Ahh. I have survived this motherfucking hot day of 37°C. I've been feeling comatose for the last few days. But now I think I'm beginning to regain my wits little by little.

@темы: myself

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It feels like I'm the only one who went "No Way!" at the latest TVXQ rumour. Yes, I'm a selfish bitch. I don't know what it's all about but I really don't like it.

@темы: TVXQ

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Found out I missed the Fake DVD so I fixed that today. The pranks were weird. Poor little Reno-chan is scared of gays....

@темы: ViViD

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When I'm taking up too many tasks I end up not feeling like doing anything. Like now. I'm bored as hell. It's even worse than being depressed because this state is absolutely fruitless, nothing comes out of it. I really hate this.

@темы: myself

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Q. What if, you woke up one morning, and you turned into a girl?

Ryouga: I would ask for favours.

Shin: For what!? (laughs)

Ryouga: For many many things (All laugh)

IV: I’d go out looking for dates.

Reno: I want to experience feelings that a man can’t experience.

Shin: UnUn, I want to be spoiled!

Ko-ki: Aren’t you already spoiled (laughs).

Shin: No, I’m not! (laughs) Somehow, don’t you want to be spoiled as a girl? You’ll be treated to meals and such. When it’s time to pay, the guy will say, “That’s fine, I’ll pay for you” and your heart will go, “I knew this would happen!” but you’ll tell him, ” Eh, really? Thank you♡”, right.

Ryouga: Ah, I want to try that!

Reno: It’s actually quite troublesome to be a man.

Ko-ki: I don’t really like girls who expect to be treated to, But I’ll still treat her, I guess.

IV: I understand that!

ViViD If~moshimo~ Group Interview from July 2012 issue of「FOOL’S MATE」magazine

@темы: ViViD

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Songs of Healing

A note to self. It's just a bunch of songs that really help me to make it through.

Manic Street Preachers - Door To The River
H.O.T. - bit (Hope)
Lupe Fiasco feat. Kenna, Mike Shinoda - Resurrection
Guano Apes - This Time

@темы: list

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ShouxShin

Ok, now I'm sure. I thought I was just imagining things but after watching the recent episode of ViViD Style I confirmed - Shin also has an involuntary blinking problem, just like Shou. It's not as apparent but it's there.

So now there's the fashion sense, the basketball, the uncalled for Kansai-ben and now this. Want it or not, I can't escape the archetypes. They do exist and I keep running into such pairs of amazingly similar people.

@темы: Shou, match

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Alice9 Channel, August 2012

Так как я не получаю удовольствия от созерцания чужих мучений, выпуск был не особо мне интересен. Я вообще надеялась, что Шо сможет отыграться как в прошлом году, ну да ладно, Нао и так отгреб по полной и Сага, надо признать, был даже уместней. А любимый мужчина сегодня отдыхал. Но как обычно шикарен. Что ж, буду надеяться на следующий месяц и что там без Шо не обойдется.

@темы: Alice Nine

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I'm not particularly excited about Supernatural but this looks like really fun. I mean, finally EA! But it's a long time to wait.

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This thing with fandoms is a bit like juggling, adding another fandom every other year.

@темы: fandom, one-liner

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Need some fresh gorgeousness ~

@темы: Hyde

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Summer Playlist

I know it's pretty damn late for this but it was really hard to complete this. There are whole Summer bands and artists like AAF and Kenna so there are tons of summer songs. When I put all summer-y songs into playlist I ended up with 77 so I had to cut it down. Here's the final result:

1. Big Brother & Holding Company - Summertime (4:00)
2. Duran Duran - Save A Prayer (5:24)
3. Air - All I Need (4:28)
4. Kenna - freetime (3:24)
5. Towa Tei - Butterfly (4:04)
6. Towa Tei - Funkin' For Jamaica (4:53)
7. Towa Tei - Let Me Know (Mighty Bop remix) (5:53)
8. Natasha Bedingfield - Pocketful of Sunshine (3:24)
9. Sweet Thing - Change of Seasons (3:46)
10. Mansun - Butterfly (a new beginning) (5:52)
11. Mansun - Face In the Crowd (3:43)
12. Travis - Flowers In The Window (3:41)
13. Alien Ant Farm - Stranded (3:57)
14. Alien Ant Farm - Calico (4:10)
15. Alien Ant Farm - Tia Lupe (4:01)
16. Mor ve Otesi - Daha Mutlu Olamam (3:40)
17. Manic Street Preachers - So Why So Sad
18. Manic Street Preachers - Umbrella (Rihanna) (3:34)
19. 808 State - Lopez (4:18)
20. Placebo - I Know (4:44)
21. Placebo - Allergic (To Thoughts Of Mother Earth) (3:49)
22. Placebo - Every You Every Me (3:33)
23. Placebo - This Picture (3:34)
24. 九州男 - 想色コーディネート (5:06)
25. Hilcrhyme - パーソナルCOLOR (5:01)
26. Humming Urban Stereo - Hawaiian Couple (3:38)
27. L'Arc~en~Ciel - Wind of Gold (4:29)
28. L'Arc~en~Ciel - Kaze no Yukue (5:24)
29. L'Arc~en~Ciel - Natsu no Yuutsu (4:13)
30. L'Arc~en~Ciel - winter fall (4:54)
31. L'Arc~en~Ciel - Perfect Blue (3:50)
32. Gackt - Another World (Re-Arranged) (3:05)
33. Gackt - Oasis (4:43)
34. Gackt - Wa.su.re.na.i.ka.ra. (5:11)
35. Gackt - Missing (4:30)
36. Gackt - Memories (6:41)
37. Gackt - Kimi Ga Oikaketa Yume (4:23)
38. Gackt & HYDE - Orenji no Taiyou (9:10)
39. H.O.T - Your image in the sunset (3:45)
40. Kangta - 가면 (Persona) (3:46)
41. AnyBand - TPL (Talk, Play, Love) (4:16)
42. AnyBand - Promise U (3:50)
43. C.N.BLUE - Love Girl (3:32)
44. Rain - Taeyangeul Pihaneun Bangbeop (Running Away from the Sun) (3:50)
45. 宇多田ヒカル - Deep River (4:38)
46. 東方神起 - Summer Dream (4:59)

@темы: list

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So it was Hiroto. Well, it was a morphing dream like most but I remember him well. Only the other 4 weren't band members. I don't remember who they were but one of them was him. The guy I was madly in love with once. I didn't see his face, I just knew it was him. Me and Hiroto were supposed to go out and I was contemplating about how I like Hiroto and he's sweet but he's really not my type and maybe it's better to not let this relationship develop further because I'd just be fooling myself. Then again it was just an outing and in the end I think I met with all 5 although I can't rememberer much about that part. After that me and my sister and him ended up in some kind of cabin. I knew he had a fiancée and serious plans so I had really mixed feelings about it. I still liked him, felt strangely attracted to him so even then I had thoughts that maybe things could turn out differently this time. At one point we ended up together on the balcony and it was dark and sort of romantic as we were facing the starry sky, he was friendly but I felt had had no feelings for me. But even so I revelled in this long-forgotten feeling of longing towards a real tangible person and it still lingered when I woke up.

It's really interesting to analyse dreams. Almost for every scene I saw I can understand where it came from, what real life events it was based on and yet it's like a cinema where you don't know which film they're going to show.

@темы: Dreams

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@темы: i'm a geek

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I seem to be having a Celebrity Dream Contest. This time is was Hyde. It began with him being my present. No, nothing like that. I think it was my group that made a surprise present for my birthday with him appearing suddenly right there in the classroom. He jumped out with his guitar and started playing and at first I just saw the screen of the TV and I just thought they played my favourite music but then I saw it was him in person. This part was very brief though and he just sort of stormed by me very quickly. I think he gave me a brief hug or something and I marveled at how nice it felt with us being about the same height. Then this part was followed by a series of episodes where in the end I seemed no longer the main female lead. It was like watching different versions of one episode. The story has this romantic streak and at one point we were lying next to each other pretty intimately but overall though it was funny and playful.

These rendez-vouz are pretty damn fun. Who's next?

@темы: Dreams

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Went to hang out at a friend's apt and had to deal with her little son. I'm never having kids. Ever.

@темы: musings

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Я вернулась. Наконец! Что, никто не заметил? Вот черт.

Из-за прербоев энергии выбило комп, но, похоже, все в поряде и даже система цела. Спасибо добрым людям.

@темы: PC

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I had another one. One of those super-vivid dreams. It was a fan kind of dream. With Gackt. I'm pretty sure it was triggered by that Shou B-day fan account. At first there was this round of seats and he kept going round and greeting people and he even gave gifts. Not just gifts but his jewekry. But he stopped close to me and said I have a beautiful smile. I couldn't help thinking it was so corny and yet admiring it because I think he actually said it in Russian. After that there was something like a small concert but I can't really remember this part clearly. There was so much of it so a lot have been erased.

It was also a Matreshka type of dream. I had those before but it was a triple kind. I kept waking up within a dream and feeling sorry the dream slipped away and with it the souvenirs, the jewelry. I was almost expecting to wake up and see the objects passed with me into this reality. But I woke up in just another dream.

I think it was the most realistic dream I even had, I just couldn't believe how real it was. It's progressing, I'm sure of it. My material body is weak but my astral body keeps getting stronger. Sometimes I almost worry I'll get so caught up there I won't want to wake up.

@темы: Dreams, myself, musings

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Закрытая запись, не предназначенная для публичного просмотра

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Crossdressing never gets old.

NEVER.

Nice legs there, Goldilocks. And nice ass too.





You know, I'm kind of glad TVXQ haven't really done it properly once. But. I'd love to see Junsu in something like this. He'd rock the skirt alright.

@темы: K-pop