I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
5月20日ZIP! (NEWS新曲PV)

5月21日少年倶楽部プレミアム(NEWS)

5月27日キリンチャレンジカップ(手越;)

5月27日スッキリ!! (手越;)

5月27日 PON! (手越;)

5月27日 Hirunandesu! (手越;)


6月1日イッテQ(エンターテイナー手越;)

6月1日行列(手越;)

6月2日 (月;) 深イイ話 (手越;)

6月2日 ネプリーグ (Koyamasu)

6月3日ボンビーガール(手越;)

6月6日 Pekepon (Shigemasu)

6月6(金;) 世界番付 (手越;)

6月8日 LIVE MONSTER(NEWS)

6月8日 Music Japan (NEWS)

6月9日 月曜から夜ふかし Getsuyou kara Yofukashi (手越;)

6月10日 all 4 of them on k-chan news


6/13(金;)-7/9(水;) 2014 FIFAワールドカップ ブラジル

6月14日 Tensai Shimura Doubutsuen (手越;)


It bothers me that Tegoshi's schedule is all up on the site but everyone else's is not.





@темы: schedules

02:01

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I was pretty sure I won't have any job for another 2 week or so but turns out I was wrong. Which is supposed to be good because we need to eat but you know. So next 10 days are gonna be a bit tough. The gandom is having a brief splash of activity, Marvel Heroes celebrate their first anniversary online and I found exciting new series and documentary. I bet I'm also going to have all the inspiration I need for my fics. Oh, well. I'll just have to learn to let it go.

Thankfully I've already dealt with ItteQ and I'll try to deal with Ippuku tomorrow, the rest is not that important. Overall, the fandom has been incredibly nice to me and I am still overflowing with ideas so for now that's enough.

21:26

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The weather is disgustingly good. I bet somewhere this summer I'm going to have a breakdown or two. Isn't it funny how at some point in your life you know like a hundred people and you can hang out with a few dozen at least but then years later you're on your own and not a single person you can call. You're all alone and it takes all the confidence in the world just to convince yourself that it's not about you, that you deserve better that you won't die that way.

@темы: musings

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Up until now I thought Gackt was the coolest human being I've ever seen but now I'm not even sure. But the thing is Tegoshi is small and frail-looking and you would never have a slightest idea how fucking strong he is.

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That was the most badass performance I've see all year. He fucking did it again

@темы: Tegoshi Yuya

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This has to be the thrashiest drama I watched this year. Hopefully. But since I struggled through it I might as well write a few words.

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I was actually looking for something very simple and fun to watch, good entertainment and this seemed like a valid option. It's basically a spy comedy drama or more accurately a spy parody. I thought My Boss My Hero was ridiculous but that was nothing compared to the level of stupid in this one. You can just throw all reason out the window before watching. And it was kind of amusing but I think I mostly laughed at the ridiculousness than actual humour. And then there is the star cast of Nagase Tomoya, Fukada Kyoko and wtf Sekai no Nabeatsu. Basically, Ep. 1 was fun enough to make it to Ep. 4 and then, you know...

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Rating: 5 (watchable)

@темы: dorama

18:42

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@музыка: PJ Harvey - A Place Called Home (Live)

@темы: Tegoshi Yuya, my!gif

02:42

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Emma! Fucking finally! :tear:

@темы: Games

16:03

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Looks like I'm having my first Tegoshi rejection stage. I kinda expected this to happen so it did. But there was no real trigger, I really have no idea, it just happened like an hour ago. It'll probably pass soon but I should abstain from looking at him too much.

@музыка: 東方神起 - TRI-ANGLE

@темы: Tegoshi Yuya

01:43

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Until grade 6 Tegoshi and Shige believed in Santa Claus. In grade 7 I began to smoke. FML.

@темы: one-liner

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
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Beforethoughts: I was really excited about the Shounen Club Premium. It's weird, I'm a relatively new fan but I already got so desperate to see them live. I mean they haven't been on a show together since the Countdown. The song is pretty good too. Well, as good as a song with 32 country names in it can be. And then of course the fact that the first broadcasted show of this little comeback was on my birthday.

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@музыка: Destiny's Child - Feel the Same Way I Do

@темы: NEWS.

23:21

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16:58

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This is the best birthday card I ever got, hands down. Thank you, Blingee!



04:14

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01:22

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Fuck Jim! Fuck Janis! Fuck Brian! Fuck Kurt! Fuck Jimmy! And fuck you too, Richey just for good measure! Bitchez, I'm alive!

- this has been a promise to my 17-year old self. This middle aged woman keeps her word. That is all. This is where I move on.


@темы: myself, Nostalgic Pushead, milestone

17:55

Rant

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Ugh... still 14 pages to go. I'm so lazy. Well, actually I read about the US government structure again and I'm so messed up now. Like I get it more or less but it's just way too complicated, man. Bureaucracy at its best. But the spoilers begin to seep through, next week's gonna be fun so I really need to give a kick myself and finish the work quickly!

@темы: work

01:13

THIS

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01:12

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
This past month I'm kind of ok. Not great I mean. I still have all sorts of anxieties but I have work and fandom and games and the weather's nice and I'm not depressed. It's just 2 more days though. Ugh. I don't want it but I'm not filled with dread either.

@темы: myself

16:55

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
As a fan I thoroughly enjoy Tegoshi's cross-dressing. But as a woman I kinda get annoyed sometimes. Like: "You say bras are uncomfortable. You don't know shit, boy. You can wear pretty dresses, bat your fake eyelashes and get all the admiration but after an hour you take it all off and go play soccer or drink with your buddies. You'll never have to worry about your period or getting pregnant or having to adhere to society's standards and be the sweet polite girl everyone expects you to be. Including you."

Ugh. I guess I'm just in a bitchy mood today.

@темы: musings, Tegoshi Yuya

14:36

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Oh, God. My feels……. My fucking feels..... I still remember each and every song....... The ending…............ T_T

@темы: video, TVXQ

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
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君は来るだろうか 明日のクラス会に
半分に折り曲げた
案内』をもう一度見る
付き合ってた頃 僕ら手を繋ぎながら
歩いた並木道 たくさんの人がゆくよ

The only person apart from my relatives who calls me anymore is my former friend. We used to be sort of best friends in high school but that was so long ago and it was more of a convenient arrangement than affection. She seeked me out out of some nostalgic feeling which I don't really share and looks like it's going to be this way for awhile. Even if I do nothing to show my interest she still comes over because she likes to make people listen and likes pretty things.

Today she's been bitching about her former husband and how much of a douchebag he is (but she's not that much better), what a lazy ass her current bf is because he didn't do what she was supposed to (why'd she come here if she had things to do?) and how much of a bother her new kitten is (it's not like he likes being sick dammit). I listened and tried to be patient, just like 12 years ago. I really can't figure out if I even like her at all. I'd be ok if we never met again.

My school memories are hardly warm. It's mostly a permanent feeling of being controlled and oppressed, smoking in the alleys, the taste of cheap wine and vodka and weed, all the faces I never want to see again, the bitterness of love and failed friendships... Nothing I want to live again. But when she's here I can remember it all too well. When I listen to songs like Aoi Bench I kind of wish I had some good memories of my own to look back to. What if I did have those, a perfect images of youth - a sweet boyfriend. good friends, wise teachers, wonderful field trips - would it make me happier now? Or perhaps so broken I wouldn't be able to go on at all.

@темы: bitching, Nostalgic Pushead, snapshot