UAJC The 4th year

And thus the 4th year of studies ended. I think it was the most unfruitful year so far. It's weird since we really had good teachers. Abe is really nice as a person but I get a feeling she has little idea about our level and her classes are so pointless. Plus I really hated the second book we used, so fucking unbalanced. This year for the first time I began wondering whether maybe I should really quit since most of the progress I've made was due to watching shows and translating tweets.

The ceremony itself was a little different. There were no speeches apart from the teachers. Also the performances become longer and increasingly pointless each year. And it was damn crowded in there. Every year the number of students increases. I think we had 160 this year and we finally got 3 more rooms for studies. Currently we have 13 people in our group but I bet by next year it's gonna get even smaller.

Also after the ceremony I decided to go to our hanashikai and see whether I was missing out. Well, I was not. There were 3 teachers and about 10 other students. I decided to wait until my turn to answer comes and endured it until about 7 but honestly it was boring as fuck. I hate to be a mega-bitch but that's just how I feel.

Yet unsure about the JLPT but I have the whole summer to decide so.

@темы: 勉強

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Reneeta is


I appreciate her trying to clearly make Junsu ukeish but some of her recent works look outright paedophilic. Junsu is almost the same height and build as Yoochun.
But DAT ASS~

@темы: Yoosu

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You need to draw the inspiration from somewhere...



Made this 6.5 years ago...

@темы: Weiß, match

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Есть много причин, почуму я недолюбливаю наши фандомы и наши сайты и все же есть и причины их любить. Нашт люди умеют делать прекрасную стебную аналитику. В этом уже не раз убеждаюсь. Особенно после того сайта Penicillin.

Вот начала читать секцию Под микроскопом. Это как раз то, что я люблю - дотошно и забавно.
Из первой же серии:



Я валялсо.

Также позабавили секции Для шипперов и Гардероб. Все-таки, замечательно, когда фандом так хорошо оформлен.

weisskreuz.ru/index.php?id=7085

@темы: Weiß

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Finished re-watching Kapitel. Still considering Gluhen. It's been about 6 years and I always sort of thought I'll watch it one day so why not? I find it really hard to cope with how much the characters have changed. I mean how can Aya be not red-headed and violet-eyed? But all in all everyone looks good. Except for Yoji which is the main problem with me watching it in the first place. He looks atrocious. How could they do this to him? But I might just give it a go.

Also I remember now that Weiss is also music. There's a hell of a lot of it and most of it is pretty average but some songs are pretty good. I just realized some of the songs from Ghuhen I never heard before and I really like them, especially Tomorrow. They might not be the best singers but Koyasu's voice is incredibly soothing and others are also pleasant. It really hits home somehow.

@музыка: Weiss Kreuz - Love Of My Life

@темы: Weiß

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Felt like shit again today. Wonder if it's a retribution for yesterday. I can't get that whole baby ordeal form my mind. Listening to Maria Mena isn't helping. It's none of my damn business. Who am I to judge her? As I was thinking about it today I started to wonder whether it's her I'm blaming or my own parents. I wasn't exactly unwanted but I was definitely unplanned. This is stupid. It took me years to forgive myself and now I seems to unable to forgive my parents.
I'm really curious about meeting the baby. Damn, it's so weird. He looks so much like his father. Shit, I was in love with him at, like 13. And now... I'm afraid that if I meet him I'll get too attached to him and won't be able to distance myself. I still feel stupid guilt for not being there for my half-brother. I have this stupid over-protective instinct over nice kids, a if I see myself in them and never want them to feel what I went through.
But no matter how I look at it taking meth when you have a 2-year old child is very fucked up.

@музыка: Maria Mena - Dear

@темы: myself, musings

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The gear shifted.

I don't really like being in the majority but oh well.





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запись создана: 28.03.2012 в 14:25

@музыка: Ayumi Hamasaki - tasking

@темы: Alice Nine, ratings

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Began watching That 70's Show. I only know about it because of tumblr, it always shows up when I check out Hyde's tag. So far I'm not that impressed but Ep was pretty good so maybe it'll get better. And hey, there's "the hottest man on Earth" according to Tora. XDDD

@темы: series

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The girl is pretty awesome even though she ships ShouxHiroto. I LOVE this one. I only realized what it's about after I watched FF though.

@темы: ViViD, Alice Nine

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I don't do social networks. I just don't. There's no one I want to find and I don't want to be found either. Yet my sister does so a few days back she said my high school friend showed up and wanted to meet me. We haven't seen each other in about 5 years and frankly I had no desire to whatsoever. I wonder if it makes me a cold bitch but I'm not even curious about how my former friends are doing. But I couldn't find an excuse not to meet her so I did. She's now a divorced single mother. Why am I not surprised? But as I listened to her story it seemed like a dream. I still remember when we met, barely 12, how she came to like this boy two grades up and it was all shy and awkward and goddamn it... How could it take 10 years to realize he's not the one? Now she has a 2-year old son but it doesn't seem like she matured that much. In my eyes she's still 13 and reckless and she likes to party, booze and drugs included and I just don't get it.
I suppose today went pretty well considering I was dreading to go in the first place but I wasn't thrilled, you know. I kept my distance. But it was pretty wild by my standards what with two cocktails and even a cigarette which I held more than smoked but still. Rather than saying I had fun, I'd say it was interesting but I got really tired and it's so not something I would want to repeat regularly. At some point I wanted someone to go clubbing and have fun with but now I feel so old for this.
I suppose I can't just sever this bond now but it's not really something I wanted. I still think it's a relationship that exhausted itself long ago. Maybe I'm terribly cynical but in the prospect I just don't see any gain in it for me, only frustration and headache. People are too hard. Nobody seems to understand how I feel about this.

@темы: myself, musings

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Just laughed at this one article How to Write Good and Bad Aya/Yohji fic. I like stuff like this, some things are very specific and other are the same for any kind of fiction. The problem is, I guess good authors can only laugh and sigh at this and bad one won't even get it. Anyway, this.

Use spellcheck. And a beta. And make sure your beta’s English is BETTER than yours, not worse or equally bad, if you have trouble with English. Also, if your spelling isn’t the best, please PLEASE check the definition of the words your text editor has automatically corrected from your spelling, to make sure it’s ACTUALLY the word you want. Again with getting a good beta.

Credit: a-execution@livejournal

@музыка: Kagrra - fuusetsu

@темы: fanfix

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"I won Alice Nine's backstage pass". "I'm going to Shou's Birthday Event!"... I HATE YOU ALL! "I'm going to see a concert!" was bad enough already, but his...

@темы: fandom, Alice Nine

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Senpai OTP/Kouhai OTP

You learn fast, kids~

@темы: match, ToraxShou, RenoxShin

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How do they say it? Everything is Alice Nine and nothing hurts.

@музыка: Malice Mizer - Itsuwari No Musette

@темы: Alice Nine

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So I already wrote that I got into WK again. Funny thing. It started as WK=>J-Rock=>K-Pop and then last year it went back to K-Pop=>J-Rock=>WK.
I even wrote down some stuff thinking I might just... But then I came across this really amazing fic. It was exactly the type I wanted to read, the characterization and the emotional turmoil and all the dialogues... everything that I would want to write myself but much more complex and well-written. It made my last few nights, sneaking to bed around 4 AM but grinning like an idiot. It made me totally give up on writing my own fic, at least for now. But that seems really logical. The main reason why I write is that I can't find the fic that I would want to read.
Within the last few months I finished a lot of projects, all the videos and fiction and all the small things nobody really notices and lately I just felt I ran dry completely. It's not just the bitchy mood and stuff, I just don't really feel like making anything. I have no inspiration whatsoever, plus I have one of those 'fuck this shit' stages where I seriously wonder why I even bother and everything just seems so fucking pointless.

Also I'm re-downloading the anime. The quality is much better even though they cut down the openings and closings. The hell? But anyway, I was just going to look through it but I got caught up and now I'm watching it too.

@музыка: Natalie Imbruglia - Big Mistake

@темы: anime, Weiß

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The Advantages Of Sleeping With a TeddyBear

It doesn't smell
It doesn't snore
It doesn't steal the covers
It's always there when you wake up
It provides excellent bear hugs all night long

@музыка: Dir en grey - Sajou no Uta

@темы: musings

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OMG, LET ME LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!



I miss them so damn much. They better make an appearance soon cuz I can't wait until the 22nd.

@темы: Alice Nine

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I see Mediafire is being raided. Kokayz'a account has been suspended as well as azshannar's with all the A9 Channels on it. I'm so mad. Really getting paranoid about mine, it would be a real bitch to lose it.