I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
The first thing that come to mind is how much this year sucked. There were so many thing that went down. First there was a horrendously long Winter that never wanted to end. The Spring that only lasted a few weeks. A brief hope that I found my dream job which was crushed over the course of the next few months. The tough decision to leave the courses after 5 years. The Autumn filled with disappointment and anxiety. And the December that has pushed me to the edge of sanity.
Also somehow I found myself thinking how it's been 10 years from 2003 - a year where I graduated and a new age of my life began. Also a year when two of my very important bands were formed. So without meaning to I kept reflecting on this decade, it seemed like some sort of cycle. You know how these 10 years I kept having bad dreams about school? Well, they almost stopped. Not completely but it doesn't really bother me anymore.
This year I had struggle upon struggle even though there were some good things too occasionally. But I know I really tried my best and even if it didn't always work out I feel like I managed to do a couple of very important things at the end.
Right now I was writing my customary Totals post I thought about how the truth is that no matter how many terrible things have happened, even if they were yesterday - it doesn't have to matter. Today is today. Even if it wasn't the last day of the year I want to live in the today, take one step at a time. So now that it's less than an hour left of this year I want to leave the past demises and disappointments where they were. They shouldn't exist right now. I want to drop them off like a heavy load and proceed into the blank future.
Happy New Year!
Also somehow I found myself thinking how it's been 10 years from 2003 - a year where I graduated and a new age of my life began. Also a year when two of my very important bands were formed. So without meaning to I kept reflecting on this decade, it seemed like some sort of cycle. You know how these 10 years I kept having bad dreams about school? Well, they almost stopped. Not completely but it doesn't really bother me anymore.
This year I had struggle upon struggle even though there were some good things too occasionally. But I know I really tried my best and even if it didn't always work out I feel like I managed to do a couple of very important things at the end.
Right now I was writing my customary Totals post I thought about how the truth is that no matter how many terrible things have happened, even if they were yesterday - it doesn't have to matter. Today is today. Even if it wasn't the last day of the year I want to live in the today, take one step at a time. So now that it's less than an hour left of this year I want to leave the past demises and disappointments where they were. They shouldn't exist right now. I want to drop them off like a heavy load and proceed into the blank future.
Happy New Year!
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