I'm so jealous of people who have a good relationship with their siblings. I never had that. When I was little I was bullied, when I got a bit older I was ignored and then as I entered my teens she suddenly decided I need her guidance and that I'm doing it all wrong. She always made me feel like there's something wrong with me and words cut like a knife.
You know like you sometimes get bullied at school? It hurts and it gets to you and it eats at your confidence no matter how strong you are. But one day you graduate and it stops. But imagine the bully is your sibling. They pick on you on a regular basis and when you're down on your knees and your life falls apart they come to you just to say "It's all in your head. You're so full of yourself. It's your fault and mother's for spoiling you." You tell yourself they don't mean it but it doesn't work. And you're not only supposed to tolerate them, you're supposed to love them.