Today's tweets were highly amusing. One by one uncovering the story of how the boys went to karaoke last night. Hiroto singing to Geunsuk's "Let Me Cry", Tora and Saga getting drunk, then getting Hiroto drunk too. Nao waiting for Shou in an open-air bath but Shou never comes and Nao bitchez and goes to bed.

@темы: tweets, Alice Nine

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I have been spending a lot of my time on the comm. I really like the way things are going right now, I think I'm being a great mod and all. I finally manage to do all the things I wanted, realizing all the stuff I planned. I feel really satisfied with it. But there are things that bother me. We have 34 members now which is way more than I expected. Yet I don't really sense a feel of community and not even sure I want to. Jet made a get-together post to bond and stuff but I really felt awkward there. Most of the people who commented write extremely crappy fics and I just can't take these people seriously, let alone bond with them. I'm way past this stage. Plus I feel terribly overaged. I don't want to be an elitist bitch, but I already begin to feel kind of defensive. I don't want anyone to mess up something I waorked so hard for. I really don't know how to go about it.

@темы: fandom

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Final Fantasy VII Advent Children

Translating yet another one of Shou's "we watched FF7 together again" I snapped and went to download the thing. I've known the main characters for some time since they pop up here and there so it was good finally learning what it was all about. At first as expected I couldn't understand shit, but after doing some homework I got the gist of it. My head kind of hurt from too much info. In short, I really enjoyed it. The graphics are pretty amazing and I really like the setting. I don't mind the battles, but I wish they'd concentrated more on the characters and plot. I mean, seriously the battles probably took about half of the whole thing, they went almost non-stop from the middle onwards. It was fresh though - they were battles with no regards to laws of physics whatsoever))
I actually contemplated playing the game, but it's too old so the graphics are incomparable to the film. There are rumours about a remake so if they prove to be true I might give it a try.

Cloud's really cute in this. In my twisted mind it didn't take me long to get a craving for something more... adult. It's just that there are so many pretty characters but no action whatsoever. And quite a few innuendos. It's as if the creators themselves planned it out. Or is it just me being an old slasher? Anyway, ravages the sites, wasn't able to find much, but...

heyy. That's hot.

@темы: slash

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Finally made the skin for Tora-shi. It was a quick job, but I really like it. Of course, unlike with DBSK sims this time I had to model boys based on the image I have. Lately I've been too busy for Sims but hopefully I shall soon finish those items I've been working on.



Also I think Shou approved. They did it 5 times in a row! Stopped just because they were exhausted. I've never seen anyone do that before.

@темы: Sims 3

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Была сегодня у бабушки в больнице. На первом этаже на выбор - аптека, природные средства и церковный стенд. Надо сказать, мерчандайзинг у последних неплох - купила бабушке масло на базе святых мощей с добавлением трав. И эти люди хотят запретить Гарри Поттера! Конечно, зачем конкуренция?

@темы: family, the world was never sane

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The fic was awesome. One of the best things about it was that even thought it was AU the characters were very authentic. It would be even better if mother didn't walk in on the smut part, but that's life. I kinda missed Yoosu too. I ship them since 2007, it's become something so familiar and precious. With fanfics it's really easy since I know them like the back of my hand, their personalities, the way they interact and their bodies too which is important when picturing things.
With TxS I'm at a stage where I still have a lot of blanks. I began writing a fic but I got stuck. Suppose one of the biggest difficulties is that I keep hesitating when writing dialogues because I'm not sure whether this or that phrase is something they would say or if they would behave in a certain way. And imagining NC is still very awkward. There's still a long way to go.

It's good to know Yoosu still can move me so much. And it was really bugging me that there were good fics, but I was so not in the mood for them. Today I'll try not to lose the mood and read some more.

@темы: fanfix, yoosu

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That video really turned me on. Good job! I'll go read some Yoosu before the mood is lost.

@темы: yoosu

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Honestly I didn't expect much interest for the community, even if it would be the 4 of us it would be more than ok. But we already have 18 members and we barely started. Every time I look at the list I think: "well, that has to be it", but people keep joining. In a way I'm tempted to get bitchy, there are all these ficwriters who write crappy disgusting fics, but I'll try to be nice as much as I can. In a way I almost don't want people to join, I thought it might become a kind of our private little chat-room. But whatever. I wonder if people are going to post at all. I'm not worried about it though. If they won't, I'll just turn this place into my own blog. In fact I almost hope no one does for awhile since I have it all planned and tons of stuff of what to post and I might get bitchy if somebody interferes with my schedule. Once I finish with the blogs, I'll go on a posting spree)) I kind of worry myself, I'm becoming scary like this.

@темы: fandom

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This is how we roll... Imma mod!



king-x-queen.livejournal.com

@темы: projects, fandom, ToraxShou

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This is a little scary but I'm actually pretty much done with the interviews. I've got no idea how many I've read, but I've saved 60, so it might be up to 100? Yeah, I know. I've never done that for any other band since I left BritRock. Now I'll revise the stuff I've gathered and move on to the blog. I also found the translations for the epic Yahoo!Japan Live Talk. Looked like I got some things wrong after all, which I'm partly glad about and partly annoyed.

@темы: Alice Nine

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It's really amusing. There's this poll capslock_tvxq about new stuff from JYJ and TVXQ. They do that once in a while. At first I wanted to skip it because I have no idea what TVXQ have released since winter, but then I decided to take it anyway. But the question that really got me stuck was "Who's your favourite member?" Haha. A year ago I wouldn't think a minute, but right now I seriously have no idea. So in the end I went with Junsu.

@темы: JYJ, fandom

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Spent whole day cleaning out granny's flat. It was disgusting, but endearing and funny in a way. It was quite an adventure and we sort of had fun. I suppose I still have a long way to go in fighting my snobbishness. My cousin really tuned out to be a really nice and smart guy. I don't even feel embarrassed for wanting to marry him when I was 6. In other news I caught a cold. I'm supposed to say it sucks, but in a way I'm kind of glad. It's hard to explain, but in the last 2 years it's the most normal kind of illness that happened to me.

@темы: family

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Today. I'm watching A9 on the TV. Mum comes along.

Mum: Their songs all sound the same. I'm surprised you have't got tired of them yet.
Me: Mum, you underestimate me. I listened to TVXQ for over 4 years!

LOL.

@темы: family

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Heart of Gold 2.0

I finally made perfect rips from HoG DVDs. All thanks to azshannar. The guy (girl?) seriously made me feel uncomfortable with all the PMs he sent me, I'm really grateful. But now I have discovered the good way to rip videos. My old two rippers were full of flaws while these two tiny progs are fast and reliable. Life just became a bit easier)

But that's boring stuff. To amend here's gif of Shou I made today. Serously the boy has some body parts that have a life of their own. Shou, I loaf you!



Also I ripped Shou's angle. When watching I couldn't help but note this:

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@музыка: Alicia Keys - Fallin

@темы: Shou, my!gif, Alice Nine

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JYJ, A9 and what little care I have left

This post has been a long time coming, but I stalled. Because writing it breaks my own heart a little.

Where to start? Lately, I see how I gradually slip further and further away from the JYJ fandom. I barely save any photos these days and even feel too lazy to check the news. It seems almost as if fate itself or bad stylists assisted me seeing how no matter how I look at it I don't even find them that much attractive any more. Coincidentally all three of them have awful haircuts atm, it's really incomparable to how they looked a year ago. I seriously think Jaejoong never looked worse since the beginning of his career. But looks is just one thing. Another important note would be the stuff they release. For one I'm really disappointed at the fact that the album has only 10 songs, 6 out of which have already been released in Their Rooms. The fuck? And it's not the first time they do it either. As for the music itself... I'm afraid since I began to lose interest in them I also began to hear their music for what it really is: mediocre pop songs with great vocals. I've seen people praise the album, but I can't even if I wanted to. I barely listened to it once. Right now it seems... not bad, just plain boring. And the MV's... I find In Heaven ridiculous. Sorry, Junsu, but you can't act. Get Out is just average. I haven't watched Protect the Boss either and frankly don't feel like it.

All of a sudden I just sort of stopped feeling like I awe them something and don't feel like defending them like I used to. And honestly it's kind of liberating not trying to make myself like the stuff that I find barely passable. They do have great potential but sadly I doubt they will ever make full use of it. All in all I feel JYJ will need to do something really impressive to win me back.

Currently I am seriously annoyed at all the bitching and moaning on my friends-list. Yes, I was in anguish too during the first year especially. We were all hurt and disappointed. I was also kind of angry at people who fleed to other fandoms. But it's been two fucking years. It seemes like the easy way out, even betrayal maybe. If someone told me I would ditch it so suddenly I would find it hard to believe. But now that I did it it seems so natural and I feel no guilt whatsoever. A lot of things happened recently that made me feel like there must be more to life than this. Maybe I just matured. But that's another story.

The scariest thing is knowing that something you absolutely adored for years now doesn't interest you much. But that's how is goes. I realized staying in one fandom for too long is not stimulating at all. Over 4 years a really long time. With TVXQ I know way too much. There's hardly a picture or a video where I can't tell when and where it was taken. It's kind of scary even. So with A9 it was like a breath of fresh air, I love discovering new personalities and the bonds between them. The music level is just incomparable. It's a really small fandom and I feel like I can do so much to make it better. Although I went so clinical that only a few months into it I already know more than the old fans.

On a sad pragmatic note, because of TVXQ I am already imagining how things will turn out if they were to disband one day. I mean, it's obvious who will stick with whom and who I will stick with. But I really hope it won't happen. I have no idea how long I will stay in A9 fandom since I seem to move at a scary pace, but I hope it will last longer. Maybe one of the reasons why I am so fidgety and impatient is because I'm afraid I might have another change of heart so I'm trying to make the most of it.

There, I said it. If anyone finds this post offensive feel free to bitch about it or unsubscribe. Seriously, I'll understand.

@темы: musings, JYJ, fandom, Alice Nine

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A9 has been influencing me in ways I could never imagine. These last several years I have been pretty conservative with colours. Just because I didn't feel like wearing anything bright. But lately there has been some major shifts. Today I went out in an out fit that had red, orange and pink. I didn't wear these clothes for at least 3 years. It was a very spur of a moment thing. Also doing the make-up I realized it looks a lot like that of Shou in Gekkou Yoku which I adore. Looking at the boys reawakened my fashion spirit and made me want to experiment. And I am so buying those metallic boots.



Changed the diary design too~ Just to fit the atmosphere.

@музыка: Alice Nine - Gekkou Yoku

@темы: myself, Alice Nine

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Hidden Objects

This year I've been really into the Hidden Object & Puzzle games. They don't take much time, they're relaxing, they're good for refreshing one's mind and what's also important it's a great way to build up your vocabulary. These kind of games only take a few hours to clear so I've gone through a lot of them. Although surprisingly it's not that easy to find a game that suits me, you'd think there would be lots of them, but somehow even with this genre at least a half of them are really creepy. Anyway, my favourite would be the Awakening series, there are already 3 of them and probably one more to come. The gameplay is really pretty and the puzzles are varied and interesting. I also quite liked the latest one, Mystery Legends - Beauty and the Beast, although it was kind of creepy. In terms of hiddens object parts it was the hardest one both in terms of words and finding stuff and made me feel like I'm not that good in English. I know you can't know everything, but I get kind of frustrated because on every screen there would be at least a few words I don't know. But then I love a challenge.

@темы: Games

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I'm having another 'writing' stage. It's always like this - I try to keep a visual balance on the page, but I happen to either want to write or post pictures and media. So to aid that I'm going to post random pictures I like. Like this one. So posh~

@темы: Alice Nine

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Hmmm... I still wonder where the personal info like names and birth dates leaked from... But tonight I found a bit of a confirmation about Nao and Shou since they said their names come from their real names. With Nao it's obvious (although there are rumours that Nao denied Murai being his last name during a live) and with Shou I just checked and among the 30 or so ways to write Kazumasa in kanji... the kanji for 'masa' can be written as 将. Looks like he used it since Lost Age and I can understand why. Kazumasa is such an unpretty name... what were his parents thinking?

@темы: Shou, Alice Nine

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I have come to another stage where I want to, no I need to write tons of stuff, but I'm too tired to do that for now. There's so much anxiety and excitement brimming just under the surface ad I'm a little scared to let it al out.

@темы: musings