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I was mildly excited about Kaguya but I only realized recently that the PV was directed by Ninagawa Mika who also directed Sakuran. What's more the very kimonos the boys wore were from the Sakuran collection. And you know, the film was about Oiran which is basically high-ranking prostitutes. Yup. Keeps getting better.

Source: miyukitanigawa.com/sakuran.html

So after I discovered this the gears in my head started spinning and the next day I armed myself with Photoshop and proceeded to create 2 manips. It started as half-parody ended up as beautiful art if I may say so myself.

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I'm especially delighted at the last one. It's just so pretty, prettier than it originally was. I might be a little in love with it. This is the reason I need Tegoshi, he's my muse. My slutty muse. I kinda want to do one with Shige too but I can't find the right picture.

@темы: Art, Tegoshi Yuya

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:heart::heart::heart:


@темы: Birthday, Junsu

01:29

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Just some really good feminist articles.

Men really need to stop calling women crazy
www.washingtonpost.com/posteverything/wp/2014/0...

She Has No Head! – No, It’s Not Equal
goodcomics.comicbookresources.com/2012/02/21/sh...

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Artemisia_Gentileschi

@темы: issues

01:28

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It's been an odd day. I made an effort and got up earlier than normal, which is about 1 pm. I had full determination to get that haircut so I did. It was a cheaper option and got a cheaper result, I got a simple bob but it's neat and I'm ok with it.

Then I came back and watched another episode of Civilization.The West and the Rest. It's pretty informative but also pretty random and doesn't really follow the ideas stated clearly. But I still decided to finish it. The Medicine part was mostly about the colonization of Africa and the genocide and it was so horrid to take it it made me feel a little sick. However, I coped better than I would have expected. I guess I got just a little bit thicker.

Then I tried to distract myself with pretty pictures and games and today X-23 came out, much earlier than I expected. But I haven't played with her much, instead I spent the most time at the forum than I ever did before. It was a thread about the sexiest heroines and not unexpectedly a couple of feminist ladies barged in to voice their protest. I don't really find the concept of this thread offensive and I don't think it's bad to appreciate female beauty and sexuality but I have to say some of the images look amazingly oversexualized, like they come from some erotic comic books. I like looking at sexy women but some images are kind of obscene and ridiculous. Interestingly, some guys argue that topless Gambit is the same thing but while I kind of think he looks hot I honestly find him to be distracting in game. I don't know how the guys don't get distracted to all the half-naked heroines. I guess they're just used to it. Anyway, some ladies and guys made really good points but the thing is I think pointing out sexism like this can do more harm than good. I still spent the rest of the evening following the discussion though.

Now it's 12.26 am and I still got a few hours to go. I don't feel like playing anymore. Perhaps I'll try to go and work on my story some more. It's already over 10.000 words and I'm so excited about it.

This was me just randomly needing to talk about my day.

@темы: issues

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@музыка: Kaguya~

@темы: NEWS., my!gif

16:43

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There was a time I actually picked bands based on music... But my last 3 fandoms it's mostly "New song? Well, 'let's hope it doesn't suck too bad and I can convince myself I actually kind of like it."

In other musings, lately I keep questioning if my feminism is too strong, am I overreacting when I get pissed off at NEWS for saying things? But then I think back to my 4 years as a TVXQ fan and I don't think I ever had this problem with them. Well, maybe Changmin a few times but I never liked him enough to care much.

@темы: issues, fandom

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My 5th official win, 4th letter this year. They were all very special but I was especially anxious about this one. It came unexpectedly yesterday along with a hand-written card from Shy. Thank God for small pleasures.

@музыка: X-Japan - Goodbye Piano

@темы: little treasures

16:02

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I felt like listening to HOT these days and the weird thing is I listen to them and think "damn, but they're pretty good" even though some 5 years ago some songs seemed barely listenable at best. It seems I keep lowering my standards in music. Well, if I'm on Johnnys now...

@музыка: H.O.T. - 2beonjjae Saengil (Lost my 12th Birthday)

@темы: musings, H.O.T

21:52

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You are idiots. But you're my idiots.

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@темы: NEWS., my!gif

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I've been playing quite a lot recently. I have to say it really makes a big difference when you have regular updates. While the events are kind of lame and I don't really want 90% of the rewards offered it is cool to have a new hero released every month or so. Anyway, the recent developments:

Sort finally reached lvl 60! However, it turns out the terminals for lvl 60 are badass as hell. Well, I guess it makes sense since it's the level cap.

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@темы: Games

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Another masterpiece complete! I am very proud to present: Who’s That Girl? featuring the one and only Tegoshi Yuya + appearances by Koyama Keiichiro, Kato Shigeaki, Masuda Takahisa and Yamashita Tomohisa.



It's a video I've been meaning to make for awhile now. In a way Tegoshi's crossdressing was what brought me to NEWS in the first place. And it's really something out of this world. There are many celebs who are good at it but I'll still give him the 1st prize any day. I only used the footage with 11 outfits that were captured on video. There were 12 originally but in the end I decided to let go of the hostess dress since I didn't find good enough footage. I also had a couple of songs in mind and I was going to use "She's a Lady" but then for some reason I remembered this song and everything fell into place perfectly.

As for rendering for the first time I used Sony Vegas 12. It seems a little more convenient to use but certainly not enough to take 50% more space. At least I more or less figured out how to render the files properly.

@темы: fanvid, Tegoshi Yuya

22:03

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Best Artist was mildly disappointing but at least I got some fresh sass.

@темы: my!gif, Shige is my spirit animal

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19:37

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OH MY FUCKING GOD I THINK I’M GONNA CRY *SOBS WITH JOY* YES! YES I WILL GO TO THE SHINING FUTURE WITH YOU! FOLLOW THE BUTTS!


#This was unfair. Just as I was about to say goodbye you're like "HAHA, NO! You're stuck with us!" I am. :weep:

@темы: Alice Nine

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@темы: Shou, my!gif

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14:55

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I've had another ones of those conscious ones. Except this time I went much further. I remember the dream being something unpleasant and I felt the power to change the whole scenario altogether. Of course it wasn't that easy. I remember setting a sunny weather and some nice scenery but I wasn't able to stabilize it and it kept slowly changing back to something bleak. But the main problem was that I suddenly realized I don't have a solid plan, I don't know what kind of dream I want exactly. So in the end I lost control pretty soon but it was still a major step forward. Next time I should plan ahead.

@темы: Dreams

03:53

A9: Facts

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{I should pin this somehow, gets annoying to up it every time}

This is my clinical approach. I've seen those 'facts' about the members that are posted everywhere, but some of them look dubious and some I found to be completely false so I decided to make my own list but only with the stuff I actually found in the interviews and shows. This info is reliable and I distilled it form all the interviews I read and stuff. This is just stuff I wrote down for myself, I didn't write down the most obvious things I am sure to remember, I wrote down the less known and interesting ones. These are all pretty much taken from their own words. Bias clearly shows but I did pretty much read every interview I came across and I tried to write down interesting fact about everyone. The headers are taken from two questionnaires. Also to be noted that some facts don't add up from one interview to another and people's tastes and views also change so these can never be 100% accurate but it's the best you can get.

Tora

Birth date : Sep. 17th
Blood type: O
Height : 182cm
Foot size : 28 cm
Favorite colour: Black
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@темы: Alice Nine

21:50

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Dear Tegoshi, there are times when I admire you and there are times when I want to hit you in the face. But in the end you intrigue me, and entertain me and inspire me so I guess I'll stick with you for a bit longer. Happy Birthday, you little shit!

@темы: Birthday, Tegoshi Yuya

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The radios are a main source of information lately since the mags come out with a big delay but they give me such mixed feelings. I mean sometimes they're really amusing and sometimes Tegoshi tends to turn into a real douchebag and says things that make me want to punch him in the face. Surely the radio makes it easy for him to get carried away but that's no excuse. I remember him once saying he doesn't like girls who wear skulls and stuff but then a girl wrote to him via a magazine saying she likes skull print and if it's that bad and he was like "Well, if you really like it... and it suits you than that's ok." I don't think he could be so mean to anyone in person but on the radio he turns into a douchebag. I already wrote about this more than once but the oppression Japanese women must feel is no joke. And an idol saying shitty things surely does not help.

Not everyone is like this, of course. The j-rockers tend to be more open-minded (the things Shou, Tora and Saga say warms my heart). But rock musicians are a bit of outsiders to begin with while idols are very much a part of the system. And yes, they are completely oriented towards Japanese women. Like when they talk about girls they don't even consider other races. This makes me so confused. I mean Gackt and Tegoshi are two of the most admirable artists I know and yet their attitudes towards women make me cringe.

@темы: issues, Tegoshi Yuya