I wonder if it's weird but lately I don't feel like a woman. What I mean is I feel like a me, a spirit trapped in a small female body. I guess it's partly due to how often I think "If I were a man I'd..." but I'd like to think it's a part of my spiritual development.

But then the dream I had today... fuck. It was like an episode of Girls Next Door but at some point I was Hugh Hefner. And I had like 6 beautiful girlfriends and I remember watching them sleep in bundles and then I... ok, the rest is strictly off the record but it was extremely sexy. I don't know what is going on in my head any more.