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16:00 

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Sister: Buys an ecotoilet, a bidet, a vintage sewing machine, a fruit dryer, a fuckton of other things she never really uses.

Siter: Why don't I have any money??

@темы: family

03:56 

Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning

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I've been playing it for so long and now I'm 50% sick of it 50% can't let it go. It's worse than fucking Skyrim - I got all of my houses from normal ones to creepy archmage tower to a fucking keep with a library and art gallery. And, of course, a shitton of stuff I never used.

It's a solid action/RPG, much like Jade Empire. Though I would say it's even closer to action genre since there's very few major decisions in the game, only siding with some factions with little difference. There aren't even proper conversations, you only get occasional variants usually when attempting a persuasion. Thus, the game doesn't have a high replayability potential. However, it offers something instead - a chance to easily change speciality at any point so you get to try out all it's got.

I love the gameplay. The fights are very fun and elegant, like good choreography. Great visual effects too. That's crucial to a game you play for 100+ hours. The enemies were oddly varied and it didn't get boring with the great choice of weapons, spells and tricks. But the interface was just plain bad, though probably still not as bad as Skyrim. Of course, one of the best features was beautiful graphics. The landscapes were amazing and every region has peculiar terrain, architecture and creatures. That's how I have 538 screenshots. Take that, Skyrim! One of the minor features that I really loved was being able to change the character's appearance at any house. Of course, you can't change the face but the hair colour, tattoos, jewelry and make-up make a lot of difference. Simple and fun but I never saw it in any other RPG games.

One thing it's missing though is a good plot. There's strong lore but the plot is pretty vague and boring. It's kind of dark too. I knew it from the start. The only thing keeping me from playing it sooner was the fact that the starts with you waking up in a pile of dead bodies. It's not too graphic of course but I think there's still a lot of unnecessary gore in the game. Also Fateless One sounds a helluva lot like Nameless One and the whole being resurrected and not remembering a thing thing? Yeah. The quests were mostly rather boring and sometimes plain buggy. Also some were nearly impossible to figure out on your own and even with walkthroughs. Another thing missing is companions. You only occasionally side with some characters but they're all basically useless except for distracting the enemies.

Dead Kel was obviously trying to introduce a bunch of things that were missing in the original game but it tried too hard. It was funny how it so casually inserted the word "sex" into 3 different female characters' dialogues. One of them becomes your wife but all that happens when you finally get to marry her is a black screen followed by her compliment at what a beast you were in bed. That's it, not even one new interaction. Just a little something to boost the male ego. I played as a female - one of the features that attracted me to the game - but it changes exactly nothing other than your appearance. The whole Keep quests are good idea but they take way too much time so by the time you get to them all, I was already sick of the damn island. It all seemed underdeveloped.

I think at some point I will give Skyrim another try, with all the expansions and mods and all.

Overall impression: fun and pretty, no real depth
Strong points: gameplay, graphics
Weak points: plot, interface, interactivity

@темы: Games

19:34 

Drag Race musical aftermath

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Of course, first and foremost, the song that surely imprinted on my brain and I ain't even mad...



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@темы: video

18:54 

Drag Race

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It's been a hellish week and I couldn't concentrate on anything, even fandom. So I started watching RuPaul's Drag Race and ended a season in days. To be honest, it's not surprising at all. If anything, it's odd I didn't get to this sooner. I started with Season 6 though becasue I watched the first ep on Youtube. No regrets, I doubt I'll watch all of them anyway, there's 9 out now I think plus 2 All Stars.

Anyway, it's been quite a ride. I guess drag is one of the few directions I never really explored. I think the social stigma for drag queens might be even harsher than for transgenders. Since transgenders want to fit in and the drag queens want nothing but to stand out. And I always had the image of drag queens as old mamas with caked make-up, loud and dirty-mouthed. But most contestants on this show are young and everyone's styles are completely different, from shocking and obnoxious to hyper-feminine. So it was interesting to watch. The show had many challenges like singing, acting, comedy and wit but of course sewing skills and a sense of style were essential.

I feel like there's a lot to be learned from drag queens, from style and make-up tips to wisdom and self-love and shining from within. And, of course, Ru is a fucking Goddess. But in a way it also made me think of how the whole thing was a competition of femininity as a construct and it's all the more clear when men do it. It's about dresses and hair and make-up, it's about the moves and the talk and the sassyness. Not to mention the Drag Queens made throwing shade into an art form.

As for the S06, from the very first scene I was charmed by Adore and till the very end I wanted her to win. She lacked experience and sometimes confidence but she had plenty of charm and was the most relatable. In the end though, with the 3 finalists I was ok with any of them winning, they were all great in very different ways. Bianca looked like a total bitch at first but in the end I guess its that character gap when she turned out to be really kind, that made her the winner. And then there's Courtney who was perhaps too flawless to win. However, last night I went too far into the internet and found this video of a very thrashy Adore performing live in an outrageous outfit revealing her ass and midriff which were very unsightly in addition to it being vulgar so I now I have very mixed feelings about her.

While I was watching I also remembered Tegoshi joining some Italian drag Queens in 2013. Now that I look at it, he might as well be a drag performer. I mean, clearly he doesn’t want to be a woman but he has a persona that’s kind of a separate entity and he enjoys letting it take over once in a while. I’d love to see him on Drag Race. I don’t think he would make it too far simply because he doesn’t have the skills to do his own make-up and put on a wig, let alone sewing. But I’m sure he could learn the trade quickly if he was in a position to.

After watching all 14 hours of the season, including Untucked, I got a little tired of it emotionally and Ru's laugh jammed my brain. I feel like I need to take a break from the race but there's a good chance I will get back to it later.

@музыка: RuPaul - Sissy That Walk forever looped up in my head

@темы: issues

17:07 

Songs of January

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NEWS - LPS

I like the song, it's catchy af and positive and an endlessly better start to the year than Emma was.

NEWS - Madoromi

I never expect much from NEWS so when there's an actually good song I'm always pleasantly surprised. This here is one of their best ballads and a great use of their voices.

Jonghyun - Take the Dive

Because of P. I ended up listening to the album. It's nice overall but this song in particular really gets to me. Listening to it is somehow sad and uplifting at the same time.

@темы: snapshot

19:18 

Rebel in the Rye

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I didn't expect much when I decided to watch the film but honestly I didn't expect it to be such shallow self-serving. Like, I know most people would disagree. I mean, if you compare it to most movies coming out it's not too bad, maybe even good. But for me, someone who is rather knowledgeable in both Salinger's work and his life, it was a disaster.

And it's not even a number of factual inaccuracies though some of them also were irritating. I realize it's a movie and some things will be changed for dramatic effect or brevity but I really felt like the changes were rather random and often just outright unnecessary. What I found the most disappointing about the movie is that it's pretty much based on a pile of cliches. Considering the high expectations and the interest of all the Salinger fans out there they really could have done better. The actors did their best but most roles were so incredibly shallow it was sad to look at. Almost every scene was so easy, so stereotypical and safe.

In terms of a biography, I think taking nearly 30 years - his entire writing career - was biting more they could chew. Many parts became blurred and indistinct, such as bring home his new wife and her disappearing just 2 scenes later. And while they did portray some of his shitty attitude to his wife, it did not even begin to describe the extent of the damage he's done to her and his children. And of course there were all the young girls whom he dated which was outright creepy. And as much as I love his books, if you gonna film a movie about the man, you have to do more than just making him a hero, a survivor and a martyr, you gotta bring out the unpretty parts too.

Just writing about it is tiring. What I love Salinger's work for is subtlety and this is one thing the movie definitely lacked.

One of my favourite critic reviews:
lithub.com/rebel-in-the-rye-is-bad-for-writers/

@темы: movies

18:17 

2000 FOLLOWERS!

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It’s been 6 years for me on tumblr and still going strong. Tumblr gets so much shit and most of it is from tumblr users themselves. Which is sad becasue I love it so much. It allows me to express what I want to and also learn so much, not just facts but also people. No other platform did it for me. It made me question and realize so many things about myself, allowed me to connect to strangers in the most intimate ways and find close friends who I can truly talk to and be heard. It was an outlet for me in hard times and a way to share the good times. I feel like Tumblr is the voice of our generation and it’s sad that we seem to hate the sound of it.

@темы: milestone

03:14 

Heroes of Might and Magic VI

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To me "Heroes" is one of the pillars of modern gaming. I first met HII when I came across it on one of those "200 in one" CDs they sold in the 90's. Most of the stuff on it was crap but that was a sure gem and loved it. Then came HIII, still considered to be the most classic one in the series. I loved it and played it a lot along with HIV which I loved about as much. HV came much later, as I got a new PC and decided to pick up where I left off. Yet, it came as a huge disappointment. There were many games which I gave more chances than I should have but with this one I didn't even bother - struggled for maybe half an hour before deleting it. I honestly don't know, to me it looked like crap. It's much better to have a good isometric game than a bad 3D one. But after a few more years I decided to give HVI a try.

Tonight I finally finished Heroes VI and here's a few words on that.

To me the feelings are very mixed. First of all, the game was incredibly laggy and froze ever so often. I tried to fix it, I really did but in the end I just gave up and reloaded the game, sometimes 3-4 times at one point. That really ruined the experience. But let's move on. Overall, I liked the new design, the units looked great though you seldom looked at them up close. The animations were good too, when they didn't lag that is.

The castle overhaul was mostly good in general but it felt like there were fewer castles and so many classic units were just very absent. I didn't quite like what they did to the Necromancer and Demon castles. Some units were so gross it was disgusting to even look at them. The main reason why I skipped the Demon campaign. But I liked the Sanctuary castle. It is refreshing to see Japanese mythical creatures used in a game. The dark elves looked great too. But yeah, the units and the gameplay is good.

I thought the plot was odd and messy. While I don't care much normally, here it was more evident so it influenced my choices a lot. While there were 5 main campaigns, one for each sibling and of different factions, I only did two. And even that only because I needed it to finish the final campaign. I chose Irina, of course, and later Anastasia. Both wronged women who took their fates into their own hands. I tried playing the humans but the protagonist was such a giant douche I quite on 2nd scenario. I was reluctant to play for the Necromancers but I had to choose another campaign to finish the game and in the end it felt strangely liberating. I mean I sure look the part. Also inner jokes like “You’re not taking my castle! Over my dead body, bitch! Oh, wait. I am dead anyway.” The ending brought no satisfaction whatsoever. It was just like "What? That's it?"

I will probably try HVII at some point but for now I need a break. From the battles and from the bugs

@темы: Games

02:47 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
"I can't say no to your face, stupid," Shige goes on, and something inside Tegoshi swells.



It's odd, really. I barely write about fanfiction lately but there you go - two posts in a row. And concerning the same author too. Just when I lost all hope... I saw the light. I can already tell this has been an experience that shall be one of the year's highlights so I need to write about it.

I did a few prompts with authors I loved in the past but it never really worked out and it was then that I started writing myself. But this is a valuable life lesson. I tried again without expecting much. Hell, enough time passed that I was almost sure she would never write it and I was ok with that. And yet she did after all and it was good beyond any of my expectations.

I requested a fluff and got a full novel. This fic gave me 50 shades of feels and I rarely get a few. This just hit so many points for me on so many different levels. I laughed, I “aww”ed and I shuddered a lot. Can’t remember the last time a fic made me feel that way. I mean I can remember a few, such as kandadze's stuff which was 10 years ago. But the thing is, as much I liked her works there were many things about them that didn't sit well with me. In fact, if I look back on them I begin to wonder what even was it about them that I loved so much. I mean I know what it was but it would absolutely not work with me now.

I've always been very picky. Only one pairing per fandom and a lot of specifics for characterization and relationship dynamics. And as I started to write my own stuff my standards got even higher. Now that I created my own world, I found it even harder to enjoy things that contradicted it significantly. In this fandom in particular, any decent fic was years away and the past few years I was so engrossed with my own writing I hardly even reread anything. So basically at this point I pretty much given up on reading something really good. And yet - a miracle has happened! I waited for the night to come and sat in to read, anticipation mixed with fear of another disappointment. But it never came.

Everything about it was great - the general concept, the characterization, the relationship, the humour. There are so many things I like about this fic, it’s almost weird in a way. It’s like she read my mind. Even the smut was amazing. My own story “Benefits” is somewhat similar but I feel like this one is on a different level. I love the way she portrayed them both. It's a little different from mine but in an interesting and valid way. Besides, I can oddly sympathize with Tegoshi’s POV. I can understand the complicated feelings that come when you tend to abruptly lose interest in someone or something. And Shige’s casual sexy being a danger in the workplace is so real.

In a way it made me a little sad that she could create something so great in such a short time while I struggle with my works for months, sometimes years. In a way I almost felt like "I can even step down now. I am humbled and my work here is done." But that's just being pleasantly dramatic. I love writing. I never aimed to be the best at it but I know I'm good and people enjoy my stories. Besides, I'm pretty sure she borrowed a few ideas from me.

So I spent a few hours reading and I took my time knowing you only read a good fic one time for the first time. I almost teared up, really. Not because I was touched by the story, it wasn't dramatic, but just from the joy of knowing there can be good things when you don't expect them. To me it was so much more than a good fic, it was a promise, a hope and a reminder that you have to try and that's the only way to get good things. I clearly remembered - moments like this is the reason why I fandom. I do not expect another fic like it, for now I'll just see it as a single blessing but that is more than enough.

Man... I’d probably sell my soul for this fic. Glad I didn’t have to.

@темы: fanfix

18:31 

The 2017 Totals

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Site of the Year: tumblr, weibo.
Obsession of the Year: NEWS
Movie of the Year: none in particular
Series of the Year: Halt&Catch Fire
Dorama of the Year: -
Anime of the Year: Barakamon
Documentary of the Year: Light and Dark, Atom, Servants: A life below stairs
TV Show of the Year: SNL, Travel Man, Mayonaka no Prince, Shounen Club Premium, The Daily Show
Game of the Year: Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning
Quote of the Year: I think I had one but I just can't remember
Actor of the Year: Lee Pace
Pairing of the Year: Tegoshige, Jiguiwa, JoexCam tbh
Throwback of the Year: Ace Of Base
Artist of the Year: Sia
Album of the Year: Neverland
Demise of the Year: SO MANY. Here's a few: Emma, The Real O'Neils getting cancelled, local mail service, Upwork, Torment: Tides of Numenera, Will Aitken's "Realia", "I'm Coming", Photobucket, Logan, Alice Nine's new stuff, RIP Marvel Heroes, US politics, RIP Jonghyun, home invasion.
Achievement of the Year: Getting a nice job
Highlights: New treatment, Barbara Makeover, Neverland, present form Paola, Quartetto DVD, Dahlia, Prince, Koreyada 2017, my new adult body.

Soundtrack of the Year: NEWS - Silent Love, Buck-Tick - Dress, Buck-Tick - One Last Kiss, Kato Shigeaki - Ayame, Sia - Never Give Up (from the Lion Soundtrack), Ace Of Base - Waiting For Magic, Shinee - 산소 같은 너 (Love Like Oxygen), Sia - Confetti

Statistics

Series:
TBBT
Fresh Off the Boat
The IT Crowd
The Good Fight
Halt&Catch Fire

Dramas:
49
Toki o Kakeru Shojo

Best Movies:
Lion
Loving
The Greatest Game Ever Played
Queen of Katwe
Fences
Moonlight
Suffragette
The Kings of Summer
Pele
On The Road
Logan
Certain Women
Battle of the Sexes
Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets

Ayashii Kanojo 2016
Blind Teacher Yoshinori [2016]

Games:
Sims 3
Marvel Heroes
Torment: Tides of Numenera
Dragon Age: Origins
Might & Magic. Heroes 6
Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning

Fanvideos finished:
Dangerous

Fanfics finished:
Mirror, Mirror
Fragile
Merry Christmas, Shige!
Older

This year took 2 pages, that's all.

@темы: Totals

19:03 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...

One of the year's highlights was this, an earnest anthem to all the good things from the man that just keeps amazing and drawing my admiration.

@музыка: Sia - Jesus Wept

@темы: Shige is my spirit animal

00:32 

Editorial

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I'm not sure when I stopped writing here, or rather when I lost the urge to write. I used to describe even insignificant things but now I skip even major ones. I've only had about 30 posts this year and at that rate I might quit doing them altogether. Not sure why it's like this. Maybe it's the wonderful fandom I'm in or maybe it's just a natural change. It would have scared me some years ago but now I got much calmer about things. The only posts I made regularly this year is game/drama posts. That's rather specific kind and I still want to compress hours of playing or watching experience into a short review.

I haven't even written about my new job and that's a major thing. So I guess I'll just do it now. I've attempted academic writing 3 years ago but I gave up after 2 orders. Yet, I remember contemplating an editor position even back then but deciding I need to have writing experience first. However, now it seemed like a natural step. I wasn't even aiming for this job, I was aiming for a certain copyrighter offer but then it appeared and now it's obvious it was a better choice. It's one of the best things that happened this year, really. I really felt a lot f pressure and I needed the money and it offers me decent pay with optional load and very flexible hours. A great deal, really. Of course, there are certain issue with it but they're worth it and I feel like the experience it great for my future employment and even for my writing. It's only been two month but I already feel like I got a hang of it. Obviously it's not a dream job, at least now that it's not official, but right now it's perfect for me and I couldn't ask for more.

@темы: work, snapshot

00:18 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Finally decided to replace the images on the last two pages. Of course I'm not going to go back 11 years and fic it all but looking at it every time is annoying and besides I want to write a summarizing post and that will help to remember things.

01:30 

RIP Marvel Heroes

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Been playing it for over 3 years, it was my second and most beloved MMORPG. I legit traded my beloved WinXP for 7 mostly to play it. Its demise feels premature but I guess all things come to an end. I really hoped the servers would last till Dec 31 as announced but come to think of it it wasn’t realistic. At least I got to try on all the costumes I always wanted and play another 10 days. It's sad leaving something you invested into. Sure, I wasn't one of the veterans and didn't do cosmic, knew nothing about builds and never even did a red raid. But I spent many hours playing it and it brought me into the world of Marvel even more, I got really attached to some characters. And then there's the cool community. I could stay in touch but I don't think I will, hardly there's another game that could compare to MH. But thinking in a affirmative way, all things come to an end and now I can clear up 20 GB of space on my HD as well as having more time for other
Goodbye, Laura

@темы: Games

00:08 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Kanjam did an episode on Visual Kei and it gave me and half Japan sweet nostalgia. Though the show was far from perfect in its representation, it made me look up some bands and video. As a result, I am in love with "Dress". So late but good music and beauty is beyond time...



@темы: J-Rock, video

03:04 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Barely slept this night so I woke up every few hours with a new dream in my head. Like, there was one where I hung out with Gackt and he was a little busy sculpting a golden statue of himself. He did it from liquid pool of gold, building it from bottom up by pouring the gold layer after layer. It looked cool tho. I only remember us talking about Tegoshi, him being problematic and I remember saying "There is nothing PG about Tegoshi." Which makes surprisingly much sense. There was also the one where I lived in this cool apartment and all the neighbouring apartments had Johnny's living in them, and not even those I particularly like.

@темы: Dreams

17:32 

Halt and Catch Fire

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Season 1

Feminist Frequency turned my attention to this show and damn I needed it. There's a lot of good shows on TV now but very few that suit me. It's all thrillers and murder investigations of all sorts and I really don't need this shit. But here - finally - a show that's engaging but low-stress. The plot is good, the characters are good and you have no idea where it's gonna go. It's complicated, it's messy and it's very human. Lee Pace is fucking amazing in this and this is the kind of bisexual character TV needs.

And then there's a strong and weird romance. Dysfunctional one may say but fascinating. S1 ended with a crash but I'm sure there's a lot more to it. I feel like most women would side with Cameron but I'm not very sympathetic to her right now. And not saying Joe hasn't been a manipulative dick because he sure was but Cameron hasn't exactly been a sweetheart either and she fucking knew what she was getting into and it excited her. She was using him too if not as skillfully. And forcing someone to open up to you only to mock them with it later is an immensely dickish move. But just like Brian and Justin I feel like there's a lot of growth potential here.

My one critique is the pace. Honestly I feel like things are happening too fast. Not only for the plot but for character development too. My last het pairing was Kalina/Cary and they took 5 seasons to really take off and it was worth it. H&CF would surely benefit from that.

Season 2

The second season was... unpredictable for one. The start was slow and a little boring even, things got interesting midway through but nothing ever happened like you would expect it to. Which isn't necessarily bad but I felt like it lacked a sense of direction, it was almost as the scriptwriter was making things up on the way. But it was pretty clear that both the fiancee and the new boyfriend were just passing characters to be discarded at the right time, you just didn't know when. Joe is clearly not meant for domestic bliss and now facing S3 he's where he should be - a lone visionary. It's fascinating how he keeps rising from the ashes time and time again. As for Gordon and Donna it's a real mess. Donna was the only sane person (aside from Bosworth) in S1 but now she's as full of shit as everyone else.

Season 3

You'd think S2 was messy but here things get even more complicated, most of all relationships. The last two episodes are 4 years away from the rest and really feel like they should be in S4. That's quite some character development with Joe, the man lost about a decade worth of fucks in just a few years. It's odd seeing him channeling Steve Jobs. Meanwhile, Cameron really pisses me off becasue she's acting like a selfish impulsive teenager. She wants all the control and none of the responsibility. Donna somehow turns into a full-scale bitch. Everyone keeps drifting together and apart again. It's a fucking mess and also probably the closest to life TV gets.

Season 4

It was slow and steady and mature. It wasn't sensational and yet it wasn't predictable. In a way it was almost hard to believe this was the same show as S1. Of course my main concern was Joe and Cam. From S1E1 I could fucking tell they will be so much more than a fling, they were like fire and gasoline, drawn to each other but only ending up hurting. But here, 10 years later, finally it felt like they had a chance, finally they both were ready for this. But the fact that they got together by 2nd episode was worrying. It was perfect but way too soon and every episode I was hoping that they stick together through it all - not for life maybe - but through the show. And yet... What hurts the most is not that they failed as lovers but that they failed as friends. I have very mixed feelings about the last episode. It wasn't bad or disappointing, I guess, becasue apart from Joe and Cam I had no expectations. But to me for the first time in the show it felt a little forced - like in the end they decided to make it some feminist statement and make it all about Cam and Donna, just Joe just being a side note.

@темы: series

03:15 

Dragon Age: Origins

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I try to keep away from RPGs because they’re so addictive but fail every time. This time I took on Dragon Age: Origins from a passionate recommendation.

I wasn’t really impressed. The graphics aren't great (though I belatedly realized I didn't use a bigger resolution), the controls are hard to figure out (nobody fucking told me about TAB dammit!), I don’t like the fighting system and the gore (why is there so much of it?) and that’s what makes most of any classic RPG game. However, after awhile I realized the character development is interesting enough to keep me through it. Well, there wa also this thing where everyone was telling my char "Woah, a mage AND and woman, that's so rare!" So yeah, there might have been a bit of a female pride there as well.

The crew is hella fun: a cute male sepai, a young bitchy witch, a former bard/thief/spy turned religious, a drunken dwarf, a bisexual elven assassin, a sassy golem, a war dog. At some point it got really engaging so it took less than 2 months to finish the game and the expansion.

Of course there's also the romance thing. I am not used to this in the games I played before. Skyrim and Drakensang have very little companion interaction and Torment gets you a written kiss if you work on it hard enough. But here it's full romance options, for both genders, even more so with some mods. *wink wink* In the end though I settled for Alistair, that stupid sensitive virgin who turned out to be the heir to the throne. And since I wasn’t noble he dumped me and honestly it sucked more that it should have. And you can't go back and hook up with Zev or Leliana if you rejected them.

As I got to Awakening I was disappointed to learn that only the drunken dwarf remains in your party, the rest are rather boring, hey the best tank is the undead dude. And I was determined to enjoy it, at first being above L25 I felt "I got this", and there was no more pressure but soon enough I began to miss my old crew, after all they were the best part. Also when his Majesty king Alistair came to check up on my keep it was like seeing your ex. Fuck this shit. Overall is was too easy, even the endgame, and all the tons of armor and weapons were almost irritating because nobody needs that much. The only fun I had was hacking the game to make my character look a bit older and tougher.

I probably won’t play again because of all the grinding needed to move forward but I kinda wish I could fast-forward and try out other options. I also did 2 small scenarios including Witch Hunt which is no more than a bridge to DA 2 but... nah, I don't think so. I really wish RPGs were more plot and character development and less fighting.

@темы: Games

17:15 

Today's unexciting story

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Went outside for 40 minutes. Never again. Spent about 15 minutes at the post office trying to get my letter out of which 5 was trying to get their attention and 10 getting them to find my fucking letter. When they finally did find it I said "sorry for the trouble". FUCK my fucking conditioning. Then I went to get some ice-cream. As I paid and was about to leave a huge guy blocked the exit and demanded to look inside my purse, even moved things inside. I gave him my best "FUCK YOU" face and stormed off home. I am 5'2 of hate and fury.

@темы: snapshot

01:28 

I don’t wanna feel Blue anymore...
Finally got around to reading "Realia" by Will Aitken which was a gift from my sister. Because it's about Japan obviously. I bet she didn't expect it to have a scene where a foreign woman in her 30's is spanking and fingering a Japanese pop star. I didn't finish it though, dropped it today at like 95%. Honestly I had lots of doubts about it early on but was intent on finishing it and yet... Before I felt like the worst part was the everlasting trend of sensationizing and creepyfying Japan but that's much worse. I haven't felt so grossed out since "Crash". What the fuck is wrong with modern writers, seriously? Why does everything has to be ruined by sex, drugs and madness? Seriously, fuck this shit. This awful aftertaste will surely linger for a while as I read and watch things about Japan.

My reading revival not going well, huh. Earlier I tried t tackle On The Road after watching the movie. But... I only made it about 30 pages in. It was boring and too pointless. I kinda felt like I'd drop it at some point anyway. If it wasn't boredom, it'd be sex and drugs and... yeah. Whatever happened to plots?

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