In today's dream I travelled to a different continent ans I went to a party that I won't be invited to and met with a lot of people and I even got drunk. It made me a bit sad, that dream. Not knowing when I would be able to do any of those things...

@темы: Dreams

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You know, my mum used to be a bit homophobic but with my subtle influence she's becoming more and more homophilic, lately she's even been watching LGBT films by herself. I'm actually getting slightly uncomfortable.

@темы: family

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Shadowplay~

@темы: ToraxShou

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I saw Jae again. Actually I also saw him two days ago, in that white wife beater but that was just briefly. Today was different. Today it was probably more physical than ever. So anyway.

I was with some adventurous friend and somehow we sneaked to a JYJ concert. We weren't supposed to go to the front but there were some seats unoccupied in the first row, to the right and we took them. I took the leftmost one but the seat to my right was free. Soon after I saw the members appear right in front of me but as they walked by I only saw Jae and Yoochun and they did not go on stage. Instead, they took the free seats. Of course Jae sat right next to me. And the seat felt really small and our arms touched. Then somehow he turned to me and took my hand. I don't remember it that well, just that we touched and that I wasn't looking my best, I regretted that I didn't dress up or do make-up. All I could do was keep that polite smile plastered on my face and be glad that I managed to stay so composed.

I really don't know why. Even these last two years I still dream of him often. And it's not exactly romantic but very intimate. Seeing is one thing but feeling the warmth of another human's body in a dream is really kind of amazing.

@темы: Dreams, Jaejoong

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Today I watched some of JJ's solo fancams and he's so ghfuhufgwufi and I even read that one Chunjae fic I had saved for years and then I went to write that one OT3 fics I began writing years ago. Right now I made it to 1000 words but I'm afraid I can't finish it. I mean I can because it has most of the structure but I kinda really like it and I feel it deserves better.

In other news it's a fucking blizzard outside. I'm afraid to even open the window. Thank you very much, Spring.

@темы: fanfix

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Daybreak thoughts...

I quite like Himitsu. Hallelujah! +100 points to Saga.

BUT more than that I was surprised by this discovery: I actually kinda like the instrumental version of Daybreak. + 50 points to Tora. Not even the first time this happens too. I seriously wish they'd release more instrumentals. Oh, Shou. Sorry, love, that’s just how it is.

@темы: Alice Nine

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K-POP Survival

Might as well document it. Actually, I have a lot to say but I'm way to lazy to write down half of it. I mean there's at least a dozen things about this dorama that are very poor but I knew exactly what I was going for here. The plot is anything but new, actually it's about 80% ripped from "You're Beautiful".

My official excuse was: checking out Park Yoowhan's acting. And, well, I'm quite satisfied. I bet Yoochunnie was very proud. At first I kept seeing him as the little brother but soon I began to see him on his own. Yet still not only do they look alike, face and body, their acting and the way they express emotions is also incredibly similar. I bet Yoochun could teach him a lot about how to be a K-pop star as well as how to pretend to be freaked out about falling in love with a boy)

Another thing I found out was, that just a few days before the premiere. Which is sad but it's admirable that he found it in him to act this comedy role all the same. Also I thought it would be perfectly fitting if Yoochun sang for him in the drama, their voices sound similar too, but he did not and I have to respect the fact that Yoohwan unlike Junho does not want to use his brother's popularity to succeed.

At first I really didn't like the main heroine and I swear in early episodes she ripped off her acting from Park Shin-hye. But towards the end I sort of grew to like her. Also I realized I've seen her before somewhere: namely - in Vacation. Either way, by the end of it I thought the two of them looked pretty damn cute.

@музыка: Alice Nine - Daybreak (Inst.)

@темы: dorama

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March really sucks this year. Listening to December palylist.

Also it's Daybreak release day yet for the first time I can remember the single has not been shared in any way.

@музыка: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Snow

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Spent about half an hour looking at old photos while trying to find something suitable for my CV. Didn't really find any, just got my mood down. Lately I really hate looking at old stuff. Me tired, me smiling, me with all those people that once I considered friends and some of which I had painful break-ups and most drifted away or striver forward leaving me behind. Every time I tell myself I should just put them on a CD and stash them away and every time can't bring myself to.

@темы: musings

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Looks like the sex mod shall emerge very soon. But my game is useless right now. I managed to finish Drakensang but Sims 3 is still poses a big problem. Which really sucks because not only I had big plans for Spring, I also made 3 new outfits, 2 of which I was going to post at TSR. It's ok, I'll get through somehow.

@музыка: アリス九號. - tentai umbrella

@темы: Sims 3

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Drakensang: The River Of Time - Cleared

It has been a year. A whole year! It has been an amazing journey that has finally come to an end. I shall forever be mourning Radon Labs that went bankrupt. Those people put so much soul into their games. Amen.



I made 114 screens but I am lazy to post them, nobody cares about that anyway, it's just my thing.

@музыка: アリス九號. - Mugen no hana

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Кто, ну кто постоянно гуглит "сиськи торчат" и попадает на мой дневник? Бред какой-то.

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Last week I got a plea from Florpotter asking me to translate the video message of Latin American fans for Alice Nine. I thought it was pretty cool and decided to help. I've never really translated anything into Japanese before so it was quite a challenge but I think I did pretty good. Of course I might have made some parts sound a bit awkward but I'm very happy how it turned out. It was nice - helping people to transmit their love and helping other very special to me people receive it. ^ ^

Being the sweetheart that he is Shou replied very soon.



You're welcome, darling))

@темы: projects, Shou, fandom, Alice Nine

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Why people Ship YunJae

Haven't read such a great and accurate post since the last time I wrote one)

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@темы: Yunjae

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Lately it feels like Alice9 Chanel has become a single constant in my life I laways look forward to. Since I began watching it live in June 2011 I think I haven't missed a single free broadcast.

@музыка: Xiah Junsu - Too Love

@темы: A9 Channel, snapshot

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I've been getting nice search requests lately.

March 11 - "alicenine 虎 裸". Oh, I wish I had it but alas I own no naked pictures of Tora and if I did I would not share.

Also March 12 - "shou porn". Well, that I have. I mean Shou is porn. Please, help yourself.

@темы: crack, Alice Nine

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Tora and Shou at NACK AFTER 5 radio (Dec. 2008) [English Subbed]

This video is the product of collaboration between me and Florpotter of FAIX. It’s one of my favourite radio shows so I decided to share it with everyone. The two of them are just…. ♥_♥ In the end there were a few sentences I couldn't make out so I skipped them but I did a great job.

@темы: projects, Alice Nine

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Taiikukan Baby & Doukyusei

I don't even know where to begin. Of course at first I stumbled upon Taiikukan Baby for obvious reasons. But it turned out one of those over-friendship, under-shounen-ai films. Of course there was a tad bit disappointment but all in all I think the film is good as it is. The ending was a little strange but sweet and it was this "Yappari, it's all about good old male bonding".

It was only later I found out that there's a second film, that they're very much connected. At first I though they were just two sides to one story, but soon I realized that even though they both begin and end at roughly the same time and some event overlap the are more like alternative realities, two ways of how Jun could make it through his rough patch. But I liked both films. I'm usually not that into stories such as Doukyusei butut I really think it was good, the message in this film. It wasn't just some sappy romantic drama, it had something real in it.

In the end both films aren't about love, they're rather about wanting to feel connected to someone, about being motivated. But for me Japanese films like this aren't really made for analyzing, they're for feeling. And boy did I cry at the end of Doukyusei.

PS: Yuichi did a pretty good job and nice body there. I just found out that last year he retired from entertainment business. Kinda sad, but I guess that's his choice so I wish him well.

@темы: movies

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Jaejoong Twitter Update

JJ: Go home safely I couldn’t even say bye to you guys. Im going to sleep right awayㅠ

JJ: Love you (in a dialect XD)

JS: Good night ㅎ

JS: *smooch*

JJ: Mine~

YC: hehehehe

YC: Sleep tight~!!!!!^___^ Dream about me


These guys...

@темы: OT3, JYJ

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My sister's coming over again. Along with her new boyfriend. She's head over heels in love with him and I guess I will never get it. He's average-looking, tactless and fucking 9 years younger. He also knows what fanfiction is which I find mildly alarming.

@темы: family