Essay: Make-up

[_Aya_]

My “Number 2 pencil”. I honestly can’t remember for how long I had it. But my guess is since high school which is up to 10 years. This is history.
Most girls use make-up to make themselves prettier. For me it’s much more than that. It is to make me look how I feel. Same with clothes. Mother would frown “your clothes don’t match” or “that make-up makes you look sick”. That’s the point.
I began using make-up in grade 7. I wanted to look more mature, I wanted to look tough. We used to get scolded for it and sent to the bathroom to wash up but it never stopped me. Since then I would never go out for more than 10 minutes without make-up. I felt naked and almost freaked out if someone caught me without it. I guess it means I’m afraid of being found out, damasked.
Lately I tried to use minimum make-up or even go out without it. It takes time getting used to, but I want to try showing my real face for once. The problem is I played this role for so long sometimes I’m not sure what is the real me anymore.

@музыка: Akanishi Jin - A Page

@темы: myself, essay, little treasures

Comments

[Neko-chyan]

and u still haven't used it up by now? wow)

музыка: Akanishi Jin - A Page

and no comment from Saori? that's weird

[_Aya_]

Neko-chyan Yeah, it's ancient!

and no comment from Saori? that's weird

Yeah, I kinda expected it too. I quite like the song.

[Neko-chyan]

i haven't heard any of his songs from anew album
shame on me)