Chemicals Between Us

Нечто, что я давно собиралась сделать. Видео получилось коротким, но вполне содержательным.

PS: Happy Birthday!

@темы: address, fanvid

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My precious precious babies...

Thank you for the gift...

Everyone goes on about how cute he is but I don't think he looks that cute. And that much like himself. Also I'm most likely taking things too seriously but the look on Shou's face bothers me. His brother is that way too.

@темы: Shou, Tora, ToraxShou

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Tumbling

aka The Gayest Drama you'll ever hope to see. It can rival Queer as Folk. I mean I knew a drama about male rhythmic athletics is bound to be gay and I saw the poster, but really...

The hot pink uniforms, the wonderful bathroom bonding, the fact that every male character cries in the course of the show at least twice. And it's not shedding a manly tear crying, it's all snotty bawling kind of crying. Well, not to mention that one of the boys is officially gay. I really wasn't expecting it so I missed the obvious hints. I didn't like the guy at first but considering who he had a crush on I couldn't but sympathize.

The cast is just brilliant as well. You'll never see so many ikemen in one show. Like, seriously. The good guys, the bad guys - everyone is good-looking. I quite like Yamamoto Yusuke, he's a really good actor. Also he gets the best eyebrows award. And of course there's Daitou Shinsuke who is so hot and badass as always.

I'm not even sure who to slash here. Wataru/Kiyama? Wataru/Yuta, Kiyama/Mizusawa? OT9? Oh, it's just one gay team we have here! Pun intended.

But anyway, aside from all that I do think it's a good drama. It's really inspirational and touching, though way too sappy. And I don't think I even heard of male rhythmic gymnastics before, it does look pretty cool.

A bunch of screens... Boys, be fabulous! ♥

An Extra Poster!♥

@темы: dorama

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Finished the Second Season of That 70's Show. I'm not that into it but it has its moments. It's quite funny at times but I guess I just don't really like the main charactes, or most secondary ones for that matter. I do like Hyde and Jackie though (but they're not going out as of yet). Then again everyone likes Hyde. The voiceover is pretty good so we'll we awaiting Season 3. Not good enough to rewatch but pretty decent.

Also last year we tried watching the Cougar Town. I did it for my Mum mostly and we went as far as watching the whole 1st season but it was kinda lame. I picked it because of Bill Lawrence but honestly Scrubs is about 40867409 times better. It's basically about a bunch of Californians who never work and spend all their time drinking wine, shagging each other, and bitching about their hard lives. The three main heroines are: the bitch, the slut and the idiot. Even Christa Miller wasn't good enough to save it, but then she is basically Jordan in AU.

@темы: series

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First messy post of the year

Finally took good pictures of the mags, posted here:
swoon21.livejournal.com/30072.html

I also look forward to translating the articles, I read a bit of Wink Up and laughed like crazy. We might never seen things the same way again though. Oh well, truth is still truth. So anyway, I still have 8 days of holidays which I plan to use well. Things I plan to do:

- clean the hell up Drive G
- work on Part 4 (doubt I'll finish it but I'll try)
- translate the 3 articles (at least 1 or 2)
- Fix the Sims
- Post Vamps PVs
- deal with that Chinese twat

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The 2012 Totals

It's time to sum up...

Sites of the Year: tumblr, pixiv.
Obsession of the Year: Alice Nine
Movie of the Year: ?
Anime of the Year: Weiss Kreuz Gluhen, TIGER&BUNNY
Musical of the Year: Kuroshitsuji: The Most Beautiful Death in the World
Documentary of the Year: Happy
Variety of the Year: Alice9 Channel
Game of the Year: Sims 3
Book of the Year: The Power Of Now
Quote of the Year: "You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like. If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way." Julien Smith
Acquisition of the Year: digital camera
Person of the Year: Shou
Artist of the Year: Alice Nine
Album of the Year: L'Arc-en-Ciel - Butterfly
Rediscovered Artists: Maria Mena, Christophe Willem
Flashback of the Year: Weiss

MORE

Soundtrack of the Year: Alice Nine - Subete he, Alice Nine - Hello, World!, Weiss Kreuz - Love of my Life, Weiss Kreuz - Stone Roses, Weiss Kreuz - Tomorrow, 鳥子 - 星を渡る鳥, ViViD - Real, 빅뱅 (Big Bang) - MONSTER, Guano Apes - This Time, Kenna - Resurrection, XIA(준수 - UNCOMMITTED, ThE GazettE - Shiver, Sebastian and Ciel - Kanata he, Sebastian and Ciel - Black and White, 松下優也 - Hallucination, L'Arc~en~Ciel - Chase, L'Arc~en~Ciel - XXX, Maria Mena - Habits, Katherine Abbott - Sunflower Song, Aibouzu - Hoshi no Sumika.

New blogs: RenoxShin, Languid Translations, Graphic Abyss, Alice9 Non-Secrets, My Sims3
Acheivement of the Year: Writing fics, writing my first NC-17 XD, writing JLPT
Pairings of the Year: ToraxShou, RenoxShin, YoujixAya, KotetsuxBarnaby

Statistics

Anime:
Weiss Kreuz Gluhen
Kuroshitsuji II
TIGER&BUNNY

Dramas:
Nihonjin no Shiranai Nihongo
My Name is Kim SamSoon
Dr. Jin
Attention please!
Ma Boy

Some of the Best Movies:
Tempest
West is West
Jibeuro/The Way Home
She's The Man

Fanvideos finished: 4
Fanfics finished: 6

This year took about 38 pages.

I bet I forgot tons of stuff but whatever, who cares? Thus let's end it at that.

@музыка: Kim Jaejoong - It's only my world (Geugeotmani Nae Sesang)

@темы: Totals

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2012

It's been another tough year. I survived the Apocalypse, but just barely.

There wasn't that much to tell, really. Most of the things that happened in real life were pretty depressing. I had 2 teeth removed which was pretty damn awful, I lost a close family member, I underwent a treatment that brought nothing but stress, I had all sorts of illnesses, being let down and getting disappointed in people.

I did a few part-time jobs and I felt good about it but it was really tough. I lost quite a bit of weight which is good but if only I knew at what price it would come...

Also one thing that comes to mind is that it has been the loneliest year of my life. I felt incredibly alienated and I became even more of a hermit. Sure I learned a lot, matured some more but no matter how I look at it it's been a shitty year in my life.

But there were many good things, joyful things, exciting things and most of them were connected to Alice Nine. If I think of the good stuff that has happened to me this year the first thing that come to mind is getting a reply from Shou. Because it made me really excited that for the first time the person that means so much to me acknowledged my existence. They made me happy, even if briefly and it's something I treasure. I don't really care if it seems sad, I'm not wallowing in self pity at all, I'm just doing my best at this life.

Because one thing I realized this year is that happiness is not a prize to be gained but rather a skill to be learned and I'm trying to be a good student.

@темы: myself, musings

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In the Now

One teaching that I explored this year was the one proposed by Ekhart Tolle. I really think The Power Of Now is a very important book and I deeply sympathize with Ekhart as a spiritual teacher. I took my time trying to implement this vision in my everyday life and well... It's a lot harder than it may seem. I guess I was a little disappointed that it didn't quite make me full of joy or anything but it did make my life more bearable and it's definitely something I want to keep pursuing.

@темы: i'm a geek

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I tried my best.

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このヤツ。。。

It's like with romance. You get your heart broken so you avoid attachments, just want to have some fun, a fling, and then you realize you're head over heels in love again.

After TVXQ broke up my heart was also broken. So I said to myself: "This is not Ok. I shouldn't invest so much of my heart&mind into a band. From now on I won't attach myself to one band and won't feel guilty for cheating on people who don't even know I exist" And for awhile it worked. I watched Alice9Channels, had a good time, they were just one of the bands I kind of liked, not even among the best. And then somehow... they made their way into my heart. Their honesty, their dedication, their imperfection, their humanity. I couldn't get enough of them. In just a few months I watched every video, every TV and radio show, read every interview... I also created a community, began writing fics and making translations, even occasional drawings. 　

This year has been really hard for me, it was really tough to get thrpugh. But these men have been there to give me strength or just to make me laugh. Lately reading all of these tour reports I felt so touched and happy knowing that they are doing great. And then there are all these bits about my OTP... Knowing they are having the time of their lives soother my own pain. They worked really hard to get where they are and I hope this happiness lasts. Yet a part of me is already anxious, making me self-conscious, warning me that I might get hurt. But it's way too late for that now. I will just have to trust them and let it go.

Thank you, Alice Nine! For being there for me.
You better stick together for good and make some awesome music! Be happy, you heart-stealing handsome bastards!

@темы: Alice Nine

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All Set

Ok, less than 24 hours left. I've been good, cleaned up my room, helped decorating the house and make pancakes, I also took care of the presents. Nailed it! ))



Currently going through the diary so make the summary posts.

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“You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch. Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.
You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.

If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.

Set fire to your old self. It’s not needed here. It’s too busy shopping, gossiping about others, and watching days go by and asking why you haven’t gotten as far as you’d like. This old self will die and be forgotten by all but family, and replaced by someone who makes a difference.

Your new self is not like that. Your new self is the Great Chicago Fire—overwhelming, overpowering, and destroying everything that isn't necessary.”

— Julien Smith

@темы: quote/unquote

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When Did Girls Start Wearing Pink?

Little Franklin Delano Roosevelt sits primly on a stool, his white skirt spread smoothly over his lap, his hands clasping a hat trimmed with a marabou feather. Shoulder-length hair and patent leather party shoes complete the ensemble.

We find the look unsettling today, yet social convention of 1884, when FDR was photographed at age 2 1/2, dictated that boys wore dresses until age 6 or 7, also the time of their first haircut. Franklin’s outfit was considered gender-neutral.

But nowadays people just have to know the sex of a baby or young child at first glance, says Jo B. Paoletti, a historian at the University of Maryland and author of Pink and Blue: Telling the Girls From the Boys in America, to be published later this year. Thus we see, for example, a pink headband encircling the bald head of an infant girl.

Why have young children’s clothing styles changed so dramatically? How did we end up with two “teams”—boys in blue and girls in pink?


Read more: www.smithsonianmag.com/arts-culture/When-Did-Gi...
Follow us: @SmithsonianMag on Twitter

@темы: i'm a geek

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Girl Crushes

Obviously years of shipping and delving into LGBT culture made me more gay.

I've had quite a few girl crushes mostly within the last two years. Obviously I've never ever told anyone about it. Some of them were acquaintances but mostly just people I only met for a very short time. Thus it was the kind of attraction that doesn't develop over time, rather the one that hits you in the face. So just trying to remember them, take a good look and see what I get.

- My former dentist
- The woman from the seminar
- My friend's outgoing friend
- The reception girl
- The nurse that took care of my procedures this summer

There might have been more, I can't remember. Anyway, from looking at it it's really hard to see any common scheme at all. They were all different types, nothing in common apart from being young and more or less good looking. The only thing that comes to mind when I think about them is that they were all very nice, friendly and what Japanese would call 'akarui' - a bright, cheerful personality. Sure enough it made me wonder a lot, like if I were a man or at least a tall tough-looking woman, what would it be like asking them out? How would it go? Last time it happened I even considered buying her flowers, as a means of thank you. But I never went through with it, mostly because the procedures never made me feel any better.

But anyway, I think this is quite interesting. I mean I would have thought that looks and brains would be the top priorities but the heart knows what it really needs. Lately I do feel like rather that someone who's very deep and intelligent I'd prefer someone nice, genuine and open-minded. I wonder if that's the Socionics at work. Or if you put in in a selfish way I'm so full of my own shit I really don't want anyone else's. I'd want to spend time with someone who's not tainted, who doesn't have deep scars.

It also makes me think about the type that I would never go for. Tsumetai onna. For some reason I've been coming across those lately. Incidentally several teachers at UAJC belong to that type. Like they look good and they are smart and polite enough, but they just seem so restrained and distant and you never know what they're thinking. It's not like I hate that type, just that it really turns me off, I don't think I could fall for a woman like that.

But that goes for women, I'm still mostly clueless what kind of man I want. I mean I have all these prerequisites but I've never really felt instantly drawn to any man I've met. I mean I think Tora is fucking perfect but I don't want him. What is wrong with me?

@темы: essay

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Gackt, the asshole who's even good at drawing...

Для Алекс

@темы: Gackt

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Эй, вы все, кто читает все мои записи, но никогда не комментирует. Вы не ПЧ, вы, блин, сталкеры!

@темы: address

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I'm not sure if it's ok but I keep swooning at these. Bunny makes such a lovely mummy and Kotetsu is already the bestest daddy so he should have more kids so... Anyway, it's too darn cute.

@темы: TIGER&BUNNY

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Just a couple of days left until the end of the year. So much to do, so many things to finish... But lately I have lost all will to do anything. The end of the year also means looking back and as I do so I get really fucking depressed because no matter how I look at it 2012 seems like a really shitty year. But I'll have to go into into later anyway.

I am in no mood for holidays either. We still haven't decorated the apartment.

Also got a really good sum as otoshidama from grandmother only to realize I have no idea what to get myself. I guess I'll try to order the calendar, to make my year fabulous. Ehe.

@темы: musings

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Today my sister actually woke me up with the question "What was the name of that DBSK Christmas song?" and I was like o_O

@темы: family

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Hello, Baby!

Now you're all miiiiine _____

Ok, now I feel obliged to translate this one at least.

@темы: Shou, little treasures, Alice Nine