The Proposal

Even though I feel like shot lately at least let my Sims be happy.

I made another Story using Photobucket. This option is actually not bad. At least a lot better than using thumbnails. So anyway.

Kotetsu finally picked the day and took Bunny on a special date. What came put of it - click below to find out!

I am so satisfied with how this came out. My darlings are so beautiful~

@темы: Sims 3

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Feeling like a shipwreck: broken, full of debris and hidden treasures that might never be discovered.

@темы: myself, one-liner

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So it's that time of the year. It's just 3 days but still. I'm on my own. The summer's dragging towards the end and I haven't really been out in 2 months. Out of the few people I have civil relations with there are even fewer who I wouldn't mind meeting but those apparently don't return my feelings. I don't even know if I can be bothered anymore.

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So last night I decided to give yaoi manga another chance. I'm so kind and forgiving, you see. I still have hope that maybe somewhere out there there's a manga that I could really enjoy. But the result was the same. "Ugh, not this shit again..." No, I mean the style is good. Very well-drawn and very graphic, if you know what I mean. But why the fuck does is has to always has to have the same lame plot over and over again? The big bad seme and the poor helpless uke who says he doesn't want it and cries every fucking time........ So done with this shit.

@темы: slash

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Greek Pantheon Asks

Ok, so I wrote these for a tumblr meme so I decided to repost this here to keep my precious ideas safe.


Aphrodite: What do you find attractive in a partner?

There are a lot of things I find attractive.

I do care about looks, perhaps too much but I can't help it. Obviously some of us are more lucky than others but to me looks is an indication of your self-esteem and your will. I really like people who know what they are worth. Of course having a sense of style is a big turn-on.

Whether a man or a woman I think the single most important thing about a person is their integrity. By integrity I mean their set of values and whether they adhere to it, whether they are true to themselves. That would include keeping their promises, being honest and moving forward in their own way. I guess I'm really attracted to strong people although sadly sometimes strong people can be also very fucked up.

I like educated and broad-minded people. I am passionate about a lot of things so it's important that we have something to talk about. However, most intelligent guys I've met have been terrible snobs and so full of themselves and I really hate that. In recent years I realized that there are things more important than being educated. I really like people who have a lot of life wisdom, that kind of wisdom is a lot more important than knowing facts and figures. Also that person has to be very open-minded. If they have any sort of strong social, racial, sexual or other prejudice it absolutely wouldn't work out.

It would be a big bonus if a person had interests similar to mine but even more than that I really like people who can get passionate about the things they like. Even if it's something I have no idea about I like listening to people who are really into something.

In the end I guess attraction is something very hard to define and you often find yourself being attracted to people who don't seem to be your type at all. Despite my fascination with androgynous and slightly people, speaking from experience in real life the few men I have been attracted to were quite masculine in a very classic sense and all the women were very feminine, bright and friendly.

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Hades : If you could meet a person from history, who would it be and why?

Never really thought about this. There are many awesome people that I respect and admire and yet I can't say I even wished I could meet any of them. As a linguist I also find it hard to imagine setting aside the language barrier. But as I think about it somehow the first name that comes is Jesus. I am not Christian but really care about spirituality and I have a heck of a lot of questions about the world. I just really want to talk to someone who knows what the hell is going on, you know. Buddha would be good too. I bet we could have a really nice little chat.


Hephaestus: If you could learn a skill instantly, what would you choose?

I needed time to think about it but being the boring person that I am the first thing that comes to mind: what does leaning a skill mean? I mean, I can dance and sing though it's nothing special but I only do it sometimes since only a little of my heart is in it. There are people who can sing and dance like they breathe and I would never even imagine being half as good as that. What I mean is there's no use having s great skill if your heart is not in it. There are many things I would love to try doing but mastering them is not a priority. For instance, I wish I could draw better but I only do it once in awhile so that's not really crucial. Anyway. I guess if I could really do that I would probably choose to become very good at Japanese. Though I enjoy the process of learning I also somewhat dread the fact that I will need many years to become any good at it. All the endless constructions and especially kanji take a really long time to learn so it would be good to a acquire that knowledge.


Zeus: If you ruled the world, what would you change?

Ok, that's a tough one. But after thinking for awhile I have an idea. I don't think destroying all the weapons in the world would solve the problem. Nor the reallocation of property. That would just mean a reset, then everything might return to how it was.

What might actually change things is the abolition of patriarchal system. It sits so deep in our heads that it's hard to imagine that things could be different - it's in the workspace, social life, religion - but they could and they should. To be specific rather than patriarchy I might say it's rather the dominance of the white heterosexual male. Any dominant social group would try and stay dominant by any means, try to keep the status quo, even if it's unconsciously. And I don't think being dominant means being happy. Oppression never makes anyone happy. But by abolishing patriarchy I don't necessarily mean setting up matriarchy. What I really mean is destroying all the deep-rooted gender stereotypes, to set people free from them. Of course the whole infrastructure needs to be revised: government, medicine, education but that's a whole different topic.

In the end I don't believe people could live in absolute harmony, our kind seems to be programmed to screw things up, but I'm sure we could set up a much more sane and healthy paradigm.

@темы: essay

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I finally finished Part 5. I stayed up till about 3 AM last night, adding and fixing some parts. I managed to bring it to 5.000 as well as adding some small but crucial details. I still am not 100% satisfied but there are parts that I am really proud of. I really love the scene with Saga, it came so naturally, also I like the Hiroto scene and I even managed to give Nao a few meaningful sentences so I might be on the right track)

The deed is done. I even reposted to alice nine yaoi comm which is kind of gross but oh well. Now I have 3 one-shots to work on, all very different but interesting. A good NC scene is long overdue but before getting to that I got lost in my own reflections and theories. I will try to cut on the thinking and add more of the feeling. Also I'll try to make posters for all parts.

@музыка: Madonna - Like A Prayer

@темы: fanfix

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I am back on track. Did an issue of Dorothy & the Wizard in Oz yesterday which was cool. And today was Astonishing X-Men Vol3, 45. An issue where Scott from Earth-616 meets the other "Logan" James Howlett from Earth-TRN208 and Emmeline Frost from Earth-889. Marvel, you kidding me?

@темы: work, Marvel

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I am almost done with both fic and the video. But I can't seem to take that final step, I am hesitant, unsatisfied. Maybe I'm thinking about it too much. After all there is nothing perfect. I'm pretty sure that no matter how hard I try I will never be 100% satisfied with my stories. I think some parts are very good and some are average but it's the end of the 5th part which might be the last so I don't want to regret it.

The video too. I want to make it really good and that takes time. Prisoner Of Love took about 2 years to make while Older... I can't even tell. So maybe I'm just being impatient. But in the end it doesn't even matter what I decide it's just the feeling of inadequacy, the lack of confidence. I guess I could use some encouragement, more than ever.

@темы: musings

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I've already wrote about it but whatever. I am amazed by people on Pixiv - there's so much talent and dedication especially in the Tiger&Bunny fandom. A lot of doujinshi are simply awesome. Not for free but let's not ruin the mood. Anyway, one of my favourite artists is Aoi Aozora. Maybe her style isn't the most exquisite but her books are so full of love and adorable. Last night I looked through all of the book and realized they are all a progression of one main storyline.

In all my years I don't think I have ever seen an MPreg as legit as this one. I mean this is a superhero universe. There are people who can turn into sand, surely a male pregnancy would be no problem? But it's not just that, it's how right and how adorable this looks. I wasn't going to hurry my sims but now I might, I really want to see some adorable taibani babies~

@темы: TIGER&BUNNY

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Paint a Nebula

This game probably brought me more joy than anything in the past few days. It’s really amazing. But perhaps the most amazing thing is that it really helps with anxiety.

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@темы: Games

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I am never telling someone I am not fine again. Because once people start telling me how to deal with my life I want to punch them in the face.

@темы: myself, one-liner

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Last Cinderella

Ok, I wasn't going to write about it but my OCD won't let me so here goes.

I don't have much to say, really. It was a decent watch. One thing I was really surprised about is the erotic scenes. This was the most bold dorama in terms of ecchi out of all I've seen. I though the 'first time' scene was really nice, actually. And well, Miura Haruma is cute. However, there were just too many things I was dissatisfied with. I didn't really like the heroine nor her aging playboy boss. Thought it was a comedy I didn't find it funny at all. But more than that I was quite baffled by how this whole thing was wrapped up. The unresolved side plotlines, the unrealistic magical change in all the character that suddenly made them nice and valiant. But most importantly the final decision that was supposed to be the main intrigue. Even though I was hoping she'd choose Hiroto and her being mad was stupid to begin with it was so cheesy and random that I was left with the impression the last episode was filmed spontaneously without any sсript because nothing in it makes sense.

Morale: Even if you're 40, act like an old man and look like a mess you can still have a guy 15 years younger fall for you and worship the ground you walk on.

@темы: dorama

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I am so terribly hopelessly bored it's not even funny. Even tumblr got boring and annoying. But then this is all just bullshit.

I am such a mess lately.

@темы: myself, Shou, my!gif

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Actually I almost wrote a thesis about Shou's sexuality but in the last few months all 5 of them have been acting weird so I don't even know anymore.

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I was watching the Feminist Frequency and now I kinda regret it. Although I have enormous admiration for that woman the things you learn are very disturbing. Also speaking about the Bechdel test... my stories never have more than one female character and probably never will. I don't want them. Ok, my head is all messed up lately.

@темы: issues, myself

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2013 Releases - First Half

I don't want to be a whiney bitch but you don't give me choice, boys. So far 2013 has been one disappointment after another.

Kim Jaejoong - Mine 3/5



I was really excited when I heard that Jae's album was going to be rock. Well, yeah. Kind of rock, 2 songs. It's still a decent album, I just had high hopes for it, I guess. There was also a repackage but I would prefer to pretend it never happened. Shhh.

Alice Nine - Daybreak, Shadowplay, Shooting Star 3/5


3 months, 3 disappointments. After '9' I was really hoping they will give me a good legit reason to like them, music-vise. But alas. And Shou, I love you and proud of your efforts but maybe you should try writing more songs before sticking them as singles? Not all was bad though. Himitsu was pretty interesting and then there's Scarlet. If it wasn't for Scarlet might have been 2/5. I don't even look forward to new songs any more. Too painful.

ViViD - Answer 3/5



Basically, ViViD is a band I don't expect much from so this time was no different. I mean it's a decent song but like most of their songs it's kinda boring. The PV too. But it's definitely not bad. As long there's Reno and Shin looking good it works for me.

Kim Junsu - Incredible 2/5



More like incredibly disappointing, really. Sorry, baby, but this is just no deal. I watched the showcase and that's when I realized Tarantallegra is actually a pretty good song. And it's not just the title song feat the son of P. Fucking Diddy Whatever. I listened to the album like a good girl, 3 or 4 times and it's just hopeless, not a single song that I like. 11 AM was so refreshing but honestly it's the only decent song in there. This would be no surprise for someone who has no talent, but you Junsu, you could do so much better. No excuse for you, Mister.


Not even going to write about Vamps, I never even had a song of theirs I really loved apart form Evanescent and maybe Life on Mars? but the latter doesn't quite count. And I stopped checking out the old man Gackt a few years ago. Someone better release something really awesome soon.

@темы: review

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Sims 3: Deluxe Edition+Island Paradise

First of all, I have done extended testing of the Deluxe Edition and so far the result is:
I packed the game with pretty much everything I wanted and presently it is mostly stable though I had 2 undetermined crashes. I have suspicions that it creates a couple of glitches, since I had them even without any mods, but overall I'm quite happy with it.

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When I first heard of Island Paradise I wasn't excited much. But as the summer came I changed my mind. I think it was a great idea. Especially for the poor souls who can only enjoy it like this.

So now, let's proceed to my current game which can be briefly described as Summer, Beach & Sex)

Apparently my previous game was corrupted so I had to start anew. First of all, I developed new skins for my boys. Well, actually it wasn't much work. Bunny's skin is just slightly modified but I really like it. For Kotetsu I wanted something really manly so for the first time I tried a skin that is a little hairy. More than I expected, actually, but it's sexy and works with muscle definition so I went with that.



Sauna works perfectly fine now. Ahh... refreshing. Great for spending time with the ducky... or with your lover. Massage table also has a variety of options to try.



But the best part about the Summer EP is surely the beach activities.
Bunny posing for Summer Swimsuit Calendar 2013 like a pro. Golden tan - you're doing it right!


Just some of my favourite beach shots. Sunbathing, swimming and romance...


There's also scuba-diving. I haven't done much yet and I seem to have a glitch with caves. Oh well. I brought my own boat too.


I also got the dance floor thought it seems it's only good for ballet. No matter. Slow dancing is so hot.


I set the Woohooer and that really enhanced the sex life of my boys. But the first time wasn't very good apparently. Why the hell did they think a photo booth at the amusement park would be good for first times? Kotetsu went to drown his performance anxiety. But setting this lot near the shore was a good idea - look at the view!


Finally, just bunch of random shots I really like.



So as you can tell I really like my boys and having a lot of fun with this game. I really deserve this after all my efforts. If you have any requests I might try to fulfill them)

PLANS:
Well, in such a romantic atmosphere a proposal is perfect. Kotetsu wants to get married anyway. Also I absolutely want to see Tiger/Bunny babies. But a bit later, I guess. I want them to have fun while they can. There are still things like resorts that I haven't done yet so I'm going to check them out. There is one more special feature I absolutely want to try, but that's a secret)

@темы: Sims 3

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Too lazy even for the proper post but... I made porn. Sim porn. I can even film multi-angle! Yes! *evil genius laughter* It's all working now!

@темы: Sims 3