The comeback I didn't want

As much as I missed them I was not looking forward to this. After the last album I was pretty sure I will not be pleased with new material. I mean I had a faint hope but today I was dreading to watch the new video, somehow I was prepared to be unimpressed. The song itself was not that bad. Unoriginal, yes, but not bad. It reminded me of +/- which I don't like. But the video... I mean overall it was ok, again, unoriginal but nice but Shou... WAI? This one thing completely ruined it for me. Because seriously, WTF?

And then there was this. DIAWOLF. Shou and Tora's project. I was supposed to be happy about it. I was. But somehow, somehow I had a feeling I won't like this and I was right. Not only it's the pseudo-hardcore type that I loathe, it's completely in English. Why do you have to do this? Basically, it reminds me of Givuss but without the youthful rawness. But I really love them using their surnames, it's an odd turn-on. Well, I'm gonna hope they'll release something bearable eventually. I'm also gonna hope they at the very least do a sexy photoshoot.



I am at a loss how to proceed here. I adore the boys but not the music. It's even worse that everyone is so excited about his, most importantly the boys themselves.

@темы: ToraxShou, Alice Nine

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And so Spring has come. March, the most despicable of all months, at least in the city. There's no green at all, just grey, muddy ugliness and rubbish. I don't feel devastated like a few days ago, just empty and dead inside.

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Emma and the Guys

I was quite dissatisfied with the 200 days login reward Team-up Wolverine. I just put him together with the main Wolverine who I also did not really want. They weren't a great team and the junior would always run out and get himself killed within minutes. But last night I got this brilliant idea that he should be with Emma. She already has Scotty so it made sense to have another guy on the team. Then I also charmed one maggia guy and now she has a fab entourage of suitors.

They don't just look great, they work well too. The three of them do a good job of dealing with small team of enemies even if Emma just stands there and does nothing. Now that's a fine escort.

@темы: Games

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Marvel's Agent Carter

I didn't even know Marvel was doing series but I heard about this on tumblr and since I really liked the character I thought I'd give it a try.

I was not disappointed. Peggy is brilliant, the other characters are interesting too, the plot is solid and well-paced and engaging. I also really like the relationship side of this, such as Peggy's companionship with Jarvis. Although I still think her relation to Cap was overly stressed. But I guess they had to add at least a little romance there, even as thin as this. The only problem I had with the series was that it's not really child-friendly like most Marvel films and has some pretty creepy scenes towards the end. That made me uneasy and in the end my folks were more excited about the whole thing than I was. But overall, it's a really good series that deserves a second season.

@темы: series, Marvel

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I don't even feel like writing about White yet. Nor the video. Also all the other frustrating things.

I've been in this fandom for nearly a year and a half. Quite a time. Even if it still feels like I barely got here. My last fandom lasted a year and 5 months. I felt like it ended prematurely and unfortunately but in the end I exhausted 98% of the resources and I really didn't like the way their music was going. I wonder if it's time for me to move on soon. Next time I should really find a band whose music I can actually enjoy without having to convince myself.

@темы: fandom

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Ok, so it's the 25th now so I have to excuses left. Should I listen the the album or should I further delay the disappointment?

@темы: NEWS.

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The album leaked 4 fucking days before release. Seriously, what the fuck? The release date exist for a reason. I don't know, it just feels so wrong and disrespectful t the artist. You got your hands on the album - fine but why can't you keep it to yourself? I pledge to myself to not touch either the album or the video footage unti offical release. There.

@темы: NEWS.

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Sue Storm

If there's one thing that's girly about me it's choosing heroes in MH2015. I got 400 splinters today and even though I was thinking of getting Iceman that's due in about 2 weeks I saw him and he looked really ugly. Besides, I really got tired of leveling Bobby and Wolverine which I didn't even want. So I went to see my options. I was planning on getting both Jean and Sue Storm eventually but I kinda hate Jean's outfit. So... hello, Susan!

@темы: Games

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All the Member Ai~

I've been in this fandom for almost 1,5 year now and the member ai video was long overdue. As with most videos it was done in two big strides and in the end I had more material than I needed but I picked the parts that suited the song more and of course the ones I personally love. Also I'm really satisfied with the editing I've done. This is the first video I did in HD and I decided to bring all the footage to a common resolution and found the best possible quality vs size option. In other words, I am very satisfied with it.

Now that it's done my minimal fandom fanvideo quota is filled. I do hope to finish at least two more though.

@музыка: Kangta - 2032 In Cuba

@темы: fanvid, NEWS.

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Undress

Another story I started later that OSaP and finished before it. But it's much shorter and simpler and I thought I'll get it out of the way. That sounds too harsh probably. I like the story (though not as much as Benefits), it was spinning in my head for pretty long so in September I sat and wrote the first scene and it went from there. I wrote it fairly fast considering I was working on 2 stories simultaneously. I kinda got stuck at the last part though. I was worried that this whole resolution part was too similar in all 3 of my stories but I can't really help it. I worried this long heavy dialogue would ruin the light cheerful story but I guess I couldn't just skip the talk without sorting everything out.

Overall, I'm happy with it. I think this story is the closest to romantic comedy I ever written. I know I still lack in some ways. Long dialogues are my weakness and I'm not great at creating atmosphere. I think I did achieve a better storytelling but I wish I had more smoothness. I still feel like I have gaps that I end up filling rather clumsily. But for a short simple story it was nice. I also did a good job with the artwork. The concept was a must and I did my best. It's kind of gross how I finished this just before Valentines but oh well. Good job!

@музыка: 加藤シゲアキ - Dreamcatcher (I hate you)

@темы: fanfix

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Lads, blokes, sods and mates... how wonderful to hear after all the guys, dudes and bros. Imma watching a British drama.

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It's so odd with dreams. Sometimes I live whole pieces of life with jobs, friends, love interests, problems. I go through it, I have hopes and do my best but then all of a sudden it all crashes, melts, slips through my fingers. What felt so real turns out to be just a phantasy in mere seconds. Sometimes like today I feel wronged. Because the things I had there are gone forever, that life though imperfect still felt like mine.

@темы: Dreams

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This makes me feel like an elitist bitch

Other NEWS fans: The new song is awesome! I love it! So excited!
Me: Um, ok. I see. Well, it's not terrible. I mean. Could be worse. It'll grow on me. Probably.

@темы: NEWS.

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Home Drama (2004)

I found out about it through Shige and I didn't know if I should watch it because he only made a brief appearance once in episode 9. On top of that, the plot starts with a tragedy and I wasn't sure I need any more drama in my life. But something drove me to look for it and I was surprised to find working links. I decided since I went through all that trouble I might as well give it a try. I'm glad I did.

It's no wonder I haven't heard of it. It has no ridiculous comedy, exaggerated acting, controversial romance, flamboyant LGBT characters or crossdressing of the popular j-dramas. It's just a drama about family in its truest sense of the word. After the pilot episode I knew it's exactly the kind of drama I want to watch. A solid plot, steady pace, good character development and soft atmosphere made me look forward to each new episode. But even above that was a strong message, kindness and humanity.

Rating: 9

@темы: dorama

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Saga~ saga~

I got an amazing parcel today. It was more than a present, it was more of a confirmation that there are some really kind people out there and that what I do is not pointless. I got a note yesterday but I was too tired to go to pick it up and also I know that often the expectation of something nice is better than actually seeing it happen. This happiness is so short. I cling to it desperately, but it slips away.

@музыка: Fall Out Boy - America's Suitehearts

@темы: little treasures

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Had my first lesson today. Absolutely exhausted but also a little bit happy. But overall it was good I think and I had my first earned money of the year.

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I actually had a dream where Tegoshi was at the airport in a princessy dress. It was a Tegomass tour I think. Then on a different occasion when he was with NEWS he smooched Shige. Thank you, brain.

@музыка: Penicillin - Hibiwareta HOLYNIGHT

@темы: Dreams

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It’s been a really stressful day, so much that the nerve next to my left eye started twitching. But I gathered my balls and dealt with 3 of the 4 issues that bothered me. You are great, girl. It’s gonna be alright.

Morale of the day: sometimes when people are weak and stupid and irresponsible shits you need to act, to ask, take what's yours. I'm still not ok, far from it but at least I don't have to brood and sulk and feel like I've been wronged.

@музыка: Madonna - Forbidden Love

@темы: myself

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The nerve in my left eye is twitching. It's been awhile.

@темы: myself, one-liner