[_Aya_]

A number of porcupines huddled together for warmth on a cold day in winter; but, as they began to prick one another with their quills, they were obliged to disperse. However the cold drove them together again, when just the same thing happened. At last, after many turns of huddling and dispersing, they discovered that they would be best off by remaining at a little distance from one another. In the same way the need of society drives the human porcupines together, only to be mutually repelled by the many prickly and disagreeable qualities of their nature. The moderate distance which they at last discover to be the only tolerable condition of intercourse, is the code of politeness and fine manners; and those who transgress it are roughly told—in the English phrase—to keep their distance. By this arrangement the mutual need of warmth is only very moderately satisfied; but then people do not get pricked. A man who has some heat in himself prefers to remain outside, where he will neither prick other people nor get pricked himself.

Arthur Schopenhauer, Studies in Pessimism

I suppose in a way all of my self development is not meant to improve my relationships with people but rather to get liberated, to become so self-sufficient so that I shall not have to need anyone, rely on anyone. So far though though I haven't quite been able to reach success. I keep searching but because of my impossibly high standards never seem to find the right people so it's just an endless treadmill that leaves me emotionally drained.

@темы: myself, musings, quote/unquote