Wrote this two days ago, but wasn't in a state to complete it. Feels like it's already outdated, but anyway...


I don’t feel like I belong to the Russian-speaking community. I never really had the need to go there and hearing echoes of what goes on there I know I haven’t missed a thing. I wonder if this has anything to do with national character, since it’s not only TVXQ community that suffers from this. Even those 3 people who belong to this fandom in my friend list often post things that make me really upset.

Anyway, I often feel out of place with my opinions. Looks like I’m the only one who thinks Changmin looks bad, not to mention Yunho. Maybe SM is keeping them in the basement and tortures them? It’s the only way I could fully justify their actions.

I think people are just being hypocritical. At the end of the day, you don’t know all the truth and never will. It’s all about who you favour. Yes, I’m going to support ChunJaeSu no matter what.

I must be the only one who isn’t happy to see them together. Miyaneya was so awkward and stiff and their “Tohoshinki desu” never sounded so broken. Why are they standing in inverse order? Jae just kept looking at the floor and looked so forlorn. And I couldn’t help but notice the gap. I can’t even begin to imagine how bad it’s going to get with the upcoming fan meeting.



Things don’t look good, but at this time I really look up to the international community. It’s amazing how people manage to keep hoping for the better and put so much trust in them. It’s good to know they have fans like this.

One thing that I’m glad about in a selfish way is that I turned to Yoosu before all hell broke loose. And then there’s Chunjae. Pictures like these give me hope. Now each smile is precious: