So I do have a dirty mind, but honestly WTF?



Honestly though I've always loved ChunJae right from the beginning and I always said they're the most underrated pairing in the band, but for the last few months my feelings have changed. It's like there's too much of them to the point it's almost annoying. Plus it really feels like Junsu gets left out a lot and I feel sorry for him. Lately I really miss Yoosu.

Jealou!su does not approve.

@темы: chunjae, yoosu

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Okay, so now that I oficially debuted as a writer let's see what I have next. I've about a dozen drafts so far. The most complete of them:

- I've got this really old PG-13

- And my first ever PWP logically should be next

- Then there's this 2,000+ NC-17

- and another PG-13 set in 2009

- the small winter fic

- the triangle fic

There's also several other drafts, but better work on these for now. Overall, over 9,000 words. These are just one-shots, of course. I decided to not even try to write them down lest it becomes my demise XD

запись создана: 05.02.2011 в 03:50

@темы: fanfix

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Games for Spring-Summer 2011

In the last few months I did a lot of gaming. Not counting the Sims, of course - it's become a fandom of sort. I keep having these gaming periods, get bored, then resume again after some time. One day I just had a great urge to play an RPG and a 3D one at that. And that's how it started.

Gods: Lands Of Infinity (Slovakia)



Why did I have to stumble upon the most obscure 3D RPG out there? I mean Slovakia, really? I could barely find a walkthrough and game tips. But the biggest problem was apparently my video card (or the absence of thereof) that didn't allow me to play. I got so upset I actually decided enough is enough and used what little money I had to buy one. Anyway, I think the game's pretty good. The graphics are decent and the gameplay is engaging enough. All the walking around and trading stuff gets a bit boding pretty soon though. The alchemy is underdeveloped and there are many small discrepancies and things that could be improved, but overall it's not bad.

Keepsake (France)



This one is basically a puzzle quest. Although I only found the Russian version and the voice-overs sounded a bit stupid I really enjoyed it. Mostly because of wonderful graphics. In a way sometimes it got a bit annoying that the game area is so huge and you basically spend most of the time running from here to there, but the scenery is so beautiful I didn't mind that much. The puzzles were really hard, harder than I ever encountered. I felt pretty stupid most of the time and grateful for the in-game hint system that provided 3 hints and the solution. The plot is pretty lame but that doesn't concern me much. Overall a great experience.

Apart from those I did some small 'puzzle and object-search' games such as Tiny Bang Theory and Enlightenus II. I guess I did feel kind of bored lately. As for Generations, it will get a post of its own.

@темы: Games

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It seems like they entered the bath of the professional sumo wrestlers. According to the staff member who is starting to be an interpreter, K-san, the 3 who get along well with each other entered the bath together. After that, kya kya kya kya, laughter and conversation was heard from inside, it was very cute, very charming…

*saves mental image*

@темы: OT3

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THIS.

@темы: crack

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DVDShrink

Today's featured wonder-ware is DVDShrink! I kept struggling with all these DVD9s, the quality is so damn good, but I couldn't burn them onto a DVD and watching them in 15-minute bits also sucked. But today I discovered this 1 MB wonder which allows to compress the video and create the same DVD only slightly smaller so that it fits onto a regular DVD5.

@темы: skillz

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Oh, yeah. almost forgot. Had the 卒業式 today. I'm really relieved we found another sponsor and the project lives on, I was kind of worried about that. So anyway, 3 years is quite a long time and it's been a hard path and even though I'm still lacking a lot I'm glad I made it this far especially what with all the shit I'm going through. I don't know where this road will take me, but I want to follow through. 頑張ります!

@темы: 勉強

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I'll write a proper post later, but this~ Such a tease! And those are mighty fine legs, too.

@темы: Junsu

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Gee, diary is back. I didn't even miss you, diary.

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This three-day suspence sucks, I will probably want to write tons of stuff just because I can't.




PS: I did finally watch Totoro. It's really cute~

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I've had the strangest dream. In it there was a girl who tried to reconcile me with someone I was mad at. And she managed to do it. These two people are someone I was close to in the past and it felt very real. But the amazing thing is, as I awoke the feeling of more or less letting go of these hard feelings I've been carrying for awhile did not vanish.

@темы: Dreams

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I, ficwriter

"I havent been reading fics much these days but I'm confident to say this one made up for everything else." purpleinpink@lj

Today these kind words made me feel really good. I was a bit worried since this work is kind of raw and fractured because I began writing it about 2 years ago, but the feedback confirmed that many people liked it and I was really glad.

Writing fics is something that doesn't come easy to me. I used to joke for years: "there aren't any good fics around, it's so bad maybe I should just write them myself. At least that way I'll get exactly what I want." For a long time I didn't want to even try because there were people who could write so naturally and I felt I couldn't compete with that. There are still several people like that around, but I hardly read them because their works don't go well with me whether it's pairing or plot or characterization.

Oftentimes in my bed before falling asleep I would come up with stories, just sort of seeing them happen, sometimes even forcing myself awake so I could finish them. At first I tried nagging good authors with my plots, but they never came out the way I wanted and so I gave up on that. And then one night I tried. It came out pretty good, but it was only one page of a supposed chaptered fic so it stopped at that. Then later I began writing down bits and snippets and it felt so good seeing how little by little the story took shape, became more tangible.

It took me at least a year to actually finish something and even though is was a tiny snippet I was very delighted. In the end I felt even if I'll never become as good as some it's still worth a try: "I already have all these stories inside of me, why don't I try to get them out"? I wanted to bring out my own worlds, my own characters, I felt they deserve to be seen. Of course, I knew it wouldn't be easy. I always joked that if I ever try to write I would become like that character - Joseph Grand from the Plague, who tried to write a book, but was such a perfectionist that he kept rewriting the first sentence and could get no further. Besides to me fanfiction is like a jigsaw puzzle and at first I only get some of the pieces so I have many half-written stories, the inspiration only visits me once in a while regarding each of them and the writing process stretches into months and years.

In a way I also worried that my fics would be just a patchwork made from someone else's stories, both other ficwriters and genuine writers. I know for fact I was influences by immodicus and scribete and probably some of the others too. My freshly posed fic reflects that - it's both touching and funny and it's one genre I always loved so I tried to reproduce it. Among the writers I think the one who has had a big influence on me is J.D. Salinger. Apart from borrowing one scene from one of the novels I somewhat adopted his style of storytelling. To me writing is a bit like painting a picture, I can see it in my mind clearly, but it's hard to make others see it too. Just like Salinger I want to describe every intonation, every gesture so that the reader can see it the same way I do. In the end I realized there's nothing completely original, everyone's been influenced by someone else at some point. I do borrow some ideas, phrases or metaphors, but they're just icing on the cake at most.

I guess one of the reasons I am so attached to this fandom is because it gave me so many ways to express myself and it's something that makes me feel fulfilled. I just sort of began my writing career and I really want to explore this new field. I don't think it's something I want to do all my life for for now I'm going to indulge myself.

@темы: musings, fanfix

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PRICELESS! XDDD

@темы: Yoochunnie, crack

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I cooled down a bit. I still want to slap a bitch, but whatever.

Reneeta is

@темы: yoosu

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Закрытая запись, не предназначенная для публичного просмотра

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Закрытая запись, не предназначенная для публичного просмотра

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I'm not in the mood, to say the least, but alas birthdays don't care whether you want them, they just happen. So anyway...

@темы: Birthday

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Закрытая запись, не предназначенная для публичного просмотра

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Added links to my other pages in the header. Not that anyone cares.
I've got over 100,000 downloads at the sim resource but I still don't have enough points to buy one single premium day. But no matter how much everyone bitches about TSR, they still have tons of great stuff and couldn't care less. That's why I never bother to post my stuff elsewhere - there's no gain in it.

@темы: diary

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To Do List for Today

Finish the fic: success
Go to bed earlier: failure