It's been 7 years since I fled the Alice Nine fandom, soon to join the NEWS one. I remember it well, it was September. I had a nasty flashback the other day as the angry mobs of Tegoshi worshipers wanted to burn me at the stake. And the most disappointing thing about it was not the way people treat me after everything I've done for the fandom, not even the nasty hateful comments themselves. In a way, I'm surprised they only came now because there were none after the essays I posted. The thing that really upset me was that even though I knew it didn't matter, it still got to me. Even after all these years, I reacted to it the same way as I did 7 years ago. It felt like an almost physical hit. And no matter how much I try, in the end I am a human and I can't just brush it off. God, people suck.