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среда, 16 июля 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
How come by the time someone in english-speaking fandom uploads rip of the file, the Thai have it properly encoded and subbed?What the hell is wrong with these backup dancers? They're too much! This is private property, you buggers!
Right, poke harder, Jae!
Doushite debuted at #1 today! Hope it stays there 
понедельник, 14 июля 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I'm really bored to even write this, but I feel like I should, especially since this one might be the last.
The party sucked. Big time. So I'll just mention all the ways in which it sucked.
-The sound was pretty damn awful. The only part when it was pretty decent was during the psychedelic band's performance. At some point I got really worried for my ear drums.
-The crowd was all right. It seemed rather civilized compared to last time. Nothing especially worth mentioning. But the Lolitas were nice to look at.)
-the MC was a really annoying prick that made me hant to throw a couple of bottles in his head.
The Bands. Kasumi was all right. They did a couple of decent Dir en grey covers. The musicians knew what they were doing and the vocalist did a good job at imitating Kyo's growling, but it takes more than that, really.
All My Fears - the Thrash/Death/Experimental band. That I could really do without. It felt like my head was going to explode. I don't know how people listen to that stuff, seriously.
Hvoya and Esolate. The only thing that saved the party from being a total failure for me. I was really impressed. It's good to know we have such artists. (and hey, she has Bjork in her friendlist on myspace) The music was really good and the girl's vocals were powerful and mesmerizing, especially aided by electronic distortion and effects by Esolate. Reminded me of Cocteau Twins and the girl really could rival Elizabeth Frazer. I even downloaded some demo tracks and wouldn't mind going to her gig in some cozy little club. But not in the freezing night when all I wanted was to dance. Besides the set was too long and had a bad timing. Not to mention it didn't have anything to do with Japan.
Angel Cry wasn't bad and their Illuminati cover was probably the best of covers presented that night. The little BDSM freak show didn't impress me and those boys looked disturbingly underage.
In conclusion: it's good to invite young promising artists, but the event was all about Japanese culture! Set up a young talent festivar or something. People came to dance and have a good time and most got neither.
The playlist. This is the most crucial part. We could probably forgive all of the above for at least a dozen of good old j-rock song that we could dance to. And no, Vanilla alone couldn't save the night. I didn't expect such a total and complete lack of taste and common sense. Especially the part with the most horrendous j-pop I've ever heard that made me appreciate the Johnnies' bands.
At this stage J-Rock culture in Ukraine is officially dead. I'm not going next year. We should just throw a home party.
The party sucked. Big time. So I'll just mention all the ways in which it sucked.
-The sound was pretty damn awful. The only part when it was pretty decent was during the psychedelic band's performance. At some point I got really worried for my ear drums.
-The crowd was all right. It seemed rather civilized compared to last time. Nothing especially worth mentioning. But the Lolitas were nice to look at.)
-the MC was a really annoying prick that made me hant to throw a couple of bottles in his head.
The Bands. Kasumi was all right. They did a couple of decent Dir en grey covers. The musicians knew what they were doing and the vocalist did a good job at imitating Kyo's growling, but it takes more than that, really.
All My Fears - the Thrash/Death/Experimental band. That I could really do without. It felt like my head was going to explode. I don't know how people listen to that stuff, seriously.
Hvoya and Esolate. The only thing that saved the party from being a total failure for me. I was really impressed. It's good to know we have such artists. (and hey, she has Bjork in her friendlist on myspace) The music was really good and the girl's vocals were powerful and mesmerizing, especially aided by electronic distortion and effects by Esolate. Reminded me of Cocteau Twins and the girl really could rival Elizabeth Frazer. I even downloaded some demo tracks and wouldn't mind going to her gig in some cozy little club. But not in the freezing night when all I wanted was to dance. Besides the set was too long and had a bad timing. Not to mention it didn't have anything to do with Japan.
Angel Cry wasn't bad and their Illuminati cover was probably the best of covers presented that night. The little BDSM freak show didn't impress me and those boys looked disturbingly underage.
In conclusion: it's good to invite young promising artists, but the event was all about Japanese culture! Set up a young talent festivar or something. People came to dance and have a good time and most got neither.
The playlist. This is the most crucial part. We could probably forgive all of the above for at least a dozen of good old j-rock song that we could dance to. And no, Vanilla alone couldn't save the night. I didn't expect such a total and complete lack of taste and common sense. Especially the part with the most horrendous j-pop I've ever heard that made me appreciate the Johnnies' bands.
At this stage J-Rock culture in Ukraine is officially dead. I'm not going next year. We should just throw a home party.
пятница, 11 июля 2008
00:41
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четверг, 10 июля 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
My newest acheivement I'm fairly proud of. This song was just begging to be used) and it had to be YunJae. 
http://www.4shared.com/account/file/54649998/634caaa1/Insatiable.html
среда, 09 июля 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I really hate this. It's too late to try and fall asleep and I'm too mentally unstable. All because of this thing that occupied my room last night. Again. I hate bats, I really do. The window was just slightly ajar and the thing's big, but it got in somehow. Now it just won't go away. As if I didn't freak out at every unindentified sound since last year when three of them got in and I broke down. I guess the only soluton is to set the nets. The beasts are pretty damn big and ugly and the sound they make makes you wanna climb the walls. How are you supposed to live when you can't even feel sae in your own room? Did I mention I hate bats?
пятница, 04 июля 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Not really. It's all Jae's fault, I'm just a medium. There's this 15-old American guy, who seems to have faced a serious issue after watching my Venus as a Boy video. I find it kinda cute)
четверг, 03 июля 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
One thing I hate about summer, beside the heat, is the fact that the nights are too damn short. Just when you get unto stuff... Aish.
среда, 02 июля 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Не прошло и года.. или прошло? _Aya_ открыла для себя торенты. Просто случай особый. Вот теперь понимаешь, что неплохо было бы иметь выделенку. Трафик жрет, зараза. И время. Но оно того стоит. Скачалась пока аж одна серия, и то на 99%, из 22, первого сезона. Ну да мы не ищем легких путей.
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Oh, yeah, Baby...
понедельник, 30 июня 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Finally, after a long pause, I can continue making videos. I really missed it.
This project -I checked- was started last August and only now I decided to call it complete.
This is my 4th Jae vid and I still have a coulple of projects left. He makes it easy for me, I guess.
First time using this kind of song. But it did feel so fitting somehow.
DL
http://www.4shared.com/file/53346598/a75fecae/Boo.html
среда, 25 июня 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
It's finally time to do all the things I delayed up until now. It's unbelievable and overwhelming and I don't even know where to start. Books, videos, pictures, sorting, burning, writing... But for now, let's just start from here.
How can he look so utterly strikingly gorgeous?
понедельник, 23 июня 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
So now I can say that I have truly Mastered English)
Let all the bitces choke on their praises and fake smiles. That is all. No more homework, no more lectures, no more tests and exams, no more marks, no more brainwashing. Welcome to adulthood.
Right now I'm intent on drinking myself silly and then recuperating from all the stress and exhaustion. Right now I want to let go before putting myself together again.
Mission completed successfully. Proceed as planned.
Let all the bitces choke on their praises and fake smiles. That is all. No more homework, no more lectures, no more tests and exams, no more marks, no more brainwashing. Welcome to adulthood.
Right now I'm intent on drinking myself silly and then recuperating from all the stress and exhaustion. Right now I want to let go before putting myself together again.
Mission completed successfully. Proceed as planned.
четверг, 19 июня 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Not that I have anything against teasers, but this is too much, really. I mean the single is to be released in a month and the whole 'preview' has been around for weeks, for crying out loud! I really hope I won't get sick of it long before it even comes out.
And while I'm at it...
I like the song. It's pretty much stuck in my head these days. I heard it was very 'pop' and stuff, but.. That's exactly what I call good quality pop music. It reminds me of thier early Korean songs - pure sweet pop at its best.
At least that's what I thought until I read the lyrics. Reminiscent of Junsu's 'White Lies', they give me creeps. Why is it that lately everything is against me?
And while I'm at it...
I like the song. It's pretty much stuck in my head these days. I heard it was very 'pop' and stuff, but.. That's exactly what I call good quality pop music. It reminds me of thier early Korean songs - pure sweet pop at its best.
At least that's what I thought until I read the lyrics. Reminiscent of Junsu's 'White Lies', they give me creeps. Why is it that lately everything is against me?
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Just some personal stuff, to get it off my chest.
Now I'm not the one to write about studies, I never did before. but now I kinda feel like it. Criteria of evaluation. It's one of the issues that is a source of great dismay for me. Never being able to judge oneself properly, not knowing what reaction to expect from others.. it's really frustrating. but that's not quite the point.
Everyone hates being underrated. Surely I do too. But lately I realised just how much I hate being overrated. Feeling like you don't live up to someone's expectations, being praised when you feel unworthy of it is worse than nothing. Getting good marks is mostly easy, you don't even get any moral satisfaction from it. It's like when your parents aren't even glad when you get excellent marks. Because it's expected and you can't fail. And if you do it must be bacause the mark was unfair. Now I know I'm one of the best, even when I don't try as hard, I always did. But I still lack a lot, a lot of it comes with experience, but then I'm just not organised and lazy. Being praised when you feel like you failed is not only non-incentive, it's like a slap in the face.
I still have a couple of long-delayed posts to complete. I feel sick and lazy and can't be bothered to write must of the stuff that's on my mind. Still recuperating from the mental trauma caused by our education system and the general absurdity of how things work in this world. Not to mention totally heartbroken by some of the recent fics. Just when you want some simple fluffy stuf... I still can't get over it. It's no use saying 'never again' or 'should have known'. It just doesn't work that way. When you deal with this stuff you know you're gonna get burned.
All right, enough of the lame grumping for today. There's a massive sorting and cleaning coming up.
Now I'm not the one to write about studies, I never did before. but now I kinda feel like it. Criteria of evaluation. It's one of the issues that is a source of great dismay for me. Never being able to judge oneself properly, not knowing what reaction to expect from others.. it's really frustrating. but that's not quite the point.
Everyone hates being underrated. Surely I do too. But lately I realised just how much I hate being overrated. Feeling like you don't live up to someone's expectations, being praised when you feel unworthy of it is worse than nothing. Getting good marks is mostly easy, you don't even get any moral satisfaction from it. It's like when your parents aren't even glad when you get excellent marks. Because it's expected and you can't fail. And if you do it must be bacause the mark was unfair. Now I know I'm one of the best, even when I don't try as hard, I always did. But I still lack a lot, a lot of it comes with experience, but then I'm just not organised and lazy. Being praised when you feel like you failed is not only non-incentive, it's like a slap in the face.
I still have a couple of long-delayed posts to complete. I feel sick and lazy and can't be bothered to write must of the stuff that's on my mind. Still recuperating from the mental trauma caused by our education system and the general absurdity of how things work in this world. Not to mention totally heartbroken by some of the recent fics. Just when you want some simple fluffy stuf... I still can't get over it. It's no use saying 'never again' or 'should have known'. It just doesn't work that way. When you deal with this stuff you know you're gonna get burned.
All right, enough of the lame grumping for today. There's a massive sorting and cleaning coming up.
понедельник, 16 июня 2008
03:04
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пятница, 13 июня 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Well, guess that's the end of my not entirely passive active learning of French. Oh well, I did what I could. lj as well as the rest of my browsing space is totally boring and I can't remember the last time I was actually glad about it.
вторник, 10 июня 2008
I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Do I really want to know myself
Do I want to see
Why I'm wonderin' every morning, who's it gonna be today
Staring in the mirror, come tell me, who's that under my skin
And what's the reason they're here for
Tell me what is my own true face
But the other side of me
I can't explain why I've become
Negative as can be
I'm wonderin' where it's coming from
I know I can't do without it,
sure makes me what I am...
"The Other Side of Me", Anouk
Do I want to see
Why I'm wonderin' every morning, who's it gonna be today
Staring in the mirror, come tell me, who's that under my skin
And what's the reason they're here for
Tell me what is my own true face
But the other side of me
I can't explain why I've become
Negative as can be
I'm wonderin' where it's coming from
I know I can't do without it,
sure makes me what I am...
"The Other Side of Me", Anouk
суббота, 07 июня 2008
15:37
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