Записи с темой: toraxshou (список заголовков)
00:57 

The comeback I didn't want

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
As much as I missed them I was not looking forward to this. After the last album I was pretty sure I will not be pleased with new material. I mean I had a faint hope but today I was dreading to watch the new video, somehow I was prepared to be unimpressed. The song itself was not that bad. Unoriginal, yes, but not bad. It reminded me of +/- which I don't like. But the video... I mean overall it was ok, again, unoriginal but nice but Shou... WAI? This one thing completely ruined it for me. Because seriously, WTF?

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And then there was this. DIAWOLF. Shou and Tora's project. I was supposed to be happy about it. I was. But somehow, somehow I had a feeling I won't like this and I was right. Not only it's the pseudo-hardcore type that I loathe, it's completely in English. Why do you have to do this? Basically, it reminds me of Givuss but without the youthful rawness. But I really love them using their surnames, it's an odd turn-on. Well, I'm gonna hope they'll release something bearable eventually. I'm also gonna hope they at the very least do a sexy photoshoot.

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I am at a loss how to proceed here. I adore the boys but not the music. It's even worse that everyone is so excited about his, most importantly the boys themselves.

@темы: Alice Nine, ToraxShou

03:46 

Shou's Twitter, 2014.09.21

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
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Posted at about 4 AM. Seriously.

I have resumed updating King&Queen again. Not for anyone, for myself. It means a lot to me and it deserves to keep living. It seems like such a stupid trivial thing, shipping and all but it's such an integral part of my life I can't deny it. Everyone deserves to have their own illusions.

@темы: ToraxShou

14:44 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Slept for 10 hours agian today. But hey, at least the dreams were pretty good. It was mostly about some summer camp and me trying to get good grades in language and literature but when I tried to roll it back I remembered another one, a short dream that was earlier. Which was basically Shou and Tora making out. I dunno where it was and stuff, I just remember Shou looking really in love and happy and they just kept kissing. A little late for this but I won't complain. I might come back to them, but not now, not now.

@темы: ToraxShou, Dreams

01:40 

And the Door Opened...

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Last night I got into a fit of anger and frustration. But I forged it into something beautiful.

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It is done. I had this story 95% written by September but then shit hit the fan... the fan being me and all of my creative juices ran dry. But I wanted to finish this story no mater what. So I waited. Yesterday I felt it was time to try so I sat down and completed the last part, took it over 5.000. I love each and every single piece I've written but I really think this one is special, more whole and mature. And since it's AU I had a lot more freedom with the story so it feels like a fully original piece of art which is kind of amazing. I'm more than satisfied with it. Took me forever to decide on the title but I like this idea and I also like the banner. It may be simplistic but it's mine.

This is probably my last work in this fandom. Though I have a few drafts they're all at early stages and I don't think I have it in my to put so much of me into this. But never say never.

@темы: ToraxShou, fanfix

13:31 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Ain't it funny? Tonight of all nights I had my first proper ToraxShou dream. It was lovely.

I was backstage for what I think was a Halloween concert. I remember Tora had this white and black powder for make-up and I thought it would really suit him. Then at one point all the members were sitting in line on some long sofa or something. Shou was on the far left and Tora was next to him. I was watching them intently trying to catch a sign of something special. You know. They were discussing something quietly, pretty much whispering to each other. And then all of a sudden Shou leaned forward and kissed Tora. It wasn't passionate, but rather warm and comfortable. I was amazed they didn't mind me. The kiss didn't last long, it was kind of very natural and affectionate.

I guess my subconscious is trying to coax me into finishing the story. Apart from that I also remember Shou on stage dressed in a very Hydeish way. It wasn't exactly a dress, but the kind of long white gown Hyde used to wear in early 90's and a headband. Something like that. I guess it's connected to my Halloween expectations. I see what you're trying to do, brain.

@темы: ToraxShou, Dreams

01:52 

Habits

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
It's the second anniversary of my community. Somehow it makes me feel sad, almost as sad as my own birthdays make me. As something precious that nobody cares about enough.

This is a video I made over the last year. It was hard to find all the right footage, it didn't come until Shooting Star. Actually, it was pretty much done by August but I wanted to have something special on this anniversary so I kept the final editing until last week. Not for the members, for myself. I think I really made the best of it. I think it might be my #3 on the list of my favourite videos. Unlike my previous ToraxShou one this video is plot-based so I included the song lyrics below. I was somewhat worried about the song. Like, the "girl of my dreams part". But then Shou is the girl of my dreams. Ha. Also the male voice is too high for my liking but in the end it had to be this song and I don't regret it.



Lyrics: www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/mariamena/habits.html

@темы: ToraxShou, fanvid

03:18 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
So yesterday I found this stash of old photos and I was kind of excited about it. I also found a couple of old Q&A's of that time. But as was looking and sorting these scans most of which were from 2006-2007 I realized something. Basically, the Alice Nine of that time was a very different band. Even though visually some looks very pretty good, before Rainbows their sound seems like it was lacking something substantial. But this isn't really about the sound. I realized that the members of that time (namely Shou and Tora) were also quite different people. They were younger than I am now and immature in their own way. Especially Tora. I guess that explains why I didn't fall for him earlier. The Tora I fell for was a host and a smart-ass, something he matured into. Same goes for Shou. They went a long way. What I'm saying is that now it seems natural that I didn't really get into them years ago. We both had to mature for that to happen.

Another thing that came to mind was that it seemed like during that time - around 2005-2006 they weren't nearly as close as they are now. Somehow you just get that feeling by looking at the pictures. I wonder if it was the drama of the A to U tour that brought them that much closer. Although according to my observations something seemed to happen during the Vandalize era. That adoration is Shou's eyes became painfully obvious, and even Tora's attitude noticeably changed. Even me who is not good at reading people can sense this.

@темы: ToraxShou, Alice Nine, musings

00:50 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
A LETTER FROM SHOU FOR TORA (@ TORA’S BIRTHDAY EVENT, SEPTEMBER 2012)

『前のバンドを辞めた時に“一緒にバンドやろう”って声をかけてくれて、すごい嬉しかったよ。初めてのライブでワクワクしながら一緒に新横浜への電車に乗ったこと今でも覚えています。今ではこんなにたくさんのファンが祝ってくれてるね。俺がツライ時、何でもない風に支えてくれて、俺が突っ走ってる時は黙って着いて来て、理解してくれてありがとう。これからもずっと俺の隣でギターを弾き続けてね。

俺の一番の親友であり、大切な戦友。

Alice Nine将 』

NAOKI-san read the letter。

"When I quit my previous band I heard your voice saying "Let's make a band together", I was really happy. I still remember feeling nervous as we took the train to Shinyokohama heading to our first concert. Now so many fans congratulated you. When I was having a hard time you supported me like it was nothing, when I was rushing forth you followed silently. Thank you for understanding. Please keep playing guitar by my side.
My closest friend, my precious comrade.
Alice Nine's Shou"

Tora-san looked very happy and moved to tears.


*Cries OTP tears forever.....*

@темы: ToraxShou

18:52 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I really wish I could write better and faster. I mean last night's insomnia gave life to a whole fic based on that one porny picture from before. And it wasn't a PWP mind you, it was a fully scripted, physiologically charged detailed fic.

@темы: fanfix, ToraxShou

02:13 

Junon 2013.06 (Extended delusion)

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
This interview gave me too many ideas...

I First of all, there's the obvious...

Shou: Everyone’s character is so different so it’s interesting.

Hiroto: First of all, Shou is super S (laugh). Normally he’s quiet but when he’s playing a game or something you can see it in his eyes that he becomes an S.

Tora: There are times when he shows his S side but you can say he can’t help being a super-M.


I had to ask Akinojou to make sure I wasn't making this up but guess not. Like, really, Tora? Whatever gave you that idea? I mean even Shou himself said he's an S.


II But it gets better:

Shou: Tora is a Popular Magnum. (laugh)

Tora: Let’s drop the Magnum talk. (laugh)

Shou: Tora is popular and I think he’s the best man for a woman to go out with. Since in our band he’s the only person who’s not airheaded. He’s a bit like a bird of prey.


I don't even have anything to say about this. Shou, you...


III But it didn't end here.

Tora: A person with a gentle character is good. Also my type is a level-headed reliable woman but in reality I end up falling for people who are the complete opposite. (laugh)

As I was re-reading what Tora wrote I just suddenly wondered: "Sorry, but if his type is a level-headed woman then is the type he ends falling for air-headed men?" Ok, that was far-fetched, I know. Yet...


IV And finally today someone asked me about what Hiroto meant when he said Shou wants to be defeated by an SS. And as I was explaining it to her it stuck me:

Tora: Though I am kind of like an overbearing husband.

And when I read this before I was kind of surprised and didn't know what to make of it but today I was, like... O_O This suddenly makes more sense than it should.


Maybe it is my ability as a shipper to connect the dots in such a way that is doesn't interfere with my theory, even aids it. It's probably some kind of enhanced shipper-vision and it's so out of control. :rolleyes:

@темы: ToraxShou

19:01 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
It appears that there is some higher power that decided to make this day a little less hard on me.



I still can't believe Shou made him do it.




@темы: ToraxShou

20:48 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
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@темы: ToraxShou

01:16 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Been struggling to make a good plot-based ToraxShou video and I even made a full draft but alas... I'm so done with it. There are too few PVs to work with, especially with Tora footage. I mean it'll be pretty either way but there's no space for creativity at all. I can't be satisfied with this level. Oh well, the perfect Yunjae video took me some 3 years to make and Gakuhai took about 6 so...

@темы: ToraxShou, fanvid

20:39 

Shadowplay~

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
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@темы: ToraxShou

22:53 

My precious precious babies...

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Thank you for the gift...

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Everyone goes on about how cute he is but I don't think he looks that cute. And that much like himself. Also I'm most likely taking things too seriously but the look on Shou's face bothers me. His brother is that way too.

@темы: ToraxShou, Tora, Shou

22:45 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Now my gif-making process comes in two stages - first Photoshop, then Gifmaker because Photoshop gifs speed up in Chrome.

Anyway... I love this gif. Just how happy they look here...


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@темы: ToraxShou

19:00 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
That said, I almost forgot where I started and that was...

LAST NIGHT AT THE CONCERT MY OTP KISSED! :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:

Okay, it was just a peck but whatever. I wonder if it was on the lips though. And did they meet in a kiss>?

@темы: ToraxShou

20:57 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
This is ridiculous, really. I want my OTP to be true but once I am faced with that possibility I freak out. I dunno why, it's like I'm afraid I'll get hopes too high.

@темы: ToraxShou, musings

02:09 

A great day for all of us, ToraxShou fans...

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
A young tiger marking his territory...

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I wanted to write a long post about Singapore but I don't feel like it and it will take days. I might do it later or might not.

@темы: ToraxShou

00:39 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
I AM SO FUCKING DONE TODAY.

@темы: ToraxShou

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