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[_Aya_]

As I write this the last minutes of this day run out... No fireworks, no grand parades... Just like that. The world didn't smile at me, guys didn't give up their seats and the lectures were just as boring. I expected too much for years, and then... I didn't expect anything at all. It was a very bad timing, but dates are something you can't delay. I wrote in my actual diary with the intention of pasting it here later, but I never did. It was just some pile of depressive self-pity crap. But that's not the point. My expectations always exceed any possible human limits anyway. And it never pays off. But what do you do? Just walk on. Welcome to adulthood!

But I'm not sad. It wasn't all that bad though. You were there and it made it all worthwhile. I almost cried on my way back, dunno why. Almost. Two times is enough for one day. I never ask for anything. I won't now. Just be, ok?




Maybe I should have gone with you?..


Body temperature: 37.3 ~looks like it's become my normal.

@музыка: J-R shuffle

@настроение: spaced out

@темы: myself, address, milestone

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