(partly copied from my actual diary)
I'm back.
It's so good to be home. 4 days at the seaside... any other would be happy about it. But not me.
I mean, it was alright. My choice, after all. An opportunity came and I took it. No regrets, no excuses. It wasn't a regular holiday, but rather a trial I set for myself. I felt like I needed a distraction, a change of perspective, or maybe it was an imposed belief. Anyway, if you look at it that way I failed. Maybe I'm too pampered and lazy and unable to appreciate things, but...
"So what's this all about?" i tried to figure out as I lay deadly tired and sunburnt and sporting a massive headache probably due to prolonged exposure to the sun (no use that I used tons of cream and never left the shade of my umbrella). I just can't help but wonder at how much time, money and nerves people are willing to waste for an opportunity to laze around under a burning sun for a couple of days. The only thing that makes it all worthwhile is the primal elemental grandeur of the sea. But i didn't get to enjoy it much due to the aforementioned skin damage. Besides, almost two days spent in a stinky suffocating train can efficently dim the few pleasurable experiences I've had. Not to mention the total absence of runing water most of the time, the view of numerous unaesthetic looking bodies, the highly annoying insects and many other aspects. Overall I find it quite a dubious pleasure.
Then again, I think if I went with someone else, it might have been a lot better that this.
The only major purpose this trip served is making me feel terribly homesick (that includes supreme appreciation of modern conveniences). I miss everyone, it seems like it's been not 5 days, but at least a dozen. I discovered a newfound eagerness, for communication, for creation and just the usual home routine. Not to mention my beloved PC. Now I shall take a nice long bath, have a cup of coffe, read a couple of fanfics and proceed to enjoy my mundane and unhealthy home vacation.
Yes, I'm totally weird and boring like that. ))