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Записи с темой: dreams (список заголовков)
13:28 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I haven't been seeing dreams in months but lately I am seeing them a lot again. There was one very unique dream where I went back in time and woke up in 1997 or so thought for some reason. But then family began to talk about a revolution so I thought 2004. Must have been caused by my recent ponderings on what if. The last few days have also been pretty interesting, tonight I was on stage as one of TVXQ and I think I was Junsu becasue I had so sing this really cool solo part and my voice was awesome but I couldn't remember the lyrics so I was so embarrassed that I'm letting him down. There were also a few pretty gay ones, I wonder about that.

@музыка: Placebo - Where Is My Mind

@темы: Dreams

03:50 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
It's been a weird day.

For one, I had a very peculiar dream. And I have a lot of interesting dreams but somehow this was different from them all. It was sort of a lucid dream but not exactly. I was very self-conscious from the start as I woke up under the stairway of some school. I immediately began to wonder if I'm dreaming but everything felt so real that I could not be sure. Actually, the only thing that made me think that I was dreaming was the fact that I couldn't remember anything until the moment I woke up. Of course, a lot of things happened after that, I got out of that building, I met some old acquaintances (it seemed to be a sort of college class reunion), I went into the city and walked for quite a while. But all of those things were fairly normal things, nothing out of line. I even remember thinking about playing that RPG game once I get home.

When I did wake up I was in for another surprise. The system wouldn't boot on my PC. Which was not so surprising as the night before I had to manually shut down the power. Anyway, I freaked out. Just a notion that I may have to install the system somewhere where it's not meant to be, recover the ton of files I have, then install a new system and delete the temporary one. But of course, Windows itself was not the main concern. This was obviously a symptom of some hardware problem. I was so stressed out over this and nothing seemed to help. I was this close to putting a Win XP on my old drive (I had half-hoping for a sweet date with it), it suddenly dawned on me that this whole time the system was booting from the wrong drive. So relieved but also pissed it took me 3 hours to figure out. I have been having problems with time lag and once the time reset not long ago but this time apparently the whole BIOS setting reset, hence the boot problem. From what I gathered the problems might all come from the CMOS battery. Honestly, that's the least possible hardware problem you might encounter so hopefully that's all there is to it.

@темы: Dreams, PC

20:34 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Today's dream was fairly nice. It was school stuff first and then some pretty ecchi things later on but the odd thing about it was... the school stuff wasn't unpleasant because I was sort of trying to see where I go with this cute boy and they boy wasn't anyone from my past, I think he had the face of an actor I saw briefly last night. Also all the girls I got on with later on were perfectly unfamiliar. It was oddly refreshing.

@темы: Dreams

15:45 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I got to bed a little earlier than usual but couldn't get up because the dreams were too damn interesting. There were many of them flowing one into another but the most important part was when I was walking with a girl around my age (I think I thought she was Jewish) and I was sort of a tourist who had to go back soon. I saw these half-submerged ruins with people gathering there and wanted to investigate. She was a native there and we stepped onto this little island. We then sat together leaning into each other and I felt such a deep connection with her in mere moments. She also tried to pass me some of her knowledge telepathically but I'm unsure how that went. I knew I would never see her again and it saddened me so. We then went to this sort of palace but the door to the main room was only about 20 cm tall, she passed it with ease but I could only stick my head in there. Meanwhile, other people of her race came to the door and for some reason seeing me, the outsider, they got scared. I really wished I could come there once more.

@темы: Dreams

13:40 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Just woke up from one of the most terrifying dreams ever. If wasn't violent like the ones I used to have, but it was hyper-real and creepy, more of a thriller I guess. I just woke up in an unfamiliar apartment and there were people who seemed to party but then these people wanted to hurt me. I tried to wake up but two more times I ended up there. Finally, the 3rd time I tried acting more careful and intuitive and I was finally able o wake up but oh my god, that was awful. The thing that was scariest though was how that world was just as real as this one, if not more, I couldn't believe it. I've had this type of dreams before but they were all pretty nice. Anyway, it's good to be home.

@темы: Dreams

16:23 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Tonight I saw this beautiful loving QaF-themed dream. As always, good dream only happen when I'm fucked up.

@темы: Dreams

16:17 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Today's dream had not one but two Tegoshige scenes. Both fairly innocent, one of all 4 babies in a pile with Tegoshi half lying on top of Shige. All perfectly natural.

@темы: TegoShige, Dreams

13:08 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I had this really long and complex dream but the best part of it was this CM with NEWS. At first there was Tabe Mikako and then all the boys. There was this scene where they were sort of on a picnic and I think Tegoshi had that pink dress on and he was lying on his stomach just chilling. Then Koyama came and the two of them did... what's it called in English? Sort of Patty Cake game? really lovingly. Next Shige leaned in and kissed Tegoshi on the cheek. Massu remained awkwardly unconcerned. There were a few more scenes like that and finally there was one with Tegoshi linking arm with Koyama and Shige on both sides. Damn, that was a thing of beauty.

@темы: Dreams

13:20 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I had this dream today where it was sort of like an A9 fanmeeting but a very small one - there were just 4 of us girls and we were on my living room sofa. Anyway, I just remember Shou was right there and for some reason he wanted he give us a hug in a completely innocent way and he hugged this girl next to me first, then all 4 of us at once. He felt just as soft and comforting as I imagined.

@темы: Dreams

00:48 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Tonight I had this very vivid dream where I met this boy who lived on my floor. He was like 5 but he was really smart and mature but troubled. And I tried so hard to look after him, to help him. It's really odd when you get attached to dream people probably generated by your own mind.

@темы: Dreams

13:53 

The Theory of Everything

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Had what was probably the most mind-blowing dream in my life. I don't remember much now but I'll still write in. The first image I remember perfectly clear is a house on the sea. It was quite by the sea as sea was splashing in our huge window, about 50 cm of it. I saw the room just as clear as I see my room now. I realized I was sleeping but I was holding on to the dream with all my might. The fact that our house was so dangerously placed scared me a little and sure enough water came rushing into the house, it didn't go far though, just about 50 cm of it.

Then something major happened but I don't quite remember. I think some people came and took me away. The was a woman, named Ingrid I think and she was really important to the story. She was probably my Trinity. But I remember we lived together for a while and we got close. (that part was totally the result of me following homolesbians yesterday) I remember craving for a cigarette. This arc is very unclear in my mind but the thing was I was one of the chosen people who could travel through the fabric of reality. But other worlds weren't unreal, they were just different. It was like interdimentional manholes. (that might have to do with my love for Planescape) I felt powerful. There was totally more action going on but it's all too fuzzy now to remember. Then I woke up. But I went back to sleep for a little more.

The plot changed a lot but the tone of the dream did not. I was on a roof of some chapel and in was covered with snow just as the ground below. I was contemplating these grand idea and I remember a number came and I learned it was a key to everything. It was akin to 0117 I I thought that the day now was Jan 17 and regretted not being good with math because then I might understand it all. It was The Theory of Everything (the term which comes from Alpha Centauri) Then a man came and he offered to accompany me down which I gratefully accepted. We went inside but it was like a crypt (though there was also this jewelry shop at pone point) and things kept happening to him. One time there was a fire, another he fell down from a collapse of a wall. And every time he sort of changed bodies and happened to get older until when we were close to exit he turned into an old man. I was scared he it was all my fault and that he wouldn't make it out alive. I'm not quite sure but I think we did in the end.

@темы: Dreams

15:04 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I had this beautiful dream today where I watched NEWS perform and they had these charming oufits on - corsets and frilly skirts. Also they had their hair up. Actually, I don't remember anyone but Tegoshi but he looked gorgeous. Then they had to change into Kaguya outfits (I think) really fast so while Koyashige managed it Massu totally did not and Tegoshi tried to change while the song already started. In the end though he gave up and Tegomass both just ended up on the floor laughing. It was great.

@темы: Dreams

00:49 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Had a very inappropriate dream about Elektra. I think Psylocke was somehow involved too. Now I have dirty thoughts every time they fight. Which was twice today.

@темы: Dreams

13:45 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I kept going in and out of sleep the whole morning so there were many dreams of all kinds. But the vilest and sweetest one happened a few hours ago. I'm really such a loser to dream about chatting with people and watching vids and worrying my sister might see and just being a fan. But hell, that kiss was worth it. I'd pay a lot to see it again.

@темы: Dreams, TegoShige

23:56 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
It was a really long dream but there was this part where I was in this corridor with Alice Nine and they just sort of hung out there, going in and out and at one point I remember just randomly bear hugging Shou from behind just because he was being so cute and then being sorry because I felt I must have creeped him out. It was really good.

@темы: Dreams

15:49 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I am watching Hanawake and I had this bad dream where there were NEWS and I thought this was my chance but Shige got interested in my older sister. Who just happened to come back home after a broken relationship. Ugh. She never stole boyfriends from me, there was never anything to steal but I still am unsurprised at this dream.

@темы: Dreams

04:28 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
It's so odd with dreams. Sometimes I live whole pieces of life with jobs, friends, love interests, problems. I go through it, I have hopes and do my best but then all of a sudden it all crashes, melts, slips through my fingers. What felt so real turns out to be just a phantasy in mere seconds. Sometimes like today I feel wronged. Because the things I had there are gone forever, that life though imperfect still felt like mine.

@темы: Dreams

15:10 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I actually had a dream where Tegoshi was at the airport in a princessy dress. It was a Tegomass tour I think. Then on a different occasion when he was with NEWS he smooched Shige. Thank you, brain.

@музыка: Penicillin - Hibiwareta HOLYNIGHT

@темы: Dreams

02:26 

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14:55 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I've had another ones of those conscious ones. Except this time I went much further. I remember the dream being something unpleasant and I felt the power to change the whole scenario altogether. Of course it wasn't that easy. I remember setting a sunny weather and some nice scenery but I wasn't able to stabilize it and it kept slowly changing back to something bleak. But the main problem was that I suddenly realized I don't have a solid plan, I don't know what kind of dream I want exactly. So in the end I lost control pretty soon but it was still a major step forward. Next time I should plan ahead.

@темы: Dreams

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