Intermodulation - suddenly nosebleed becomes #1 cause for hospital admittance. XDDD

It should have been called: "I finally set my inner exhibitionist free."
Seriously though as much as I appreciate the beautiful shots, the first thought that comes to mind is: "wow, now they can do that sort of thing too!" Little by little more and more possibilities open from freedom.

@музыка: Mozart - Concerto for Clarinet & Orches

@темы: Jaejoong

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That's a record we have here! 105 are from one person though and the rest is from me! XDDD

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Poor bb looks so lonely! How dare Yoosu ditch him on Christmas!

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@темы: tweets

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Damn, I almost forgot... it's Christmas Eve! Merry Christmas, everyone!

@музыка: SM Town - Angel Eyes

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No, I can't get my mind out of the gutter! XD

@темы: WTF?, Jaejoong

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I won a fic from bird0fparadise. She's one of the few decent writers left, though I find some of her stuff pretty outrageous. Anyway I really wanted a fluffy Christmas fic and she wrote me one. It's ok, but I don't really like it. I'm very picky, I know. If only immodicus wrote one... I'm still a bit upset about the one she owed me 2 years ago. That happened to be just before she decided to quit. I might have tried to do my own, but I decided to concentrate on my current work and it keeps getting longer so I don't know if I'll be done by next year.

@темы: fanfix

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Essay: Make-up

My “Number 2 pencil”. I honestly can’t remember for how long I had it. But my guess is since high school which is up to 10 years. This is history.
Most girls use make-up to make themselves prettier. For me it’s much more than that. It is to make me look how I feel. Same with clothes. Mother would frown “your clothes don’t match” or “that make-up makes you look sick”. That’s the point.
I began using make-up in grade 7. I wanted to look more mature, I wanted to look tough. We used to get scolded for it and sent to the bathroom to wash up but it never stopped me. Since then I would never go out for more than 10 minutes without make-up. I felt naked and almost freaked out if someone caught me without it. I guess it means I’m afraid of being found out, damasked.
Lately I tried to use minimum make-up or even go out without it. It takes time getting used to, but I want to try showing my real face for once. The problem is I played this role for so long sometimes I’m not sure what is the real me anymore.

@музыка: Akanishi Jin - A Page

@темы: myself, essay, little treasures

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Hell yeah!

@темы: Jaejoong

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SM Entertainment received a firm order from the Fair Trade Commission to revise the unfair contracts which bind SNSD, Super Junior, SHINee, and many others to them.

On December 23rd, the Fair Trade Commission stated, “We gave them a warning to voluntarily correct the unfair exclusive contracts that their celebrities and trainees have signed. [SME] is to reduce all contract lengths by three years.”

This decision by the FTC was based off of a complaint made by TVXQ’s fanclub, Cassiopeia. The group alleged that SM Entertainment was using their status to pressure a disadvantaged (’slave’) contract onto TVXQ...

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Group JYJ will be releasing a new album that is comprised solely of their compositions.

JYJ recently revealed to Money Today Star News that, “JYJ will be releasing a Korean album early next year in which the members participated in the composition and the writing of the lyrics,” and “The album will hold the unreleased compositions by Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu that were sung at the concert as well as other songs that have never been heard before.”

YES!!! Thank you, Santa! Two pieces of good news in the morning!

@темы: JYJ, news

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Damn! Jae just totally confirmed my theory!





And some JaeSu love :

@темы: JYJ

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Dear Santa!

Other kids don't believe in you anymore, but I've never been like other kids.
I've been a really good girl this year. Honest. I won't ask for much. Just give me some more courage to go through all this. It's been a long year. I have changed so much. Now I can honestly say I have matured. I realized so many of my mistakes. I still have a long way to go, but now I know I won't get lost. It's been a hard year. Probably the hardest in my life, though the last one was really hard too so I won't bet on it. I've been on the verge of insanity and now I know why people decide life is not worth living. But I'm safe now. It's been a lonely year. I've lost people dear, but now I know sometimes to gain something you need to lose something. I think I finally found myself. Noone really knows what I went through and I'm still far from being alright. But I'll get there. I'm trying hard, but it doesn't seem enough. Gotta keep trying. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I learned my lesson well. I really need a break. Please make this year easier on me. Please let me have a truly merry Christmas. I need it so much. I promise to become an ever better girl from now on and try even harder. Next year please help me to become healthier and stronger, both physically and mentally. The rest I can manage. Hwaiting!

PS: And please make JYJ succeed. They really deserve it.

@настроение: tired but hopeful

@темы: myself, address

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I am looking for answers to questions never posed
I haven't got a clue, I'm living like a ghost
I can't seem to read the signs
I'm swimming in the sand, I'm searching

I hold on to your reasons and I'll hold on to my dreams
It's all good and bad advice 'cause you have to choose
One friend says to go ahead, the other one says don't
I'm searching

Whatever I try I can't find it
Whereever I roam it's all gone

No you can't find it, first you gotta lose it

Looking for an angle to change my point of view
Waiting for somebody, someone to relate to
Hoping for forgiveness, I'm living for love
I'm searching

Yearning for a teacher, to show me what to do
I'm learning from failure, that's all that I can do
Working on solutions, a fiction of truth
Keep on searching

Whatever I try I can't find it
Wherever I roam it's all gone

No you can't find it, first you gotta lose it

Anouk, "Searching"

@музыка: Anouk - Searching

@темы: lyrics

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Can it get any better? ))

(Yoochun) Ah….. I’m tired…… Aren’t there any happy things to do? Life….is boring (12:46am KST)

(Yoochun) Though it was more fun because we were lacking and it was tiring….. I want to deny everything just for one day.. Like how everyone else does… (12:55am KST)

(Yoochun) Should I… leave Korea for a couple of years?? I’ve been thinking about it for the past couple of months… I could study… Just until I started missing someone like crazy… If it’s possible, I want to go next year… A study abroad that isn’t a study abroad!! (1:00am KST)

(Yoochun) That’s impossible though~ Because there is something here that is important to me…. Because our members are here… I could never do that ….Because I can leave this…as just another wishful thought… I can talk about it like this…. Because if I talk about it… the longing for it lessens (1:33am KST)
(Jaejoong) @6002theMicky Yoochun, if you go away to study abroad, I’m going to immigrate to somewhere in space. Don’t be too caught up in your emotions, and with Lunar New Year’s Day coming up, let’s have a party of tears on Christmas day, Yookchun ㅠ(1:35am KST)
(Yoochun) @mjjeje hahahaha^^ It should be okay for me to get caught up in my emotions because we love each other!! I’m always thankful and I love you, Junsu too.. (1:40am KST)
(Yoochun) @mjjeje If you do immigrate to outer space, send my greetings to Luke^^ Star Wars (1:41am KST)
(Jaejoong) @6002theMicky Well I won’t be able to speak their language so you should go instead~ My face is so unique that the people in outer space might actually think that I really am an alien ㅠ Yookchun, let’s meet up tomorrow, I suddenly really miss you and Junsu(1:48am KST)
(Yoochun) @mjjeje Hyung…I’m…. just thankful…To Junsu..as well…. (2:36am KST)
(Jaejoong) Ah, I’m happy. To have someone who makes me happy and someone who I can affectionately worry about ^^ Goodnight everyone (1:56am KST) Yeah, right.

(Jaejoong) @6002theMicky A thank you is not enough to convey my feelings! I love you ..I like these words that I get to say to you every day.. I like these words though I say it so often that we may not be able to feel the sincerity within them.. I’ll see you tomorrow Yoochun^^ (2:39am KST)
(Jaejoong) @6002theMicky I love you always Yoochun, I’ve always told you this, right? You say you know when I’m crying and laughing on the inside just from looking at my eyes? That means… we.. have found a reason to keep living for each other rather than just for ourselves.. You, me and Junsu.. And Junsu is also another reason for my existence (2:44am KST)
(Jaejoong) @6002theMicky My words are getting a little weird because I’ve had a drink… haha, Anyway I like our members. I tear up and feel frustrated that I can’t tell you this all the time.. It’s difficult to bring up Yunho and Changmin when I talk.. Because it feels like my heart and my words are like heaven and earth.. If you and Junsu were by my side, I might have been like how I was at the afterparty.. (2:52am KST)
(Yoochun) A mirror…. or a mirror that is slightly broken..Or….A mirror that only I can see…. How could you all be able to see it….when that mirror doesn’t even exist (2:40am KST)

Next day~

(Yoochun) @mjjeje When did you take that photo?? hahaha Hyung, I’ll be taking the 46th book^^ (1:20pm KST)
(Junsu) @6002theMicky Are you two doing well in Gwangju?? Why were the two of you being so emotional yesterday..? Aigoo~ Be strong Yoochun, and Jaejoong hyung!! (1:44pm KST)
(Yoochun) @0101xiahtic Junsu~ I love you!!! You know that, right??????£?????? (2:04pm KST)
(Junsu) @6002theMicky Yes! I know~ lol Me too!! (4:10pm KST)
(Jaejoong) @0101xiahtic Do well at musical rehearsal, and hwaiting Jyunshu^^ (5:02pm KST)

@темы: tweets

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Thank you, my sunshine.

It's kinda scary how my love keeps growing.

@темы: OT3, JYJ

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I fell in love with Mary OST. Just two songs, actually. The ones sung by GeunSuk. One is a fast rock song the other is a ballad. Both are great. I've heard him sing before, especially in You're Beautiful, but honestly I think these songs are way better. He could make a career in music industry, though I do prefer him continuing taking on roles of musician instead.

"My Precious" is so lovely. It's just like a soft warm baby blanket that keeps me warm. Who knew his voice could sound so amazing. It's not especially strong, but it's so incredibly smooth I fell in love with it.

@темы: K-pop

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Last night I got really pissed off and wrote this long angry post. I didn't finish it though and now I think it's better not to. Not that I changed my mind, just... it's probably too unwise to post this. It can only make things worse. Now I need to make a decision whether just FA or actually try and invest to make things better. The question is whether it's worth it.

@темы: myself

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Cat Lady

Before I write another long and serious post, this:

And here I thought fanfics make him look too girly... XD

@темы: tweets, Jaejoong

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Although you guys knew it would be difficult, for what reason did you still choose to leave the group? Aren’t you afraid of being called ‘traitors’ behind your backs?

“Before we made up our mind, we spent over a year living in confusion. At that time there were external worries regarding our careers, profit allocations, and other factors that may have lead to the conflicting speculations of the public. However, our answers will always be consistent. When we look back on our lives, would we feel that ‘that time was truly happy?’ The conclusion we came up with is ‘most likely not.’ That is why we didn’t have the reason to continue on with our hesitations. Although we may have let down the fans who have loved and helped us all this time, we felt that this was the path to go on for our own lives.” (Junsu)

Nevertheless, it must not have been easy to give up on your extreme popularity right?

“At that time, we prepared for worst-case scenario, which was not being able to continue on as singers. If we didn’t have the mental preparation for that, it would’ve been very hard to reach this decision. We even thought of being farmers in the countryside. We have prepared for a long battle that may last up to more than 10 years.” (Junsu)

“Yes, we pondered upon of the possibility that our careers in the entertainment industry could have ended and sometimes had the mindset that there wouldn’t be a good result. We thought that if all failed, we would pack up our stuff in our Seoul homes and go somewhere new to live.” (Yoochun)

With regards to the reason of why they filed the lawsuit, Junsu stated, “It wasn’t just because of the unjust nature of the contract,” and “We were hurt and scarred by the agency in areas where we put our trust in them so we began to think about searching for a happy life.“

We’ll keep knocking as hard as we can to open up more doors and possibilities.
Well said, Junsu-yah! Way to go!)

“We don’t have girlfriends… so most likely the 3 of us will be together drinking Soju.” (Jaejoong)
Thank you, Jaejoong, I'm gonna go have naughty thoughts.

@музыка: Lamb - Gabriel

@темы: JYJ

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101219 JYJ at Fansign Event

Fan: Did you repay the 2,000,000krw?

JS: Shh~

Yoochun: Junsu will quickly repay the 2,000,000krw soon. Right? (t/n: directs question to Junsu)

JS gives him the Ok sign.

YC: It’s a lot of money, but you should take care of it. (jokingly) for the future of our relationship. (laughs)

JS: I’ll repay it tomorrow. Tomorrow~

YC: Are you going to give it in cash or deposit it into the bank account?

JS: Cash (something something)

YC: ..because if you deposit it into the bank account, my mom will know about it.

@темы: yoosu

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"Yoochun stared at me and bit his bottom."

Typos are so much fun!

Another one! I foresee another priceless collection.

запись создана: 14.11.2010 в 16:33

@темы: fanfix, crack