It appears that there is some higher power that decided to make this day a little less hard on me.

I still can't believe Shou made him do it.

@темы: ToraxShou

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It's the day starting with a mix of dread and pointless anticipation.

@темы: snapshot

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A9 Channel 2013.05.17

Yesterday's show gave me some really conflicting feelings.

First of all: nico nico staff are real monsters. How could they hurt such a sweet kid? It’s like kicking a puppy! Once I get to Japan I'm gonna buy a huge fish, a huge daikon, hunt them down and make them regret it.

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Secondly: Tora, Shou, I’m sorry to say this but you are bad parents. How could you let your cute little son get hurt?



Apart from that… I get off of Tora and Shou just sitting close by.



And Shou, you… Stop it with the porn. I can’t… Too fabulous, baby. Too fabulous~

@темы: A9 Channel

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To Repel Ghosts

What is this fuckery? Is this a "let's visit this person I supposedly hate's diary" week? I don't want any ghosts here. I was hoping they'd stay away on their own but... Maybe that's the cue? Maybe it's time to close this place away. To seal it. It's not like anyone new ever comes along. Just some simpletons and ghosts. Maybe I'll do just that.

@темы: diary

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Part 5 is coming along well. Slow but well. Probably about 80% complete. Basically just one difficult dialogue to write and then some editing and polishing here and there. Hopefully it'll be done within a month or so but you never know. It's still PG-13 and I feel old)

@темы: fanfix

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Oh, damn... There I go again. This month may yet turn out to be productive.

@темы: JYJ

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Sometimes all you need is just this, just one "go for it!" to set you in motion, to break out.

@темы: myself, musings, one-liner

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Oh, I heard there's a homecoming this Saturday. Ok. The only reason I might go back to school is to burn it down. My broken teenagehood... I can't believe it's been 10 fucking years. The wounds are good as new. Still have shitty dreams about school every now and then.

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So apparently my 'don't feel like doing anything' phase has ended replaced by 'need to do everything at once'. Yesterday I had some stuff done - finished the fic and sorted some folders. Today I got into JYJ videos. I'm cutting Mahalo - such a brilliant video for cutting, pure gold! And while at it I'm also sorting my old footage, back from 2007 figuring out what to work on. I wanted to make about 10 more videos, but now I guess... 5 maybe? I have to do at least one for Chunjae, Jaesu and an OT3 is a must! Also that Su vid and maybe another Yoosu but that can wait.

@темы: myself, snapshot

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Closing In

I doubt anyone here cares but I was really happy about this fic. I began writing it some 2 or 3 years ago and it's quite different from the stuff I usually write but I'm quite proud of it. Yesterday after having a weird and vivid dream involving the three I finally put the finishing touches and posted it.
Before I could never really grasp the concept of OT3, but then JYJ happened.

Title: Closing In
Pairings: Yoochun/Junsu, Jaejoong/?
Rating: R
Genre: Romance, Angst

swoon21.livejournal.com/31702.html#cutid1

@темы: fanfix, Yoosu

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Notice

dwangya Alice Nine и DEATHGAZE
14 Мая в 15:00
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Alice9 Channel
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Super Alice9 Channel
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J-Melo Rocks
26 Мая
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@темы: post-it note

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@темы: anime

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Sometimes I seriously contemplate getting VK account but I really don't think getting into arguments alone is a good enough reason.

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No shit, EA

@темы: Sims 3

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ShinSekai Yori

Where the fuck do I even begin?

I bet most people were tricked into thinking this is a cute anime about 12-year olds. As if. A utopia that turns out to be a dystopia compared to which 1984 and Brave New World are children's tales. Creepiness overload. Like, really? It's kind of ok once you get past 12. Maybe 19 too. Talk about horror... Also fangirls hoping to see lots of shounen-ai/yuri were pretty let down as well. General moral of the story: humans are wicked and cruel beasts even with genetic intervention, careful conditioning and education. History shall repeat itself. Nothing new here.

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Talking about plot I guess it was a pretty interesting exploration of human's nature. And a very disturbing one. But as with most Japanese sci-fi plots to complicated so you feel really dumb until the end. I really don't feel like going further into it. I honestly wish there was more focus on the character development and the relationship between characters which was very lacking. See Saki/Shun.

Let's move on to characters. Overall I can't say I like Saki that much. I'm not sure why. Maybe it was her selfishness and the way she took Satoru for granted. It pissed me off how she kept saying she can't lose him because he's the only one left and she can't afford it. It was so selfish. She also took Maria for granted and I really don't get how come she had sex with both Maria and Satoru but didn't have balls to hook up with Shun, the one she really wanted. Also I can understand her desire to seek out the truth very well. But in her quest she kept overlooking some important things such as other people. In that respect I guess I like Maria more. I was frankly pissed off by Saki's final attempt to justify Squera. The fuck, sister? He killed your closest friend and made her child into a monster.

While I do think that the studio gave Maria too much screen time, even with the closing sequence and stuff, I quite liked her. I think the things she said were very reasonable and the way she chose to stay with Mamoru was very brave and selfless. Yet I kept expecting something wicked from her, since it was said because of her many shall perish. I could hardly believe she and Mamoru died though, it just didn't seem to make sense.

Favourite character: Satoru. For some reason I expected myself to like Shun. I dunno why. Guess because Satoru is introduced as a naughty kid and Shun is the quiet smart one. But basically Satoru had me at episode 5 where he acted like a real man protecting Saki. He's really smart and brave and caring and grows to be really hot too.

Obviously I was pleased by the episode 8, it was a welcome development but in the end this romance went sour by the end of the episode so it only made me sad. Sure I still shipped Saki and Satoru, it seemed more than natural. I can't believe they had sex at fucking 12 and then remained just friends until the last 2 minutes of the show which is 20+ years. Like, what the fuck? In the end no matter how I look at for Saki Satoru still appears to be only second best to Shun.

All in all way too many things about the show left unanswered. Even though there is a happy end by all means after all the nightmarish stuff that happened it almost look unrealistically sweet. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if the Earth just exploded by the end of it. Not that I complain.

The tropes page is also good:
tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/YMMV/FromTheNewW...

Of course some selected screens:




Note to self: I think in the future it is better to be very fucking cautious about the anime I choose to watch. Thanks a lot, Shou, for messing me up.

Hell, looks like I will need a rehabilitation period. Today I watched a documentary about puppies and listened to KAT-TUN.

@темы: anime

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Just finished watching ShinSekai Yori. I have a lot to say so... big post coming up.

@темы: anime

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South Korea has Asia's fourth-largest economy. It's a booming country. North Korea, however, is a different story, with 6 million people threatened with hunger, according to a recent United Nations report. It's hard to imagine that the North Koreans would remain in the North. If there is a lesson to be learned from German reunification, then it's presumably that the easterners head west: rapidly, in large numbers and inexorably.

Do the North Koreans even want reunification? "We have no information about this," says Kim. "We don't know. We only have the defectors who tell us that the conditions in the country are very poor."

Roughly 3,000 North Koreans flee every year -- mostly via China, then through Vietnam or Thailand to South Korea, where the Ministry of Unification looks after them. First, the refugees are interrogated by the intelligence agency to ensure that they are not spies. Afterwards they are sent to Hanawon -- a resettlement camp outside of Seoul.

During a three-month training program, they are given an introduction to South Korean society. No one is allowed to leave the camp and the refugees are closely guarded. They relearn the country's history, for instance that the North started the Korean War. They learn how to use an ATM. They learn how to drive a car. They even learn how to speak: South Korean.

You can immediately recognize a North Korean by the way he speaks, says Sang Don Park, a ministry official responsible for matters relating to refugees. He says that North Koreans don't use any Anglicisms, but they do use communist political jargon that no one in the South is familiar with. These are presumably terms like ones that were common in East Germany that only raised quizzical looks among Germans in the West after reunification. A North Korean often understands only 60 percent of South Korean, says Sang. What's more, he adds, there is a different intonation and various dialects. Not to mention health problems: North Koreans have poor teeth due to malnourishment. Many suffer from depression and other psychological problems when they arrive in the South. North Korean refugees receive financial aid for five years after they leave the camp. There are programs that help them find work and housing -- and acquire an education.

www.spiegel.de/international/world/seoul-search...

@темы: i'm a geek

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Been sorting my wardrobe. My life is a lie. I have 8 dresses and but I wear them, like, never. Well, I might wear one once every.. few years. I remember wearing this long red dress to graduation and feeling stupidly overdressed because most people came in jeans'n't-shirts. Skirts department is almost the same. I found 6 skirts which in reality I wear maybe 2 times a year. Every year my Mum would ask me whether I'm going to wear them and I feel like crying. Because I wish I felt like it and I wish I had somewhere to wear them to.

I also have 9 jeans all of which are too big for me. Need serious revision in this department. I lost about 7 kilos within the last few years but last year is still wasn't this bad.

Well, that's an unusually normal post from me.

@темы: musings

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Some Interviews - fresh and not

Hiroto: To be honest I have extreme anxiety syndrome. Every year it was getting worse and every time before a concert it would be a storm of affirmations. [Vif Music -Special Feature- (GEMINI) 2011.01.20]

Not that was something I didn't expect to read at all. I mean Hiroto of all people... He always seems so bright and confident. I guess there's always more to it than meets the eye. But in a way I was glad to learn about it. If even people like him aren't immune to that shit what am I to feel bad about it?

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— In the morning when you wake up, you find that you suddenly have turned into Shou-san. What will you do?

Saga: Without any hesitation, I’m going to pick up girls. [BARKS' Interview - Alice Nine [Daybreak] (March 26th 2013)]

WHY? Why do all the good-looking people want to look like other good-looking people? I know they were half-joking but this always happens. Even the most beautiful of people seem to feel lacking, unsatisfied. Even they often want to look like someone else.



READ (Something you've read recently)

Hiroto: I've been reading "What Is Consciousness?" by Mogi Kenichirou, the guy who's making researches on the human brain. It's interesting, so I want to buy and read more of this person's books.

Shou: He has a TV show on NHK.

Hiroto: It looks fastidious, but in genereal, it's intesting. Reading is great!

Saga: Lately I casually started reading a book that my mother has been reading. It's called "The Moment We Die". My mother is working as a nurse, so she often reads deep books about life and death. It was quite interesting.

Shou: I read "Deep Impact : The Impact's Trajectory", an historical book. It goes up to our grand-parent's era.

Tora: I haven't read a single novel since I was born. Actually, I don't read books. Maybe some shounen magazines. I dislike manga with too much text, so I would never read one like "Detective Conan". ...... well, does that make me kinda stupid? (laugh) [ARENA37C JULY 2007, "W-H-I-T-E-P-R-A-Y-E-R" KEYWORD INTERVIEW]

It doesn't somehow. Tora is the type of guy who is smart without being intellectual. He's wise and in life it's a lot more important. I used to really care about intellectual level and that kind of stuff but now I realized it's not as important as other things. With Tora it's not just about books though, also his taste in music and clothes. He challenged my perceptions in many ways. But the rest of them are such damn smartasses, can you not?



At first, I was introduced to Nao-san, and we were supposed to do the band together. But one day in the middle of the night, I got an unexpected phone call from him. He said “To be honest, there’s another band I would like to join more than this one”. I said “What!? Who are you doing it with?”, he told me that the bassist was Saga-kun. I wanted to be in a band with Tora so I thought “our band’s going to happen like this!”, and throughout the whole night, from 1am until 4:30am, I tried to persuade him. “You should join us”. [NEO GENESIS VOL.10 ]

So now that I look at it it seems clear that in the end the person who played the key role in creating the band is none other than Shou. Sure it was a process that everyone was a part of but it was him that reached out and brought the members together. The name is his as well.


Shou: No no, it’s my pleasure for the songs to get recognized as a metal song. What I meant is that I’m done hearing critics say Alice Nine can’t play Metal-Rock but they are trying to make it look like they can. I didn’t write this song for the sake of metal rock, but the melody came first and we needed the metal sound to fully bring the song to life. We're riding on a metal sound. [2013.04 Barks Shadowplay Interview]

That sad moment when you wish you could support the man you adore but have to agree with the critics instead.

Hmm... Just realized as a n afterthought that I took 5 quotes each focusing on one of the band member's words, excluding Nao. I just can't figure him out. I can't write him either. Like, at all. Nao is my challenge, I guess.

@темы: inter:views, Alice Nine