вторник, 23 сентября 2014
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Rocking out to old school J-rock, making gifs from Mirai Theatre. Who needs real life anyway?
воскресенье, 21 сентября 2014
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Posted at about 4 AM. Seriously.
I have resumed updating King&Queen again. Not for anyone, for myself. It means a lot to me and it deserves to keep living. It seems like such a stupid trivial thing, shipping and all but it's such an integral part of my life I can't deny it. Everyone deserves to have their own illusions.
среда, 17 сентября 2014
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Happy Birthday, you big gorgeous mess of a man!
вторник, 16 сентября 2014
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It's been 2 month since I'm on Win7. So many mixed feelings.
WinXP-32
-- Marvel Heroes won't work
WinXP-64
++ performance improved compared to XP
++ Marvel Heroes works
-- Camera soft
-- Phone soft
-- Movie Maker does not work
-- many other programs support is very limited
Win7:
-- Is huge
-- has tons of absolutely poinless shit
-- Windows Photo Viewer is bullshit and it can't play gifs!
-- WTF is with folder previews?
-- I hate the Control panel and visuals customization
-- renaming files in a pain because the system fucks up if dots are in the filename
-- how the fuck do you search in document? How do you even set any search parameters?
++ It has tags for pictures! - which I am not using
++ Language interface change - which is also pointless though I had to use it this time
++ The restart Explorer option. - Surely they could come up with it earlier?
Conclusions:
- Windows 7 is bullshit
- Marvel Heroes, I hate you
- I miss XP
WinXP-32
-- Marvel Heroes won't work
WinXP-64
++ performance improved compared to XP
++ Marvel Heroes works
-- Camera soft
-- Phone soft
-- Movie Maker does not work
-- many other programs support is very limited
Win7:
-- Is huge
-- has tons of absolutely poinless shit
-- Windows Photo Viewer is bullshit and it can't play gifs!
-- WTF is with folder previews?
-- I hate the Control panel and visuals customization
-- renaming files in a pain because the system fucks up if dots are in the filename
-- how the fuck do you search in document? How do you even set any search parameters?
++ It has tags for pictures! - which I am not using
++ Language interface change - which is also pointless though I had to use it this time
++ The restart Explorer option. - Surely they could come up with it earlier?
Conclusions:
- Windows 7 is bullshit
- Marvel Heroes, I hate you
- I miss XP

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One more thing that gives me life: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver. He's damn brilliant.
понедельник, 15 сентября 2014
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The fandom is celebrating today but I didn't think much of it so I haven't prepared anything special. I was kind of planning to mark the 1 year fandom thing which is at least 1,5 months away but I guess I'm gonna write a few words anyway. Maybe use it for the contest too.
I think the first time I heard of NEWS was in summer 2006. By an unfortunate coincidence they didn't quite exist at the time. It was all about Daite Senorita, KAT_TUN's debut as well as earlier dramas like Nobuta. I was into J-Rock at the time, Gackt was still cool and L'Arc~en~Ciel just released AWAKE but suddenly everyone was dropping all these great bands for some boys who couldn't sing or dance properly. The whole Johnnys boom seemed like a joke. I never actually saw NEWS then, I only remember Yama Pi and very vaguely Ryo. Well, I also noticed something really young-looking and cute but that alone wasn't enough for me. Some years later I think I saw Weeeek and Summer Time but wasn't impressed. However, I did like Taiyou no Namida and even saved the video. The movie version. It's funny, really. I knew most Johnnys bands, saw some fanvideos and such but NEWS were never ever there. So basically I knew absolutely nothing of the 4 current members and when I saw the new NEWS last year they were a brand new band for me. At that time things were not going well for me and my last fandom left me bruised and disappointed. I really needed something to help me keep my spirits up and NEWS became that something.
I'm not 15, not even 20 and I'm not capable of that pure flailing the other kids do. I see people saying how NEWS are the first, the best and the only, people who loved them for many years, who have witnessed the heartbreak of 2011 and I can't compete with that, I even missed their 10th Anniversary. NEWS are not my first band, by far and most probably not the last one. But they're the ones I love now and it's all that matters. They are really important at this point in my life and they brighten my every day. They give food for my soul and for my mind. They help me grow. I love you, guys! All 4 of you. You're not the best singers or dancers out there and some of your songs are terrible. But you're special, you're amazing people and you really make people smile and try harder and that's very important. I'm thankful for your existence.
Just please, please, don't fuck it up. I really don't want to go through this yet again.
I think the first time I heard of NEWS was in summer 2006. By an unfortunate coincidence they didn't quite exist at the time. It was all about Daite Senorita, KAT_TUN's debut as well as earlier dramas like Nobuta. I was into J-Rock at the time, Gackt was still cool and L'Arc~en~Ciel just released AWAKE but suddenly everyone was dropping all these great bands for some boys who couldn't sing or dance properly. The whole Johnnys boom seemed like a joke. I never actually saw NEWS then, I only remember Yama Pi and very vaguely Ryo. Well, I also noticed something really young-looking and cute but that alone wasn't enough for me. Some years later I think I saw Weeeek and Summer Time but wasn't impressed. However, I did like Taiyou no Namida and even saved the video. The movie version. It's funny, really. I knew most Johnnys bands, saw some fanvideos and such but NEWS were never ever there. So basically I knew absolutely nothing of the 4 current members and when I saw the new NEWS last year they were a brand new band for me. At that time things were not going well for me and my last fandom left me bruised and disappointed. I really needed something to help me keep my spirits up and NEWS became that something.
I'm not 15, not even 20 and I'm not capable of that pure flailing the other kids do. I see people saying how NEWS are the first, the best and the only, people who loved them for many years, who have witnessed the heartbreak of 2011 and I can't compete with that, I even missed their 10th Anniversary. NEWS are not my first band, by far and most probably not the last one. But they're the ones I love now and it's all that matters. They are really important at this point in my life and they brighten my every day. They give food for my soul and for my mind. They help me grow. I love you, guys! All 4 of you. You're not the best singers or dancers out there and some of your songs are terrible. But you're special, you're amazing people and you really make people smile and try harder and that's very important. I'm thankful for your existence.
Just please, please, don't fuck it up. I really don't want to go through this yet again.
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It's been 3,5 months since I got Emma and all of my girls are now lvl 45-50. So I was nearing 400 eternity splinters I thought who I should get next. I was contemplating on getting a guy but somehow noone caught my attention so in the end I was going to get Jean Grey. However, just then the announcement of Rogue came and when I heard about her being able to steal powers I decided it's better to wait, stock on those splinters and get her instead. I'm not disappointed.
That's some booty you got there, sister. Don't like her voiceover but her powers are pretty damn cool and I'm only at lvl 17 now.
I had to make a brief overview of what I have so far. GEEK FLAILING
That's some booty you got there, sister. Don't like her voiceover but her powers are pretty damn cool and I'm only at lvl 17 now.
I had to make a brief overview of what I have so far. GEEK FLAILING
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If someone asked me if I'm happy I wouldn't know how to reply. Yet, I feel like I've never had my shit together more than at this point in my life.
пятница, 12 сентября 2014
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четверг, 11 сентября 2014
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I've read about personality types a lot and it's hard to impress me but I fee like this system really nailed it.
www.16personalities.com/isfj-personality
www.16personalities.com/isfj-personality
вторник, 09 сентября 2014
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I still find it hard to believe Orange is the NEw Black is over and won't be back for almost a year. But I've decided to try Masters of Sex. I had a feeling it's going to be a difficult watch and it is but I'm in too deep already. I love the female characters as much as I hate the male ones. I guess all the men in the 50's were hateable. This is gonna be hard.
суббота, 06 сентября 2014
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さんぽやってないね、最近。まあ、1週間1回くらいかな。でもね、毎回大事にしている。小さいことも、とても普通ことも。今日はね、子供を見つめて、少しだけ純粋になった。あとは、パスしちゃった。前からずっとほしかった、そんなこと。今日スタジアムで普通でサッカーしてるな男を見て。で、私の方へボールを飛んで、やっと勇気を出すとパスしちゃった!凄く緊張したんだ。体はおかしくなるほど。でも、嬉しかった。苦しい、それ。そんな普通ことできないって。いつかね、いつか、ずっと。
суббота, 30 августа 2014
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We didn't have hot water in nearly 2 months and I thought we'd had to wait for another few weeks or worse but we have been spared and now I'm sittin' and writing this squeaky clean. We didn't have any water at all for a few days and about once a month electricity gets cut without prior notice. The house is too fucking old. It's pretty funny how you adapt to anything though. I accepted it all quite easily, partly because of my recent level-up and partly because there are far worse things happening right now. Either way now we have all the earthly delights and the prospects are not too bad so I'm going to make the most of this last snippet of summer.
пятница, 29 августа 2014
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Season 2 is kicking ass. It was all it's supposed to be and more.
I really love the character development. Right off you can see how much Piper has changed, how tough she has become. And you almost wonder that maybe she hasn't really changed that much, she just adapted revealing her true colors. Either way I can really identify with her somehow.
It's interesting how this time the other inmates' stories take even more space. I mean we don't even see Piper in Ep.2 which only helps to create a dramatic comeback and overall her story takes a lot less space. I don't like some of the personal stories, some of them seem too weird and shallow. The Morello story was really quite shocking though and I liked Rosa's. The game gets big with all the white/black/hispanic dominance struggle. Especially with the Big black momma back in. I think Vee's character is a bit over the top, she doesn't even seem human, more like a demon from hell. And yet she's great for showing how easy it is to manipulate people especially in such a closed environment. I also really like the strange relationships like Healey and Pennsatucky counseling thing and Piper becoming friends with Red. Who would have thought, ha? That's what makes OITNB so interesting. And of course Taylor Schilling is beautiful.
Overall it wasn't an easy watch. There's more drama than humour and some very serious issues thrown in your face but there's no doubt this show rocks and it's a phenomenon, a breakthrough and I have 0 regrets watching it. I can't believe it's over and Season 3 only comes out in a year. But it's a very solid show with nearly hour-long episodes so it's gonna be worth it.
I really love the character development. Right off you can see how much Piper has changed, how tough she has become. And you almost wonder that maybe she hasn't really changed that much, she just adapted revealing her true colors. Either way I can really identify with her somehow.
It's interesting how this time the other inmates' stories take even more space. I mean we don't even see Piper in Ep.2 which only helps to create a dramatic comeback and overall her story takes a lot less space. I don't like some of the personal stories, some of them seem too weird and shallow. The Morello story was really quite shocking though and I liked Rosa's. The game gets big with all the white/black/hispanic dominance struggle. Especially with the Big black momma back in. I think Vee's character is a bit over the top, she doesn't even seem human, more like a demon from hell. And yet she's great for showing how easy it is to manipulate people especially in such a closed environment. I also really like the strange relationships like Healey and Pennsatucky counseling thing and Piper becoming friends with Red. Who would have thought, ha? That's what makes OITNB so interesting. And of course Taylor Schilling is beautiful.
Overall it wasn't an easy watch. There's more drama than humour and some very serious issues thrown in your face but there's no doubt this show rocks and it's a phenomenon, a breakthrough and I have 0 regrets watching it. I can't believe it's over and Season 3 only comes out in a year. But it's a very solid show with nearly hour-long episodes so it's gonna be worth it.
четверг, 28 августа 2014
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I've spent most of the 24th sorting all of the A9 stuff that I accumulated over the last year and I actually managed to finish it. I also caught up with the Wink Ups and watched a couple of Alice9 Channels. This time I really feel like I miss them. The strangest thing is I actually was especially glad to see Saga and Nao. That one episode that they did after the tour where Nao is instructing Saga to play dars despite scoring 16 points and then looking so pitiful after paying for the wine. I was like "My stupid babies~"


And then there's Shou... don't do this to me. This is unfair, really. In other news, after 10 years we now know his name is Ohara. It's Ohara, you ignorant, shits! It's a pretty name. Like Scarlett.

This one's from Anniversary After Party. He always looks a little pregnant but in this one... it's more than a little. I have such mixed feeling about this I don't even know. I kind of like it and that kind of freaks me out.
I also decided I might as well give Supernova a chance but I found it lame as expected. I actually grew to like Seven but that's about it. Other songs are all average to lame. Maybe it's just me but it's kind of sad because they seem to be so happy with their music and I know they do their best.
At any rate, there's no going back but I feel so confused. I miss them but I know if I watch stuff I'll want to post stuff and I've already been there. But I can't help but be a little worried about their future. They have been going nice and steady but now it's all uncertain. I mean it's so unsettling to see them close their Twitter accounts and Alice9 Channel might be cancelled too. Yet I'm sure it wasn't an easy decision and if they took this leap of faith there has to be a good reason for it. Maybe Shou's baby is due. Ok, that's not funny.
воскресенье, 24 августа 2014
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I missed NEWS' 10th Anniversary and TVXQ's was a joke but I'm not going to ignore this one. I left the fandom nearly a year ago but it was never about the band. Well, maybe a little since their music was becoming marginally bearable. But they're still a great band who tries their best and cares deeply about their fans and I admire them. Happy birthday, boys!
вторник, 19 августа 2014
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Paana Playground Giveaway 2 (Magic)
Giveaway 2 - Challenge
For this challenge we are all becoming magicians. Pretend you have gained magical powers for a day, how would you use those powers on the boys? Would you give them powers of their own? would you enhance something? lessen something else? give them a career opportunity? give them a pet? help them catch a bigger tuna? Fill their rooms with sweets? sabotage their closets?
ANYTHING you can think of is fine. So long as it sticks to the community rules (keep it positive, no flaming). You can keep your idea's silly or be as thoughtful as you see fit. And you can focus your powers on a single member, or on the whole group.
Tegoshi doesn't really need anything, he likes to achieve everything on his own. But... I'd give him the power to turn into a girl. That would be interesting.
Massu is different. He likes making progress but I think he could use a little help. Like in touching animals. He made a lot of progress lately but I still want him to not be afraid of them whatsoever. I think it would make him happier.
For Shige rather than giving something I'd take something away. He seems to have a bad luck spell on him or something so I want to make it disappear. To stop things breaking around him and maybe help his catch a nice big tuna. Just make his life a little easier.
For Koyama I'd give him a magic wallet so he can treat and spoil his members without worrying about finances.
Giveaway 2 - Challenge
For this challenge we are all becoming magicians. Pretend you have gained magical powers for a day, how would you use those powers on the boys? Would you give them powers of their own? would you enhance something? lessen something else? give them a career opportunity? give them a pet? help them catch a bigger tuna? Fill their rooms with sweets? sabotage their closets?
ANYTHING you can think of is fine. So long as it sticks to the community rules (keep it positive, no flaming). You can keep your idea's silly or be as thoughtful as you see fit. And you can focus your powers on a single member, or on the whole group.
Tegoshi doesn't really need anything, he likes to achieve everything on his own. But... I'd give him the power to turn into a girl. That would be interesting.
Massu is different. He likes making progress but I think he could use a little help. Like in touching animals. He made a lot of progress lately but I still want him to not be afraid of them whatsoever. I think it would make him happier.
For Shige rather than giving something I'd take something away. He seems to have a bad luck spell on him or something so I want to make it disappear. To stop things breaking around him and maybe help his catch a nice big tuna. Just make his life a little easier.
For Koyama I'd give him a magic wallet so he can treat and spoil his members without worrying about finances.
суббота, 16 августа 2014
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No matter how sick I get I love the warm wind caressing my bare knees, I love feeling the ground under my feet, I love hearing dry leaves dancing on the pavement and as long as I do I'm gonna be fine.
среда, 13 августа 2014
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I had a nearly 2,5 skype talk with Paola. She's really nice and smart. It was good although exhausting. Except I found myself staring at myself most of the time.
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I finally finished Season 1. It took me long enough since I watch it discreetly. Anyway. It's been a long time since I've been so into a western series. Of course, the thing with series is that they can be exciting one episode and lame the next. Or maybe your expectations get too high. Anyway.
Orange is the New Black is not just some series. It made a really big fuss very soon. And I can see why. The plot is well-paces and engagind. The cast is simply amazing - there isn't a second when you doubt their play. But the thing that really makes it refreshing and new is the mostly female cast of varied and interesting female characters. And that sounds strange because that really shouldn't be a thing. Except it is and you get a bit taken aback seeing so many women of all ages, races and body types. And all of them are great and look very real. But I have to say that more than anyone I have been very impressed by Taylor Schilling. Her face is so alive, so emotional. It's never neutral and you can see so many micro-expressions changin on it in a matter of seconds. For some reason I can really sympathize with Chapman. She wants to be nice so much, she is nice but she is also self-centered and somehow she gets herself into trouble every time. I also really love Nicky. I can't even explain it, she's just so cool. But all of the characters are great.

Season 1 ended with such a cliffhanger so I'm not gonna wait and just dive headfirst into Season 2.
Orange is the New Black is not just some series. It made a really big fuss very soon. And I can see why. The plot is well-paces and engagind. The cast is simply amazing - there isn't a second when you doubt their play. But the thing that really makes it refreshing and new is the mostly female cast of varied and interesting female characters. And that sounds strange because that really shouldn't be a thing. Except it is and you get a bit taken aback seeing so many women of all ages, races and body types. And all of them are great and look very real. But I have to say that more than anyone I have been very impressed by Taylor Schilling. Her face is so alive, so emotional. It's never neutral and you can see so many micro-expressions changin on it in a matter of seconds. For some reason I can really sympathize with Chapman. She wants to be nice so much, she is nice but she is also self-centered and somehow she gets herself into trouble every time. I also really love Nicky. I can't even explain it, she's just so cool. But all of the characters are great.

Season 1 ended with such a cliffhanger so I'm not gonna wait and just dive headfirst into Season 2.