержку. Ну, ты в курсе, да?

Красно-рыжий

Красно-рыжий
Тут все предельно ясно. Эта ассоциация мне приятна. Я даже не помню точно когда начала краситься в этот радикально красный цвет. Года 3 назад, думаю. И нескоро я с этим цветом захочу расстаться. Хотя любимый мой - синий, это мой цвет активации. К тому же к глазам мне идет.

Французский

Французский
Так мною и недоученый. Обидно, что забросила и стремительно теряю те основы, что успела усвоить за долгие 10? лет. Люблю французский. Красивый, сука. Люблю, но не понимаю. Надеюсь однажды все же...

Marlboro light

Marlboro light
My poison since 2002. I think.

Сыр

Сыр
А что сыр? Не люблю его, да.

Fallout

Fallout
Fallout 2, если быть точной. Первый как-то не пошел. Одна из любимых игр. Кусок жизни, можно сказать. Люблю пост-апокалиптические концепты. РПГ с пошаговым режимом битвы, как раз для таких тормозов как я. Проходила множество раз, последний раз - вдоль и поперек. Даже обидно было, я под конец стала настолько крута, что Френк Харриген пал на первом ходу. Я даже сама не успела в него выстрелить. С 3-м, кстати, так и не сложилось. Вот как буду переставлять комп в следующий раз...

Frederick Herman Jones

Frederick Herman Jones
Удивила, честно говоря. Никогда бы не додумалась. Не помню, чтобы когда-либо особо распостранялась на эту тему, во всяком случае настолько, чтобы сформировать ассоциацию. Мой дорогой Фредди, моя первая любовь. В том нежном возрасте 8 лет мне нравились интеллигентные голубоглазые блондины. И вовсе неважно, что нарисованные.
Как говориться: "I just met a wonderful new man. He's fictional but you can't have everything."

Пушистый хвостик

Пушистый хвостик
Есть у меня такой и я его очень люблю. Очень мало у меня такой любимой хрени, а тут вдруг захотелось чего-то. На себе я его не ношу - жалко, да и не к чему как-то. Нынче висит на светильнике, которому, похоже, суждено остаться декоративным.
img.photobucket.com/albums/v432/Swoon/SP_A0001....

@музыка: Jaejoong & Yoochun - Been So Long

@темы: flashmob

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5stars faded...or not

All this time, ever since the first report, while everyone was panicking I remained surprisingly calm, as if I could care less. It's only now that I feel scared shitless.

@музыка: G-Dragon - Why Be Normal

@темы: Lawsuit

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Got to bed at 5 am. Again. And it's not only because of the Sims (I'll write about that later)

Lately I'm hopelessly enamoured with Jae. It's aesthetical more than anything. I can just stare at his pictures for hours, like a work of art to be praised.

Finally I have the desire to read some YunJae (ChunJae would do well too, but there's not much to read) I have a few stories stashed and I decided it's high time to read them. So I've read this story by wedspawn called "The Pirate and the Kitten" It's not bad, but it's so damn cliche and the more I read it the more I couldn't shake off the feeling that I'm reading one of those cheap paperback romantic novels, exept there's YunJae in it. Shouldn't wedsapwn be past mid-life crisis, she's over 40 already.

@музыка: JaeJoong and Yoochun - Rainy Blue

@темы: fanfix

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Announcement

Товарищи, доверившие мне свой заказ!

Я приношу извинения за задержки. Также извиняюсь, что не информировала по ходу. Не люблю промежуточный результат. Я делела все, что было в моих силах. Пришлось 2 раза ходить в банк, регистрироваться на paypal, докладывать свои деньги из-за курса и делать заказ 6-7 раз. Но теперь я могу утверждать:

Посылка уже в пути и сейчас находится в Seoul Gwangjin airport, ожидая своего рейса.

Остается ждать, скрастив пальцы.

@музыка: BMX Bandits - Something About Us

@темы: address

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Songs of the Week

Sid - Monochrome no Kiss
Also known as Kuroshitsuji opening, which explains a lot. But it's a really good song and it fits the anime well too.

Moon HeeJun - Toy
HeeJun fulfilled my expectations and came up with another great song. It's more than just a song I like, it strikes something deep inside and resonates.

GACKT - The Next Decade
Finally a song from Gackt that rocks. It seems like the first notable and original piece since Jesus.

I hate having to write his name this way. It's so typical of him to do something as silly and vain as this.

@музыка: TVXQ - Nothing Better

@темы: snapshot

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Kotoba ni Dekinai

So it's finally finished. The story that started as my birthday present, based on my idea. It was my last attempt of the kind. I have quite a few good ideas, but I'm unable to make them into stories. Last time the idea I shared with her materialised into 'prove life some'. It turned out good, but so far from what I had on my mind. I thought that maybe if I provided a backbone of the plot and some notes it might be different. Guess not.
Somehow she managed to build the plot according to my description and follow all of my notes and yet it's nothing like I hoped it would be. The first several chapters were really good and I had a lot of expectations, but then things started to deteriorate. The main problem is that while she followed the plot and structure, she effectively changed the idea of the story. She also created several storylines which were left kinda unsolved. But apart from that what, the thing that really kept me from enjoying the story was the obscene sappiness. It's painfully apparent in the intermissions. It's not that I don't like sensitive men or don't like them getting emotional and showing their feelings. But I believe men, even the gayest of them, are not capable of such sickeningly sweet and melodramatic words.

I still think she's a good author and all, but I feel bitter thinking how her first story moved me so deeply and now I don't even know what to say to her without hurting her feelings. It's just so awkward. Maybe she's having a mid-life crisis, she's in her thirties after all.

I don't blame her, of course. She did what she could. I believe the creativity itself does not fully belong to the authors, sometimes stories just seem to write themselves.

It's no good to say it could have been better. All in all despite the dissatisfaction I'm flattered that I was able to inspire her so much and in 2 months the story has grown into 28 chapters, not to mention the intermissions. It feels good knowing I have a story written and dedicated to me.

kandadze.livejournal.com/108466.html#cutid1

@темы: fanfix

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...My true love is Nicky as well.

Oh, my. I can't believe this. It's been 6 or 7 years since I heard about this interview. Everyone was talking about it, but noone seemed to have it. It became a myth almost and I lost all hope of seeing it. People were like: "No one is ever going to see it." But yesterday...

And...

They look so confused and so cute. I can't get over how right and how beautiful they looked together.

PS. Посты с тегом Nostalgic Pushead касаются моих дожироковых интересов и вообще не подразумевают реакции от ПЧй. Данный пост посвящен очень важному вещдоку касательно моего 2-го ОТП, записанного на видеокассету в далеком 1992-м в Японии и лишь теперь достигнувшего широких масс. Хвала японским слешерам!

@музыка: The Feeling - Sewn (Yoochunnie's BGM's pretty good)

@темы: Nostalgic Pushead, slash

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Bootylicious

Тема не нова и даже избита. Я не собиралась делать очередное видео о выдающихся достоинствах Джунсу, честно. Но как-то раз мне в голову пришла мысль: как так, что никто не сделал видео на эту песню? Пришлось восполнить этот досадный пробел.

www.4shared.com/file/129486944/f6799a64/Bootyli...

@музыка: Spellbound Of Tvxq

@темы: fanvid

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Лирическое отступление

Про**ала опять.

11 августа исполнилось 3 года с тех пор как я завела этот дневник.

Вначале это было скорее шагом социализации. У всех были дайрики и я решила поробовать. Первое время как-то все не клеилось. Мои посты были продиктованы скорее желанием делиться. Вопрос был с кем. У меня было очень мало ПЧ по сравнению с другими людьми и меня это огорчало. Но со временем я поняла: почему люди должны на меня подписываться, если я не подписываюсь к людям? Я не вступаю в сообщества, не участвую в дискуссиях. Если мне нет дела до других, почему они должны интересоваться мной?

На данный момент реально у меня около 20 ПЧ, комментит из которых от силы 10. Избранных - 12, не считая сообществ. И мне этого достаточно.

Then I switched to English mostly. And it became much easier. Since I write my actual diary that way. Since then for me this diary became more than a blog filled with spam, it became a means of self-expression. It's almost a need. Whenever I watch or read something, have some interesting experience or a thought I become restless until I put it all down. It doesn't matter whether it's a post dealing with deep existential questions or a picpam, there're all important to me.

At one point I seriously contemplated going to lj, but I decided against it in the end. Just because I'd get more comments is too shallow a reason. And it's too late, really. Currently my diary has 35 pages, which is what? about 700 posts?

Right now I'm mostly satisfied with the way things are. I don't have many readers, but come to think of it, I have all the people that matter and that's what counts. I write posts first and foremost for myself. It is a diary after all. Some posts don't require comments at all. Sometimes I do get a little bit upset when I don't get any for days, but I can get over it. After all, too often I myself am too lazy to comment or just can't find anything to say.

This diary became an important part of my life. Rather that means of communication it's an outlet for my thoughts and feelings, an archive for my memories and a kind of creative work.
Happy belated Birthday, Dear Diary!

@темы: diary, musings

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Kuroshitsuji

I've never really been into anime. But recently that skit bu Niji no ninjin left me quite impressed and as I stumbed upon direct links for the anime I thought "why not give it a try?".

The setting of Victorian England and the gothic feel quite appeals to me. The animation itself is pretty good too. But surely that alone is not what entices me so much.

Kuroshitsuji is not a shounen-ai anime, but it has a lot of ambiguity and implications. Боян))

I was kinda clueless up until about 3rd episode. That's when it finally dawned on me there's something going on. At first I was like "isn't the boy 12? What's wrong with you, people?" But very soon I started to appreciate the subtle homoeroticism. At some points it was hard not to. I couldn't help sighing "this is so fucking romantic!"

for a moment there I almost expected a kiss

It was later that I found out about the huge fandom with tons of PWPs and NC-rated doujinshi. Most of them Ciel/Sebastian. And for the first time since forever I felt repulsion. And not only because the boy is 12 (or 13, in second half of the anime). His mental age is far beyond that. This is one of the cases when I prefer to leave things as they are - with only a subtlety.

Another thing I love about the anime is unexpectedness. You go WTF? several times in each episode. The demon is charming and graceful and the angel is psychotic and destructive while shinigami save the day. And I don't think I can ever get used to skipping from bloody murder scenes to chibi humour in a second. Despite the general dark atmosphere there are some really cute parts.



All in all I got really fascinated. And the ending scene was really... I actually shed a tear.

Not long ago the fandom was struck with the news that Season II is announced. People are restless trying to figure out what the hell that means. I'm not sure what to make of it myself. It's good to know you get to see more of the great anime, but i'm really suspicious about the plot. I'm afraid it will spoil the whole idea. The ending seems so perfect to me, as sad as it is.

@музыка: Kalafina - Lacrimosa

@темы: anime, Kuroshitsuji

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Each ending is also inevitably a beginning of something new.

@музыка: жуткая попса с улицы X_X...

@темы: one-liner

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От ~Галчонка Хватайки~

1) Копируете список своих ПЧ.
2) Вычеркиваете тех, которых видели в реале.
3) Подчеркиваете тех, с кем бы хотелось встретиться.
4) Выделяете жирным шрифтом тех, которые вам дороги.
5) Курсивом пишете имена тех, кого вам хотелось бы узнать поближе.
По идее те, кто оказался выделенным каким-либо образом, копируют список своих ПЧ и постят моб у себя в дневнике, но:
-Во-первых, по-моему все, кроме меня его уже постили.
-Во-вторых, не люблю принуждения, так что участие свободное.

.love unspoken., Yuki, Alex_Cale, Di Kaidzumi, hagane-chan, Kaili, kaori hayashi, Mari Asai, rabbibot, Security, Shim ChangMin, Tsurai, VG-Red, vomperko, Yana., Киллия, Тело-хранитель Макса, ~Ikuto~, ~Галчонок Хватайка~, ~Энни~

PS: Yuki, ник у тебя неудобный, дайри опять его съел, посему буду писать без скобок.

@музыка: Kalafina - Gloria

@темы: flashmob

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“We have enormous love to the applicants and right now we’re seeking a long-range plan vision to debut them in Hollywood, United States. We hope this case can be resolved.”

SM is so full of shit.

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I was about to enter my apartment with a bag of groceries in hand when I was addressed by this young woman in tears. She said her father died and they needed two people to be present for some reason. He was our neighbour from across and he was a really annoying old man, but seeing his motionless body on the bed was heartwrenching especially since I saw him just yesterday and he seemed to be fine. What a lousy way to end the day.

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life is unfair

This product is out of print and no longer available from the publisher



First press is sold out at YesAsia! Whyyyyy? There so few things I want in this life and this stupid edition was one of them.

Ok. Let's consider our options:

MORE

YesAsian offers DVD only for the same 60 bucks:
www.yesasia.com/us/dong-bang-shin-ki-all-about-...

They still seem to have first press at Dvdheaven. Two options:

the same edition with poster at 60 bucks
www.dvdheaven.com/dvd/dvd_detail.php?idx=27515
or
dvd and photobook only at 45 bucks
www.dvdheaven.com/dvd/dvd_detail.php?idx=27514

I wanted the poster, but it will most certainly end up gathering dust and paying 15 bucks for it is ridiculous.

Thus I would choose the last option. Though I never used dvdheaven before.
All I can do now is wait until tommorow.