The fanservice drama.

It was amusing yesterday but now it begins t get frustrating. I guess there's no helping it, no matter what I say it won't go thorough. But I feel like writing it still.

Thuth be told, this is the biggest debate since I got into fandom which was over 1,5 years ago. Some people just need drama, crave it, if there isn't enough they create it. I mean there are so many other things to complain about, such as:

-Saga looking like a junkie lately
-Hiroto's and Tora's injuries
-The lack of new releses
-Just about anything

Seriously why now? They’ve been doing things like virtual blowjobs and kissing onstage for years.

But what kind of upsets me is people saying they are disappointed in Tora. The hell? What did he do to deserve it? How does leaning on his best friend make him a worse person? He changed, yes. But the first thing that comes to mind is: he looks happy. Honestly, lately he looks happier than ever, he seems to feel more relaxed and more free on stage. He dances! And it is awesome.

I don't really like when some bands do make-out sessions on stage and it looks fake and lame, but this is very different. If I though those cute little pecks they do are not manifestations of genuine affection, I wouldn't like them as much as I do. I'm glad that Tora became less shy and joined in. Yes, I am happy he does it with Shou but he could do it with Nao for all I care, I'd still be happy for him.

Poor PS becomes a scapegoat way too often.

@темы: musings, fandom, Alice Nine

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Speaking of Junsu...

The video is just ridiculous. It’s basically just Tarantellegra leftovers. But who cares when there’s some good old cross-dressing? Junsu took 9 years to finally prove he does make a cute girl. Slightly disappointed he didn't wear a skirt, but oh well. You can't have everything.

@темы: Junsu

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@темы: Birthday

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Fandom has been fun today. Oh, my... It's been a long time since I had the chance to use my evil humour.

Thank you, PSC

apathywithignorance:

For turning your musicians into prostitutes. Nice strategy. Really.

For fuck’s sake, just let them make music and leave them alone!

PSC: Your sales have been on the low this year. As the leader, you must take responsibility. You need to please the masses. Therefore, we decided that today you grab Tora’s ass.

Shou: What? No, please. Don’t make me do it. I can’t. Not the ass.

PSC: Oh, yes you can and you will! *evil laugh*

Shou: *leaves* Forgive me, Tora…

PSC: Next time I suggest we bring poles…

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• Shou should wear garter so we just put the money there instead of spending it on CDs and stuff

@темы: fandom, Alice Nine

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Ok, now that I've fulfilled my duty to TSR I just need to finish testing the stability of the game before finally diving into Sesons properly.

I did a few small translations but I want to go back to Shou's blog that I abandoned after that one confusing post. I should do that before I get the new magazines)

Also I can finally get to the fics. I didn't touch Part 4 for a few months but now I finally feel like I can go on with it. It's currenty still under 1400 and some key parts are missing but I've figured out the main direction of where I want it to go and little by little it's beginning to come about. It's like this giant puzzle, sometimes it's literally sentence by sentence but it makes me excited. I wonder if most good writers just sit and write... but whatever I am me and I do what works for me.

Also because of Winter it's going to end up x2 fluffier than any other part. And honestly I don't like it when people say I write fluff.

Hopefully I'll be able to recreate at least some parts of all the things I came up with last night. Yosh!

@темы: fanfix

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Songs Of Death

I guess I came to think about death a little more lately. Today I also had this dream where I talked to my deceased grandfather who I never really talked to since he gone inadequate and died when I was still little. I really miss my other grandfather, I get really sad just thinking about him. And then my grandmother left as well this year. She was often difficult to deal with but it didn't make it any less sad. All in all, I've already been to three funerals but not once have I been to a wedding or welcomed a newborn.

Also whenever I hear Fantasy I keep thinking it's such an amzing song. It's sad but somehow it's also bright and beautiful and full of life. I think it's the most beautiful song about death I ever heard. Anyway, it made me think of other good songs about death. Here's 7 of them. They're all based on real experince, losing a father, mother, brother, friend, lover. All very very beautiful.

Alice Nine - Fantasy

Manic Street Preachers - Ocean Spray

George Michael - Jesus To A Child

X-Japan - Tears

Anouk - One World

Indochine - Electrastar

Hyde - Evergreen

@музыка: George Michael - Jesus To A Child

@темы: family, musings, list

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I can't believe my sister is 30. Then again she keps falling for guys who I would consider too young to date.

@темы: family

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Damn, I didn't even realize it's 12/12/12! Cool desho?

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New Blog Coming

So no, two blogs on tumbler weren't enough. Been thinking about it for awhile, actually. I love my sims.


Link:
www.tumblr.com/blog/ayasims3

@темы: Sims 3

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I'm contemplating whether it's a good thing that the fandom is growing. I always preferred quality over quantity but that's hardly the case. I mean, it it good that more people keep a close eye on what's going on because try as I may I can't do it all. But the number of awful fics emerging lately is disconcerting.
My boys deserve better than this!

@темы: fandom

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This is ridiculous, really. I want my OTP to be true but once I am faced with that possibility I freak out. I dunno why, it's like I'm afraid I'll get hopes too high.

@темы: musings, ToraxShou

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Shou is always relevant

Sleepy smiley adorable. Fixed.

запись создана: 28.11.2012 в 04:24

@темы: Shou, my!gif

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虎のこと

I should have been worried about Tora-shi and yet I am perfectly calm. I dunno why, I just feel he's gonna be fine. I wasn't surprised in the least by his decision to continue the tour, he performed in a far worse condition than this. And I trust Shou to take care of him. I'm sure he'll get hell if he tries anything stupid) Also since it's already happened, I can only enjoy all the extra attention he gets. I already heard Shou was the first to rush to his side after the encore. ^^

I guess the fact that I had a pretty hard time today also contributes to my attitude. Nobody even knows the shit I've been through and he has 4 awesome guys who are there for him.

Also here's one of my gifs that never saw the light of day, well the full version of it anyway. It was when they said he's impossible to move once he falls asleep and he was, like, "yup, that's how I am." Smug Tora-shi)

@темы: Tora, Alice Nine

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All the stuff I want to do...

Fics
Fanvideo
Sims items/photosets
Translations
Drawings

もちろん、that also includes the presents. I need to work out a strategy and set up the priorities.

@темы: post-it note

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Self-reflection bullshit

Cleaning the shelves turned into a bitter self-reflection. Lately I try to avoid writing about myself and me shit or at least not publish them. Some of my drafts live in the draft section and die naturally after two months. That's what happened with my long bitter post about friendships. I don't feel sorry for them any more. But today I shall get this out out.
It's just that lately more and more I feel the need to get rid of things. I suppose it goes against my accumulating nature. that goes both for virtual stuff and the real objects. It's all just luggage anyway. Sentimental load I carry around and it makes my room feel stuffy. Also all the songs and movies and stuff forever associated with certain time and people I'd rather not think about.
There are tons of presents from people gone from my life years ago as well as my own accumulated bullshit like diaries and notebooks. I guess for the first time I felt like getting rid of everything, maybe even burn that shit, it does nothing but get me depressed. Within the last 3 years I already burned a lot of bridges but it feels like not enough. I seriously wish I could make a garage sale and be done with it.
In the end though I know that's not really the answer. That's all just running from myself. The past is inside, not outside. And as long as I fight it, it will fight back. So far accepting is hard but I will just have to keep trying.
Yet, my attitude to things have underwent serious changes, something inside me shifted for good and everything seems simpler somehow. I look at things differently that before and I know I'm on my way so I'll figure all this shit out. Maybe not as soon as I would like to, but I will.

@темы: myself, musings

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So I have the flat all to myself for the week. I am going to enjoy it thoroughly. So many things to do, so many projects I want to work on, I'll need to sort things out. Today haven't been as productive as it could have been but hey I already danced three dances and that says a lot.

@темы: myself

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Still fiddling with Sims. I did set up Sesons though and trying to add in game mods that keep fucking up the game. But that's not the point. Seasons turns out to be way more fun that just the seasons. I thoroughly enjoy the whole romantic development system.

So there was this really hot guy (made by me obviously) that my boy got instantly infatuated with. But no matter how much he tried they could not get along so he sort of gave up. He had a few dates and ended up sleeping with his hot best friend (made by me obviously). So he spent the night at his place and just when they got all romantic and lovey-dovey this asshole calls. To call him on a date. At 4 AM. On the beach. In pouring rain. Romantic bastard or what.

@темы: Sims 3

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Why do you still come here? After all this time... You said I was a terrible person and I disappeared from your life. I left it all behind. So why do you come over?

@темы: address

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A great day for all of us, ToraxShou fans...

A young tiger marking his territory...



I wanted to write a long post about Singapore but I don't feel like it and it will take days. I might do it later or might not.

@темы: ToraxShou

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Hopefully I'll get to make some more of these...

PS: My Alice Nine tag finally outnumbered my TVXQ tag! Horray for the new era!

@темы: Alice Nine